I'm ready to jump
and I'm on the wall,
I hear you yelling
from down the hall.

You said don't do it
but I ignored your plea,
why cant you just
let me be free.

Just let me get rid
of this pain inside,
let me get rid
of this mask that hides.

I hate the pain
that I always feel,
and I swear to you
it all is real.

So here I stand
up on the wall,
it's two stories up
one gust of wind and I will fall.

The wind it blows
as the rain starts to fall,
not a sound can be heard
till the raven starts to call.

As I jump
I fall gracefully,
I hope you never
feel hate towards me.

You really never liked me
so why must you cry,
I felt I had to do it
I knew I had to die.

Do you cry because you loved me?
Do you cry because you can?
Do you cry because you miss me?
Did you want to be my man?

As you watch them take my body
you hear it in the news,
you figured you'd come meet me
you had nothing left to lose.

You smile, I smile.
You wave, I wave.
I hug, you hug back.
I’ve fallen, but I doubt you have.

I know you might be a little awkward,
But I can work with that.
I know you might be a little anti-social,
But so am I.

I find you adorable,
But do you me?
I make me laugh,
But do I you?

I know it’s odd,
We’ve known each other how long?
Not long in fact,
Not long enough for me to ‘know’ you.

I know you in a daily way,
But I don’t know who you are.
I want to though,
Really I do.

I want to know what makes you tick,
I want to know what makes you YOU.
I want to know your successes,
And I want to know your mistakes.

I want to get to know you,
I want to hang out more.
I want more hugs from you,
I simply want you.

You’re like that lanky worn out teddy,
The one you clutch and feel safe.
The teddy that keeps away the sad thoughts,
The teddy that helps you fall asleep.

I think you’re what I need,
Something safe and sturdy.
I think you’re that wall,
The one I need to lean on.

I may never tell you this,
But at least I told me.
And for now,
I guess I can work with that.

Prayers for Bobby,
And all alike.
Not knowing the love,
But still taking the hike.

Just show them you care,
Before they take their own life.
And show them they’re loved,
Before they ask of the knife.

Bobby jumped into traffic,
‘Cause his mom didn’t know.
She thought she could cure him,
Of being ****.

Some parents want therapy,
For their child’s different ways.
But that just doesn’t work,
You can’t just “cure” gays.

They may stand up in hope,
That one day you’ll just love.
But until that day comes,
You’ll look down from above.

A friend took a razor,
Across her own wrist.
She thought of the pain,
And wished she didn’t exist.

You don’t know what’s wrong,
Until you see the scars.
And you won’t understand,
‘Till you read the memoirs.

Many times a day,
Many thoughts will stray.
Many people will jump,
Or watch their blood pump.

Just think of what you say,
Before it gets overheard.
Who it will affect,
And just how it’s absurd.

We’re all born different,
We’re not just like you.
Our differences shine,
And sometimes debut.

You don’t have to like it,
And you don’t have to agree.
But ***** what you think,
I’m gonna be me.

For bullies, for friends,
For pain like no other,
For hate, for happiness,
One tear then yet another.

Forsaken, for hope,
For times left alone,
For anger, for hate,
One must answer fate.

For being in the "right",
For believing in the "Light",
For knowing the pain,
One for your game.

For innocence once lost,
For the dearest of costs,
For paying the price,
One for what's "right".

Journey ever onward,
And keep looking upward,
Take what you need,
Just one death to be free.

Try as you may,
And cry as you pray,
Take yet another life,
This One for the "Light".

Defeat is the word,
For the tattered and torn,
Death rode the night,
When she took her life.

They stand near the grave,
Of a soul who just caved,
Saved by the blade,
One sacrifice for love.

A child still in age,
Dreams yet unmade,
Forever the lost girl,
One life for the fun.

I feel the breeze,
On my face,
I wonder now,
If its the place.

I remember how,
We used to be,
I remember why,
You came to me.

I look back,
On everything,
And wonder why,
I'm crying.

I see the beach,
I feel the sand,
Where we first walked,
Hand in hand.

I remember how,
It used to be,
And I remember why,
You left me.

Tears are like
a bittersweet rain,
they fall for love
and they fall for pain.

My tears they fall
because the pain is so great,
my tears they fall
because of the hate.

The pain it comes
and the pain it goes,
almost like the sun
when it starts to snow.

The snow it melts
and turns into water,
the water then leaves
as the days get hotter.

As the days grow hotter
the more we have pain,
as we wish for a breeze
or a drop of rain.

The clouds they come
like the sky is in pain,
and that is how tears
are like a bittersweet rain.

I watch as you take him
my chance falling fast,
I see as you steal him
from my grasp.

You know that I like him
yet you don't seem to care,
you know I've got a chance with him
yet you leave me none but Emo Bear.

I take the Bear's treasure
and feed it through my arm,
the pain is my pleasure
it shall do me no harm.

As the blood starts to run
the tears start to fall,
you stole away my fun
and that is not all.

