Kasey

Kasey Mar 2012

Always

I will always be with you, I'll watch you as you grow.
In life I loved you dearly, much more than you could know.
I'll watch you as you grieve to ease your troubled mind.
When you feel you're walking all alone know I won't be far behind.
I'll watch you fall in love, and smile when you smile.
I'll be in your wedding party and the eyes of your first child.
As you grow old I'll carry you, when you break I'll be your crutch
And when you feel so very tired, to my hands you will clutch.
And I promise we will meet again, I'll be waiting for that day.
Until we see each other I'll stay with you everyday.
I'll hold your hand when you depart and embrace your final sigh
Together we'll go to heaven, and never again we'll say goodbye.

Kasey Mar 2012

It wasn't worth it.

For what it's worth it wasn't worth it.
I gambled with my pain.
What's worse I threw your feelings in
and lost more than my gain.
I was secure and happy
Now I'm closed and obsolete.
I thought I'd trust some handsome fool
Who then kicked me to the street.
I dragged your heart into this mess
In one day I lost you too
for someone who was shinier
who glittered like brand new.
And now my heart is broken
Handled one too many times
By people who couldn't give a ****
I was pennies to their dimes.
So for that I say I'm sorry
If I could take it back I would
Of all that came from this mess
Not a single thing was good.
If I could see you one more time
I'd tell you straight and true
That he may have been adventure
But home is always you.

Kasey Feb 2012

Selfish

So selfish, so grabby so needy
Take take take
filling me with I owe yous I'm told are good for so much.
But they're not. You skip town, go bankrupt, need a bailout.
Leave me empty, pockets heart and soul.
God my soul.
You painted it so white it shined.
You poisoned me.
Make it appear so deadly clean, I should've seen right through it.
You taped my broken bones back so crudely
But my heart you held the tightest.
So tight you crushed it in your hands and scattered it to the wind as you ran away.
The heart you gave me was counterfeit.
fake, phony, flimsy.
Made of paper and glue, I could tear it apart and you wouldn't feel a thing.
Not one tear.
So selfish. So afraid for yourself.
All the ******* time.

Kasey Dec 2011

Anymore

Shes sitting there across from you with her tired eyes clouded over and staring at you without a single word. Pins drop as you remember when you made her smile, made her spirits soar to what she knows she can't reach anymore. You remember when she fell asleep with you on her mind, now she's needing sleep she cannot find. The corners of mouth no longer form a smile, the corners of her eyes drip with tears.
And you don't know what to tell her because you know you've said too much. And she's tired of asking but she needs what you can't seem to let go, what you can't be anymore.
Fingers pointing into silent glances into tears falling ******* the floor. No moonlight finds its way to you, the nights black and blue with remorse.
The sun still refuses to shine while morning creeps in to greet your cold stares. And she remembers how you made her smile and wants nothing but to feel what she fears you can't make her feel anymore.

Kasey Nov 2011

We're Finally Here

We're finally here, you said.
As you and I were walking in the dark.
It was cold and my hands were alone
We were trapped by a flurry of people and lights.
Onward we walked, miles and acres
through gates and trees, under the stars with no path.
My lonely hand was burning in my pocket
The other too far away to notice.
O, there were so many sights to see!
As the lights danced around and around our feet
They were talking and whispering and yelling to each other
calling loved ones by name and nickname: Larry, Jay, Pete.
And I was looking your way, but you wouldn't've known
You couldn't tell I was staring at your eyes
And hanging on every word you had to say
You looked at me and I turned away
Because my lonely hand was burning a hole in my chest.
I was to ashamed to say the words, but you knew
And in an instant my hand was cool
My lonely hand was no longer alone and my heart fixed.
And you were staring at my eyes, looking my way
And I said we're finally here.

Kasey Nov 2011

Piece by Piece

There are just some things we must learn alone.
Things we cannot mimmick, be taught, or memorize.
Things that will hurt and will agonize
Leaving us alone with no one left to apologize.
We will find faults in those around us,
We will hang on each word negative people say,
We will be broken apart and destroyed
With our souls and hearts left strewn across our physical structures.
Feeling uniquely what no one can be shown
We must learn ourselves, among other things,
How to bite our tongues through the many stings
That cementing ourselves back together brings
And to frown contently at a world that sings
And celebrates the simplicity of mindless things.
Where we know for a long while it is Nature
One day life again becomes Nature's gift
Sent to level our drifting spirits that lift our hearts to intangible temptations.
We will, in our own way, sand down the scratches in our hearts of stone
And chisel them once again into works of art
Which on their own will stand apart
Until one day soon it again will start
When someone sees the sculpture that is your heart
And begins to twist and mangle your marvelous creation.
You will submit, and you will fall
But you know how to put yourself back together.

Kasey Nov 2011

Hurting

It hurts when Love has passed us by, it hurts our gentle souls.

When our hands reach for another's grasp it hurts to end up cold.

It hurts to know you love someone and know they're good and gone.

To lay awake with memories that never last too long.

To know you've met the one for you and know they do not care;

To wish beyond the realms of life that when you awake they're there;

To feel your heart leaving your chest; to know each of your tears;

To feel inside your back and front a thousand stabbing spears.

What hurts the most is wishing you'd never been left alone.

To have a friend you could call who would always pick up the phone,

To have that chunk ripped out your heart, to feel the missing piece

And every time you take a breath your breathing seems to cease.

No amount of fake, forced laughs or auto-tuned hoorays

Could make up for the happiness you once felt in his gaze.