I Didn’t catch your new girl’s name

And you didn’t feel the need to bring her up much



She must not be enough 

Because You still need My Eyes on You, While I sit on my hands



It would be better to keep my Distance

But who can take their own Advise



She showed me where I stand with you

But you still need My Eyes on You



We were friends First

But I can’t forget our time spent alone



Sometimes to know exactly where you stand doesn’t bring Clarity

I can feel me losing my grip 

I want you

But is my intent to even keep you?

I try and not make it too obivious but I’m doing too well of a job
I found I’ve bulit a line between us
Lets blur this line
I must be deprived of good conversation, you seem to ignore what we have between us with out a second glance
I dressed up for you did you even notice? I thought I caught your eye the last time I wore this dress with this smile
I catch your glance as you pass
I grow tired of these glances and want a full on look
I can’t stand to waste your smiles so I keep them in me all day
Your laugh could fill a stadium, I’m dying to keep it that way
Your eyes put mine to shame but I wouldn’t have it any other way
I don’t want to spell it out
I want you to find me on your own
I fear this want will turn into a need
I’m scared you may be too good for me

I slide my ticket stub in my pocket
To find a seat in the dimly lit room, with you at my back
You Grab my hand while the picture changes before my eyes
Why did you ****** my hand with such Haste?
Why did you hold it at all?

You seem to study my finger tips with yours
I Lose concentration on something four times my size
The sound is all around me but all I can hear is the thoughts rushing in circles
Taking in this Attention only to mistake it for Affection
I take your hand in mine to scratch at your palm and run up your arm to where it bends
You react just like I hope you would
I feel you relax into me

The colors on the screen are bright but I’m blinded by the colors coming off you
Hypnotized, I memorize the bones in your hands
Wishing this movie will last just a bit longer
But we pasted the ****** moments ago
I worry when the lights come on you’ll let go

The lights are up
Names of People I could care less about disappear up to the top of the screen
I let your hand go First, to Beat you to it

To my surprise You catch me and draw me in to your side
To watch the other show of people filing out one by one

To My Catalyst,
Your Tests worked too well.
Though you didn't invent this you perfected it on me.
I couldn’t have know then and there all the hurt that was Next.
My chemical reaction was all alone.
Did You mean it to End this way?
For You to never feel the Effects?

You, I could never have changed.

A Hopeless attempt on my part.
I can't Regret you just yet but,
I can’t believe the road to my surrender was paved with good intentions.
Still I step away Hoping you will follow...

I won’t Sacrifice one Love for Another
So I’ll keep this Almost comfortable Distance For Your Sake
Safe and almost Sorry
Sorry for the Ache in your Chest that won’t be fixed  

I Try and Help you Heal
But You just Can't seem to stay Away from him

I’ll Alter what was once mine for a Chance for You to Breath

Wake to the ugly truth that smothers out all the thoughts in my head
They’ll never get the chance to run
I’ll never know what He really Feels like

I can’t take that risk
I won’t waste my chance
I’ll save it for My next Life

I may die before this Story Ends but I know how it will End

Wipe that Shock off your Face
No one has truly Surprised you in Years
So She may Never Learn
I watch her Repeat a Mistake, That may Sting Later

Those Eyes that I am Tired of Seeing
They only Change with that Tricky Liquid

I Stop Making Eye Contact
I Can’t Stop Her
And I Shouldn’t Have to

I’ll Squeeze An Apology out of you later
I Feel it come up Short

I try and Force myself to Forgive and Pretend to Forget

I Can’t seem to remember all the Exact reasons why I Love You
But I Hope I Do

Dissipation from the Past is all I can really Hope For

You make me feel Guilty for Something you have never Accused me of

It’s not enough the Memories I hold

The Feelings that Brake my Chest Open Don’t Translate outside my mind
I make them seem so untouchable
Too Personal to let out
Because I am ashamed of what I feel and of how Long it’s been going on

It won’t Rest if I Don’t let it Die

I can’t let go
On the Verge of Seeking Religious Help
Since you wouldn’t understand if I asked for your Forgiveness

Regret so Deep it makes me sick  
Distracts from what is placed in front of me
I’ve Brought myself here
Time to Stay and Bare it
Learn from what you Can’t Change
Change what you Can’t Learn from