I am flawed
I admit this but that was never the issue
...you were once able to kiss my scars and look at me like i was still perfect  and I could do the same, I would still do the same
...but the realness was just that, too ******* real for you and forever is now too much for you.

I think too much
And you stay on my mind
So you know,
i think of you
-the plan was to stargaze the nights away, with you
now, i dont know, im proud, so very proud but shook because it's too soon to fallback and I'm writing this hesistantly because we're different people, i am who i am and this may not be the same to you.

i don't know what it is about me
as i said: I don't quite understand me yet
it's odd, everyone sees something
I see nothing.
I see,
I am looking into this mirror
..an abyss
...empty, cold, untouched
:in a perfect world, I just described myself perfectly.

There's nothing prettier than this high I'm feeling.
-catharsis

as i grow wiser
as i grow with this life, as a person, as everything that makes me, me.
i realise that there's no one that makes me happier and so ******* sad but me.

i am only a Ghost because she did not love me hard enough

I am growing old without you
I hate this
I love you
You're still in my heart and it makes me sad