You left so fast it wasn't real
The pain I felt it could not heal
I tried to move on and leave you behind
But all I could think of was us in my mind
My forbidden love had broken my heart
The pieces are scattered and torn apart
Memories of us will stay with me
But you my love will be gone and free
I'm confused and tangled all the way through
And yet all I can think of is me and you
I want you close to hold on tight
But I am to feeble and cannot fight
I want to be yours and you be mine
So together we will love and forever intertwine.

the doll of porcelain
frail and fragile whose
sweet china skin can break
at the slightest touch
supports with ease the
troubles of the burdened
yet the harsh embrace of
ignorance cracks her
into a million pieces

Your love is treacherous.
It lights my heart in flames,
Gasoline shooting up my veins.
Adding fuel to my fire.
But your love doesn't burn,
Anymore.
My flesh is raw and tolerant,
To your high degree of heat.
The return to the constant burn is simple.
Each new inhale provides,
That same addictive rush
Of smoke.

Upside down
Turned around
So this is what
It's like to drown

Reaching for
That dream of air
At the bottom
Without a prayer

Breathing is easy
Air is a lie
The waters' current
It lets you fly

So sleep right here
Right here with us
It's easier if
You don't make a fuss

The currents' dream
Lulls you to sleep
You are The Seas'
Secret to keep

With every breathe I take
it hits me
Like a blank page wrapping around my bare skin
The darkness plummeting through my pores
past my blood
through my muscles
penetrating my bones
encapsulating my inner self
yet only seen through the crease of my eyes

Truth is I don't know how to thrive
I've spent my whole life just trying to survive
I can't remember my last genuine smile
That wan't simply to beguile

How does one get out of bed
When all your motivation is dead?
What fresh hell is all this inaction
What I wouldn't do for a distraction.

Who knew a never ending to-do list
Would be so sorely missed?
When there's no one to appease
How does one live life at ease?