Blame me
Irrationally
Can I even blame you?
We are only machine
Built to do
Constructed for doom
Geared toward lust
Selfish not just

Hide in the shame
But all are the same

The battle forever rages
Between words and thoughts
Thoughts that are heinous
And words that are "oughts"

Hide in the shame
But all are the same

To deny your animal
Is almost criminal
When you know you lie
Or at least try
To believe you are good
In this world of darkness
But it's understood
That the black artist

Engraved and innate
Seething with hate
With love only for
The mindless carrier

Hide in the shame
But all are the same

Lately it's been so
I don't know
So many voices
Too many choices

Battles being fought
Sitting on a corner
Battles of thought
Nobody sees her

Internal vs external
Which is which
A raging inferno
With no off switch

It used to burn
But dull is the hurt
Now it is a custom
Growing accustom

What is pure
Cannot endure
It must grow black
What once was a mansion
Now a shack
Don't even mention
Turning back

Can't go back
Can't go on
So where does that leave us
In the black
Before dawn

Ashes and dust
Return we must
How soon how soon
By the next full moon

Sleep peaceful sleep
Is what we all need
We can't get there
In this miserable nowhere

Sleep sleep
Come to me
Let me breathe
Finally

Machines roaming
More cloning
Perfect droids
Being deployed

Off the assembly line
With a set time
Before self destruction
More under construction
Programmable
Flammable
Almost animal

Is there free choice?
Or follow the voice?
The largest illusion
To demonstrate power
Building on delusion
That we think it is ours

My hands have holes
In which they bore
To run the strings
To make play things

Run by shadows
Whispering powers
Hung from gallows
By deadly flowers

Usable is useful
Worn out is thrown out
Void and null
When the light goes out

Disposable, moldable
Rogues removable
Cast out into the flame
The mentally sick and lame

Underground insurgent
Hiding behind the curtain
Waiting for the time
To betray their design

And face their eminent doom
For the masses leave no room
For individuals

Pulverized and destroyed
Any short circuited droid
Maybe for the better
No longer a debtor
To the society that razed them
While trying to "save" them

Daytime when its night
Inside my soul no light
Heart sold
Soul cold
Goose on the side
Drowning inside

It tasted like red bull and cigarettes
The taste of prison
The taste of regrets

Day in the parking lot
Alone in thought
Solace found
Freedom now
A saving oasis
Anonymous places

Freedom tasted like red bull and cigarettes
Vacation from prison
A place to forget

Beautiful mind
Found in rhyme
Break free from chains
A life of new ways
Dragon slain
Breezy days

No longer a prisoner
But to my own mind
Still a wanderer
No longer tied

Still remember the taste
Of red bull and cigarettes

Alone in the darkness
Blacker than seemed
From home the farthest
A terrible fiend

Running always
But during the night
Turning sideways
My vision of light

Lonely and abandoned
Meaning sought in all
Never to be mended
After the great fall

Backs turned
Bridges burned
Apparent disapproval
Limitations learned

One more step
To the left or the right
Would be time I met
The infinite night

Oh god what have I done

Look around and you tell me

This can never see the sun
I carry it to the depths of the sea

Shattered glass surrounding me
You whispered to me so profoundly
My hunger only you can feed

Yet tonight you will sleep soundly

Why did I ever trade love for fun

You don't even know me
You don't care and he has done
Everything you couldn't see

Keep it buried keep it hidden,
No one can ever know my shame,
I've eaten of the fruit forbidden,
I can never go back the way I came

Your deep eyes they are wired
To the inner parts of my soul
Against my heart you have conspired
To turn over the simmering coal

Hesitant is your touch
Apologetic are your eyes
Your words they aren't much
But you see through my disguise

I don't even need you
I don't even want you

You use it against me
Oh my weakness is unbearable
With you I'm in too deep
But what you did was unforgivable

I don't even want you
I don't even need you

All I ever did was give you what you wanted,
Maybe that was the problem,
I gave you all of me and now I am haunted,
I have stumbled I have fallen,
My brain cries leave my heart screams stay,
Are you really gonna leave me this way?
You want me
I don’t want you
Anymore