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Aug 2013 · 506
Loud
K Severin Aug 2013
Brain screaming so loudly
so many thoughts without words
so loudly I beat my head against the wall
a mallet breaking a drumhead
so loudly I swallow a scream
throat swelling, damming a sob
of defeat

I feel my thoughts clawing
cutting my mind
They need out
out
like a rat in the bucket
pressed against your chest
and the flame beneath will
make the rat chew through
your still beating heart

They need out

The thoughts without words
travel down from my head
towards my mouth
but my throat says
detour
you need words
to get out here
The thoughts without words
travel down from mouth
and into my heart
where it gets pumped
through
my veins
my body
everything
screaming
Screaming the message
the thoughts without words
are desperately trying to deliver
but do not belong in my body
So I grab the letter opener
slicing the envelope of my arm
hoping its red contents
spill the message inside
Aug 2013 · 515
Wooden Crate
K Severin Aug 2013
You say you love me
Just not my choice
What I hear is
                     your ignorance
What I hear is
                     I love you,
                                 all of you
                     Except the parts
                                 I do not want to love
                     Except the parts
I refuse to acknowledge because
they do not fit my frame
of reality
        
Do you not see the importance
of this part of me?
I would not choose
         a life of supposed immorality
         contrary to a lifetime
                                             of beliefs
         causing turmoil and
         inflicting pain on
the ones I love
I would not choose
         this confliction of
         body and mind
         residing in a life
         of constant discomfort
And yet
         here I am

I endure the pain
         of you rejecting
                     who I really am
         of judgment cast
                     by churched minds
         of sympathetic looks
                     saying Oh you poor,
                                                         lost soul

You poor, ignorant soul
You are blinded
         by your unblinding truth
Refusing to accept
things that may fall
                                 outside your preconceived box
                                 structured by misinterpreted men
                                 two thousand years ago

You can only see
through the cracks
         of the wooden slats
A view not wide enough                                                                              
to see the disentanglement
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A view not wide enough
to see that a person
is not determined solely
         by their given body
because bodies are temples
and temples need to be built
Temples need to be whole
         inside and out
Temples need to be refined
         after they are first built
                  Cut out rotting timber
                  Fortify with stronger rock
         and carve on the outside
         a reflection of the beauty
         lying within
May 2013 · 868
Uncontrolled
K Severin May 2013
My tornado thoughts
Spinning
Spinning
Spinning
Tearing ideas into
fragmented shrapnel
whipping around in the wind
one piece landing in my chest
the other miles away

My oil rig thoughts
Drilling
Drilling
Drilling
Diamond drill bits
sparkling yet damaging
ravaging the mantel
of my brain, hitting
a deep subconscious
oil pocket, black ooze
gushing out to the surface

My flint spark thoughts
Burning
Burning
Burning
One spark hitting
the kindling forest full
of dried pine needle worries
igniting an uncontrolled
wild fire, turning everything
into black ash

These untamed beasts
Clawing
Clawing
Clawing
my mind apart
Feb 2013 · 2.5k
Clouds
K Severin Feb 2013
Some call depression
an ever-present cloud
Residing in the sky above
sad and dark and storm-ridden
Blocking the sun and
emptying its rain
so cold and wet

No
Suspended in the air
Clouds cannot touch you
They cannot reach out
after you have broken free
and claw you back
Talons of pain
digging into your gut while
the foul stench of its breath
seeps into your pores
eating away your inside

No
It is not a cloud
Clouds do not touch you
Clouds do not crush you
beneath a monstrous weight
threatening to break the legs
that keep you standing
******* the strength
out of every muscle
so you cannot move
let alone run
to escape

No
It is not a cloud
Clouds do not touch you
Clouds do not crush you
Clouds do not haunt you
They do not sink their fangs
into your exposed neck
Releasing a powerful venom
into your veins
invading your mind with
thoughts and images that
poison your soul
Chaining you to its world of
terror and darkness

No
It is not a cloud
Clouds do not touch you
Clouds do not crush you
Clouds do not haunt you
Clouds do not blind you
They do not spit in your eyes
a black tar that is
thick with despair and
dark with sorrow
Coating your sight with
a filth that blinds you
from beauty and
all that is good

No
It is not a cloud
It is a monster that preys
on the strong and weak alike
It is a monster that hides
in the shadows unnoticed
Slowly eating the light
until there is none left
It is a monster that leaves
you with little hope
of making it out
Alive
Jul 2011 · 673
Siren's Song
K Severin Jul 2011
My seductress, my siren
Sings her song tonight
Its sweet and sharp melody
Beckons me
I resist her call
Tying myself to the mast
Not to be released
Regardless of my cries

