I have fallen for someone just a little older
though, my heart seems to only be getting colder
i lied and said it was a four year difference
but when he found out it was five, it was only a disturbance

he left me alone, without someone there
to catch me when i fell, and left me in despair
now everythings my weakness, and i feel so heartbroken
he's left me alone, with so many words unspoken

nothing will ever fill that place in my heart
he has taken pieces of it with him, in his depart
i miss his arms wrapped around me so tight
and his kisses that got me threw every lonely night

a stupid decition put me in my own purgatory
and left me in sorrow, with no capeable glory
this pain spreads through my body like a fatal disease
the pain in my heart will never be at ease

i have cried so much i can no longer stand
i wish he would come and lend me a hand
fallen to the ground, with every relentless ache
i've lost him over a stupid, dazed mistake

i really don't want to say goodbye
not after all the nights that i've cried
after all the things that we've been through
i'm always going to remember you.

i truly will never leave your side
and on you, i will always rely.
the bond between us will never end
because when knots untie, you're still my best friend.

of all the times we used to fight
and all the phone calls, late at night
with your beautiful eyes plain in sight
i don't lie when i say our friendship is tight.

but as our friendship grows stronger our
bonds stay tied
through the ups and the downs our
attitudes collide

you've always been there through
good and bad
and i want you to know, you're the
best friend i ever had.

no matter what, i'll never forget you
its always been only us two.
without you, it will slowly destroy me.
and i wish that you could really see

how much the past four years
have meant to me
in the end, you'll always be
my bestie<3

the pitted feeling
in my stomach
like no one
would ever have shame
for the cutting,
burning, and weaping
and giving others the blame

because they
can't handle the guilt
for this is
an unbearable pain
which calms
my weakened soul
and it just
keeps happening again

the blood
and tears of sorrow
begin to fall
like everlasting rain
whole arm
weakened to the touch
and the ****** red
makes me go insane

looking at
the cuts and gashes
that tears apart
the open wounded heart
she regrets every scar
but wont stop
because this is
an unfinishing start

the child plays gracefully on the slide
think about how her love is like a tide
pushing and pulling along the shore
but all she wants is just a little bit more
more of whatever he has to give
cause in her mind, she needs him to live
like the shells across the sea,
the rippled surface reminds myself of me
different mistakes but in the same pattern
but in the end, he's all that matters
our toes stuck in the warm sand
holding on tightly to each others hand
the glare in his eyes, the look of love
he knows hes not a soul above
but he knows he's like my tide
and i hope he's always by my side<3

living in the tention
of a life no one with ever understand
going through things people would never imagine
hearing voices no one else can hear
living somewhere i dont belong
but facing the fact that i'll never fit in
to be a family of friends
attached at the hip
knowing that we're no where near the end of the journey
yet watching it all fade away before your very eyes
watching yourself fade from the picture of life
fading, fading, fading
into the background wih no intention of ever being seen
in this world again
blinded from the bright light you one day intend to follow
down the dark path with no visable stop
into a innocent black hole
leading to what you fear most
alive in your own heart
but dead to the human mind

the blood from your heart,
bleeds from an innocent wound
made by a man who tore you to pieces
her life was sound without a beat
music without a rhythm
blues without soul
her life was nothing but a waste of flesh and bones
her blood ran like the water of a fluent stream
her skin, the color of water past the point of purity
her eyes the color of darkness
and her fingers the color of a beautiful rose
razors weren't the enemy
but as oblivious as she seemed
her enemy was the evil rested upon her soul

stuck behind the shaddows of shame
with no man to love or claim
left in the dark with all this pain
i'm sure no one could feel the same

always mistaken for an anserine girl
why dont we give the razor a whirl
cut, and slit, and blood pours out
will it **** me, it's nothing i can doubt

a hideous girl trying to face life
trying something new, perhaps a knife
the lines on her arms, a horrible sight
my whole life is dark, there is no light

except for the light that one day i'll follow
and everyone will feign sorrow
but on the inside i feel so dead
no soul, no thoughts, in my hollow head

hearts melting, arms gushing blood
surrounded by a red puddle of mud
all these voices are quietly screaming
are they in my head or am i dreaming

carefully holding the gun to my chest
i need a way out, and death is the best