karuna

karuna Oct 2013

i want to go back to the innocence
                                                                                                of holding your soft hands in mine
                                                                                                 i want to feel the warm summer breeze
                                                                                                                     and the wistful love of the ocean
                                                                                             but the trouble with the ocean is
                                                                  eventually the tide recedes
                               and leaves love lost in the waves

                  hate                 longing           hurt                 excitement
    wonder     confusion             hope            sadness                    madness

of a thousand other emotions

         pain                    sorrow                 fear            uncertainty          frustration
lust                anger                    passion          trust                    love                happiness

i tried to do a cool thing

karuna Oct 2013

Love

love

i'm in love with the idea of being loved

because i don't think i ever really was

i was always drunk on the thought of it all

just trying to patch myself together with the concept

i stitched you into me until you ripped the stitches off

now all i'm left with is this abundance of scars

love

i'm feeling kind of nostalgic and sad today

karuna Oct 2013

Story books

she loved to read books
books of every kind

she would spend hours sitting in a corner of her tiny room
cuddled up in blankets,
drinking green tea
and reading book after book

she longed to escape into their world,
to run free through the shire
to become a princess and run away with her prince on a shining white horse
to use magic spells
and defeat the evil the ran its course through the tangled vines of the world

she longed to live in a world were the good always won
because in her own storybook
you could not begin to fathom how how wrong that was

so through the rain and wind she continued to read
until she grew old and got lost in her stories
and was never found again

karuna Sep 2013

Alone

I am all alone
they don't want me anymore
that's what hurts the most

another haiku

karuna Sep 2013

That's No Way To Live

there is a constant fear,
as my eyes glance over anything
i read through a glowing screen,
telling me that somethings wrong,
that i could wake up the next day,
or get a phone call the same night
just to find out,
that i will suddenly be haunted by a pale ghost of a girl,
that i once called my friend.

karuna Aug 2013

Fixed Into Nothing (tw)

i used to be sad but now i just feel nothing
my heart still pumps blood through my veins
and my nerves send messages to my brain
but i feel nothing

not happy not sad
this numbness has overthrown me
i cannot feel the pain that lives with in me
i cannot match my eyes with the smile on my lips
i'v completely forgotten what happiness is

but i guess feeling nothing is better than being overwhelmed with so many feelings at once
being flooded by such a strong desire
to make it all stop
that i'd want to end my own life

they say mental illness is a disease that they want to fix in you
but the fixing they do
just dulls your senses and kills some of the pain
it makes you numb
but hardly more sane

i haven't been writing very much because i usually wright when i feel a lot of things. so this is why i'm not writing.

karuna Aug 2013

Unbearable

not talking to you is unbearable

six word poem