Tonight, the knots are not tight
Her cold notes whisper in my ear
All logic fails, intoxicated by her call
I know my fate, but every muscle
Strains against the rope
Heart pounding with the need
To join her in the deadly water
Crying out in agony
The knot slips
The rope fails

Tumbling toward the edge
Looking in to the steel water
Her song cuts deeper and deeper
Washing away all reason

I lean closer
Seduced by her call
A cold temptation seeping
Toward the heart
I lean closer
Come to me
There is no turning back
Closer
Her words an icy breath
Come to me
Her hands reach
Closer
Her touch sharp against my skin
Come to me
She presses deeper
Closer

I break

Unable to resist
I break
Throwing myself overboard
Her cold existence
Mixing with my warm blood

Deep red life escapes
Sweet relief
Her edge presses onward
I let myself go
Taken over by her song

The world disappears
Lost in her touch
Cold and sharp against my pale skin
Time halts
Minutes are years
Lost in her touch

She releases her grasp
I awake from my stupor
But it is too late
I have gone too far this time
She brought me to the darkness
Beneath the powerful sea
I cannot go back
I have gone too far this time

Tonight, the knots slipped
Tonight, the blade won
Feb 2011 · 813
Mute
K Severin Feb 2011
Words will never be enough
Dancing around the idea
Never conveying its depth
Filling the air with empty space
Useless when needed the most

Looking at the shining green leaves
Filtering the daylight
Some dry up and float
Softly in the wind
Crisp breezes taste like cider
Next to a warm fire

And yet

Where is the passion
That stirs when looking out
Feeling the breeze
Bite your nose, tussle your hair
Where is the unexplained joy
for festivities soon to follow
Where is the loneliness
That rises when looking up
At the bare branches
Catching the last rays of sun
Until the buds of spring

What can words do?
Attempting do describe
The depth of life
The intensity of emotion
Never able to completely succeed

I am an island
No words will allow
Anyone to know
The breadth of emotion
Feb 2011 · 613
Lost
K Severin Feb 2011
On the edge of lost
Expansive green sea
vast and very cold
No towns and no people
no roads at all

On the edge of lost
Trees and brush and sky
everything blended with everything else
The wilderness all one thing
The water everything
infinitely blue and beautiful
deep and icy
Giant pines
vaulting overhead
dense with color
blended into a smooth repetitive oneness
No natural laws, only nature
Purely wild

On the edge of lost
Gently curving mass of rock and pines
long green wall arcing out
as far as the eye could see
The immensity of things
so much water
so much sky
The wilderness seemed to bend
low under its own weight

On the edge of lost
Dense hypnotic drone of woods
Great liquid silence
An easy place to lose yourself
Both familiar and foreign
Like a great curving mirror

On the edge of lost
Based on Tim O'Brien's "In the Lake of the Woods"
Feb 2011 · 593
Shattered
K Severin Feb 2011
Everything which appears solid
Shatters
Surrounded by broken pieces
Drenched by dismal rain
Left alone to glue it back together

Rain and tears blend
A good disguise for pain

A piece of sky or ocean?
Grass or tree?
Star or moon or sunlight?
Pavement or rock or mountain?

No sense of direction
No place to start
How do you piece together
A world that has fallen apart?
Feb 2011 · 806
Forbidden Escape
K Severin Feb 2011
Emergency exit
Glowing softly green in the black room
Full of madness, inexplicable pain
Nameless emotions
All without foothold
          Floating freely in the dark
          Creating an untamed beast

In this darkness glows a light
Its gentle green invitation
Promising a way out
Promising an escape
          From the Creature of Darkness
Promising the desired silence

Like the starry night sky
Cold and quiet
Stars shining their lonely peace
Gentle, silent peace

Over the door hangs
Three splintering  blockades
Bent, rusted nails
          Once straight and strong
          Before the time of the Creature
Now weakly enforce their law

Scratched on each face
Shouts my barrier
          MORALS
          FAITH
          PROMISE
Each forbidding my crossing
Each splintered cry declaring
          The light which glows green
          May promise one thing
          But can you see through this door?

Eager jaws of hell
Or floating through the stars
Eternal sleep
Or nothing at all
My blindness stops me
          From hearing the metal squeal
          Of boards being ripped from the door

Like the starry night sky
Stars appearing within reach
But  stretching the arm
Until ligaments scream
They still taunt the fingertips

Like the starry night sky
I can see my escape
I can stretch my arms
Until my ligaments scream
But the  splintered blockade
Will not allow me to cross
Into the forbidden escape

— The End —