Heart bearing the pain of a selfmade thorns tag with regret
Mind blaming each and every second boxing itself
Body left with all kind of anxiety chemicals
And then they said " it's okay to be not okay"

I mean...
What kind of **** is it?
I am not okay facing this stuff
I am not okay even if everything happened because of me
& I am enough with this quote

Now let's say
It's not okay to be not okay
It's not okay to be not okay
Because it is bleeding not knowing how to get wounded
I just need to heal
It's not okay to not okay
Cause we live only once in this life
And only way to live is to smile

Life gives us lots of trauma
Just to remind the passed out good day
So instead of suffering in that trauma
Let's have smile and face it
As someone said
"Nothing is permanent in this world"

Achy winter days have passed through
Bad rainy days are still on its flow
How can I say that those burning summer days are only mine
Where actually you are the one who started our Jinx January
And then shown me how blossoming a spring can be
I never asked you for anything
Even you to come into my life
Every time you came and went I thought at least you are the stable one
At last you made it all autumn leaves falling down
Just wanna know
Why I can't move on just the way you did so easily??
Now all I hope is nothing but waiting for my December

You left me
But my feelings are like being left
Hoping for no January to start again

Sometimes I’m scared!
I’m scared that in the way of running to be more matured
I might loose all that innocence in me!
I’m scared that in the way of
loving people owing them more & more
They might get owed someday!
& I’m literally scared that
In the way of feeling “I’m scared of heart breaks”
I might loose chances to meet some most amazing creatures ever
I’m scared that one day these
Intrusive thoughts will eat up all my mind
& make me feel empty again!!