When I rip the treasure
from my arm,
I fell the pleasure
it has done harm.

The sickness of your plan
and the sadness of your lie,
you know that I can
and do wish you would DIE.

You took away
what made me happy,
and everyday
your attitude is ******.

Just because your life *****
doesn't mean you have the right,
I've got some good luck
and I WILL PUT UP A FIGHT.

Thanks to you
I write this poem,
and thanks to you
it's sad, sick, and twisted.

The happiness I felt
as I watched them start to bleed,
these scars they will not heal
nor will they all recede.

I watched the blood fall
as the curtain starts to rise,
I feel my heart break
as all hope dies.

The pain I feel inside
as i watch the blood fall,
will not go away
just like the writing on the wall.

The show is starting now
as the droplets form a pool,
if you think you know the story
then you are a fool.

It's all about a girl
who would rather die,
then live her life
knowing it was all just a lie.

When the curtain finally falls
everyone starts to leave,
but by then I can
no longer deceive.

I see the funeral
there's really no one there,
I see my family
are they the only ones who care?

I hated my life
but I lived it through,
for what it's worth
all I wanted was you.....

I see you smile,
As you walk away,
Not knowing if,
You'll come back someday.

I feel the tears,
Fall down my face,
As I watch you go,
Through the curtains of lace.

I feel the pain,
Almost everyday,
And wish it would,
All go away.

I watch the news,
Wonder where you are,
Not knowing if,
You're near or far.

I got the call,
At half past noon,
It said that you,
Were coming home soon.

I miss you more,
And more each day,
I hope that you,
Won't come home that way.

When you got home,
I started to cry,
They said your plane,
Fell from the sky.

Now you're gone,
But I'll get through,
Even though there's only,
Memories of you.

Starlight, star-bright
first star I see tonight,
I wish I may, I wish I might
have this wish, I wish tonight.

I used to wish on so many stars, they all could fill a mall
I used to think they'd all come true, when the star began to fall,
I always wished for the same thing, instead of wanting it all
and never did I see, the writing on the wall.

My wishes never seemed to come true
but my wishing was never through,
I wished for what I could never have, but always would persue
the thing I wished for, would forever have been you.

I must have been wishing, on all the wrong stars
I might've even wished a couple times on Mars,
they might have never made it, through the windos on the cars
or maybe they got stuck, behind some metal bars.

But thanks to friends I've found another
one whom treats me better than my mother,
one who acts less like my brother
and more or less like a lover.

I am sorry that I love him, and that you are to late
my wishes never came true, so I made my own fate,
towards the stars who killed my dreams, my heart is filled with hate,
I just wish for you to know, I will no longer wait.

Why are there tears,
When I look at your face,
Why do I cry,
When I see this place.

Why can't I realize,
The pain is not real,
Why can't you notice,
The mask that will ****.

What happens when,
I hate my own life,
Where'd it go wrong,
That I had to use this knife.

As I feel the blood,
Fall down my arm,
I know the knife,
Has done it's harm.

I feel the warmth,
I feel the pain,
I see your tears,
They are in vain.

I'm here on the floor,
In a puddle of blood,
I see you coming,
Your covered in mud.

It must be raining,
Your soaking wet,
I feel my heart,
Die in one last breath.

I see you there
across the hall,
I wonder when
you'll see it all.

I see here there
right next to you,
why can't she see
my point of view.

But you don't care
and I wonder why,
I care for you
so much I'd die.

I'll show you all
the pain I feel,
I'll show you how
it's all not real.

But I can't live
when you're not here,
you chase away
all I fear.

I leave the hall
as I start to cry,
and I wonder if
I should just die.

I saw you there
across the hall,
and here I am
about to fall.

You left me in
my room of tears,
to find a place
full of fears.

You left me where
I would be free,
but in that place
there is a fee.

You left me here
and now I'm lost,
and I did not
know the cost.

Thanks to you
I'll never be found,
and thanks to you
I can't make a sound.

You left me there
in the poring rain,
my heart was breaking
and I was in pain.

As you walked away
beside the wall,
I felt the tears
******* start to fall.

I missed you then
but I wouldn't go back,
cause my whole life
had fallen through a crack.

I felt the pain
almost everyday,
no matter how I tried
it never went away.

I hated life
so I cut myself,
and I did not want
your ******* help.

The blood it fell
but I wasn't found,
cause you just ignored
the cries for help that I wrote all around.

Why do I feel this way
why do I hate each day,
why does my heart never say
that everything will be okay.

Why is this pain with me
why won't it leave me be,
why can't my eyes see
that you will not deceive.

Why can't I leave the past
why am I always the last,
why is my life going by so fast
that I'm no longer part of the cast.

Why is my life going by
why is it all I can do is sigh,
why do I wish I could fly
then fall into the ground and die.

Why is it that all I feel is dead
why is it that I can't listen to my head,
why is it that I can hear things being said
but all I see is an empty bed.