I exist, I swear
Don't forget me please.
I know it can be hard sometimes
But let yourself believe.
You remember me with sadness
But I swear, that wasn't me
You forget that in the darkness
I was the light upon your feet.
You remember that sea of fear
You forgot, I was your sail.
You remember not what I've won for you
But what happens when others fail.
Please don't close your heart to me
I'm so sorry you've been lost.
When you need me to carry you through this
I'll be here at no cost.
Don't doubt that I exist for you,
You'll get hurt, but that's alright
I can wrap you close, inside my arms
I'll protect you from the fight.
Come to me and I'll redeem you
And you'll give me so much more.
You'll never feel alone again
I'm what you've been searching for.

They say that time will heal all wounds but time will never pass
A year I spent in love with you who promised we would last.
You promised me with all your heart you’d love me till I died.
And when I passed you’d love me still, and visit where I lied.
You held me in tightly when we met, even if we met in dreams
You promised me forever without knowing what itmeans.
You told me I was perfect, you told me everyday
You would love nobody more than me. That’s what you’d always say.
You wanted me to be better than I was, you wanted what was best.
I couldn’t be perfect for you; I tried and failed that test.
I couldn’t keep on feeling like you were slipping from my hands
That your love for me was passing as an hourglass’s sands.
So I chose not to let you rule me, and for a while I was fine.
But I know you and I were meant to be, that we’d be back in time.
As time passed and I wished to speak you couldn’t find my place,
I was the puzzle piece of sky that didn’t have a place.
And so I lie inside my grave, where you swore you would come too
My spirit decays bit by bit as I remember you.
You’re eyes, your smile, your hands your mouth, your laugh and all my tears.
We will never meet again my love, you’ve moved onward with your years.

You're all alone and it hurts
You don't have anyone's arm around your shoulders,
or hands on your waist
or breath on your neck keeping you company-
keeping you warm.
You can't sleep because it's too cold inside of you.
Your heart stopped trying ages ago, your breath is just an act
Your smile, a facade.
The mask is suffocating you, but you like it.
Don't deny it.
The way it tingles and makes you feel something for once in your life,
Makes you feel anything at all.
You love it.
So you let the pain keep you company,
And warm the cold, and fill the void,
and slow your breath...
You now see that pain is your one true love
And with that realization,
You sleep.

I imagine he's in a graveyard
He's beckoning me in.
I see his warm, sweet smile
And I question what's a sin.
He's playing in the bones I see
Among what we've found lost.
I want so much to join him.
I'm weighing what's the cost.
Mom said he'd be in sunshine
I'd find him in better days.
In the springtime I look around me
In the winter I just pray.
My friends say he's inside of me
But they don't really know.
I can't even picture who he is
To the graves I have to go.
Some said I'd find him in first love
I'd find him and so much more.
Love left me cold and broken
I forgot then what life was for.
He's waiting in the graveyard
I know that's where he'll be.
All my life I've looked for him
As I'm sure he's looked for me.
There are so many people on the Earth.
Some he looks for in the rain
For some he looks in sunshine
For me he looks in pain.
I'll find him in a rope and chair
Or maybe in a lake.
When you have nothing left to lose
You have everything at stake.
I'm betting on the graveyard.
I have nowhere else to go.
The outside voices don't understand
They have what I don't know.
This is my goodbye for now
This is how I pay my toll
To find the happiness I never knew.
This bullet through my soul.
I'll see you in the graveyard
That's where my sun does shine.
I'll find him waiting there for me.
In a grave marked only mine.

So here we are again.
Looking at each other with our thoughts racing.
Our hands trembling in tune with our lips
Which burn to say what cannot be said,
What needs to be said,
What isn't worth saying.
Every unspoken word singes my fragile heart,
Bit by bit melting the glue that's been crudely holding it together.
It's not my own anymore.
It's broken, brittle, useless.
Take it and grow old with it.
please
Make a life with it,
Give it purpose
Make it whole
Bring it back from the dead.
I know, though, that you can't.
I know you wish you could mend it
Supplement what's been lost with your own.
But you can't.
I can't.
We can't. Ever.
So I guess it'll be this way.
We'll part ways
Grow old separate of each other
Give our hearts to people who can't give them what they need.
And then we'll die, for real this time.
So that's how this will end.

What solace do any of us have in love and the misery it presents?
It is said that everyone makes mistakes,
But who of us repents?
Which of us compare to Angels?
Whose demons stray not far?
Who of us leaves their pain at the door while others' define who they are?
There is no peace to find in falling
For what falls must hit an end.
Be wary and realize the harder you fall the less likely it is you will mend.
Falling itself is inevitable
We are all selfish things.
We only give love to get more love back
And feel like Life's Queens and Kings.
Then reality comes out of nowhere
Like swift and sudden bad news.
You are struggling in a black and white world to see any colors or hues.
So here you sit and ponder your fall
Surveying the now broken path
Aching from the brokenness in your heart
Feeding now off of your mind and its wrath.
I warn you again do not do it
In love there's no peace to be found.
Only fall if your heart isn't beating
Or your lungs aren't making a sound.

You made me believe in love, in her power and her grace. I freely gave you what I had and you threw it in my face. I didn't think it could be true but you had me at hello, I devoted myself completely to you, I loved you more than you could know. ***** chewed it up and ate it, spat it right there on the ground. And there at your filthy feet my heart and soul I found. You're a demon, you're a serpant, you're a lying, two-faced troll and what's coming for you is big and bad and it wants your blackened soul. I'd say run your heart out but I know there's nothing there, you're just the Devil in a skirt and heels, pure evil with great hair.