All I ever wanted was to be unique
But here I am so replaceable it's disgusting.
To say I'm special is a joke. What makes me special?
You can't find anything in me that you can't find
better
In someone else.
You think you know me.
Think you love me.
Think I'm "different"
For now.
But everyone does at some point.
Then you realize how normal I am.
Like a rainbow it's a trick of the light.
Put me in the dark, you'll see how invisible I really am.
Move me to the darkness, really,
And you'll leave me there.
I'm the lamp you lit then put out and hid away..
I'm that trend you followed that lost it's style.
I'm insignificant.
At least don't lie to me and tell me I'm beautiful.
Don't tell me how special I am, or how I'm better than others.
Better than the other "unique" person I replaced.
I'd sooner die than hear that.
Save myself the trouble that'll come when you make me believe it.
Make me believe my dream came true
My perverse dream came true.

I sit at the same table
Drinking the same tea
Nothing here has changed
Or everything, but me.
I feel not overwhelmed
Nor accomplished- nor ashamed.
Time is moving forward
And I feel so unchanged.
I'm numb to my accomplishments
Nothing is defined.
All I've ever worked for
Is just a paper someone signed.
While this world is moving forward
I don't know what I'm doing.
I know what it is I'm trying
And I know what I'm pursuing
But I'm lonely in this calmness.
I'm lonely sipping tea.
I just wish this ever changing world
Would sit and sip with me

When the earth first saw the sun
No words could e'er describe
What warmth his darkest corners felt
His joy he could not hide.
His broken heart did beat with life
Rivers swam into the sea.
Trees did reach the highest heights
Till no darkness they could see.
And the sun continued shining
Moving all around the earth.
He found joy in all life he saw
In shining he found worth.
And throughout this shining glory
Throughout their brightened years.
No words have ever been exchanged
Nor smiles, frowns, or tears.
The sun ne'er once said to the earth
"You owe me for my gift"
Instead, in endless thanks and praise,
His love the earth doth lift.
See and behold the truest love
Of only we, not my.
This love that gave life to the world
And lights up our whole sky.

I dare you.
For one month.
Find something perfect about yourself.
Not unique.
Not odd.
Not ugly.
Not weird.
Just perfect, in your eyes.
The only eyes that matter.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,
So behold your own beauty.

So I'm back again at sleepless nights, after all the steps I took.
You once again passed through my life without any second look.
Be prepared for disappointment, my mind said that it would come,
But my heart controls my hope and my hope is something I can't numb.
So wide awake I lay here and I wonder what you feel...
Are you empty?... Are you bitter...? Is your soul even real...?
Do you blame me in your heart for what I cannot control...?
Do you even have a heart, or does your chest just have a hole...?
Such a petty waste of time, my mind calls it as it is.
But my heart controls my spirit... and it thinks my spirits his.

My dear,
If I can teach you anything
It's that people will hurt you.
Shh, no, not on purpose, mostly,
Simply that's what people do.
And yes, you also will hurt people
Probably many in your years
You must learn you can't please everyone.
that should save you countless tears.
But in regards to who you are?
You're the greatest you that's ever been.
Sure, you have your faults and vices
But who on earth is without sin?
No one, not even you.
And you know what else is great?
You, You're the greatest you I've ever known
Or will know at this rate.
You're uniquely what no one else is
You're what no one else can be
And though people will hurt you
(Just as they've hurt me)
You should know ten times as many love you
And they'd travel many miles
To hear you laugh and see your eyes
And they'd pay to make you smile.

I am so bruised and broken.
So betrayed by my own soul.
My mind partners with the forces
that keep me from being whole.
And I remember being happy-
Even happy to be sad
But there's nothing in my heart now,
My spirit has gone bad.
I long to be the one,
To be perfect in someone's eyes
Someone who sees me for who I am
And shows me how to fly
I wish I could make mistakes again
Because I could have a reason to remorse
To myself I can't apologize,
My edges are too coarse.
I love so free and open
I fall so hard, so fast
For things that break and shatter
For things I know won't last.
I see only good in people
But only bad in me
Because I work so hard to achieve something
I know I cannot be.