The internal pain
Has struck me again.
Turning me blue
Hating everything I do.
Taking me down
Hearing me drown.

But **** it,
I will never submit.

I look you in the eyes
I ask you once more
"What do I need to do?"
You look at me
Try to break eye contact
You know the answer
You know what I mean
Yet you turn away
You act as if I do not understand
As if I am not worthy of an answer
And now
Now I am finished
Finished with you
And all that you do
Your excuses and lame games
Your needy and irritating words
You think I don't understand
That you are broke too
But of course I can't understand
I'm far too young
I'm far too female
Far too anything to take seriously

I can smile
And I can grin
Hold conversations
And help those in need

But what if I am in need
When I reach out
Will someone take hold of my hand
Or will I drop

Will I drop
Forever with no need
Hoping for someone
Anyone
To catch me on my never ending fall

No
I cannot expect that much
It's too much
For one person to handle

So I will fall
Fall into this abyss
Hoping for someone to catch me
But knowing it will not happen

I've learned
Through and through
That people are not
They are not reliable
We have our own agendas
We don't care for others
We're selfish
Not selfless
Don't rely on others sweetheart
Your hearts the one that's gonna be broken in the end