It's only appropriate you were born on National Bad Poems Day
I haven't written since March
But evanescent phrases have bubbled on by
And I have so many thoughts and feelings to describe
If I could paint a picture to portray how I feel, it would be covered in red and oozing zeal
Or would it be a subdued hue, a mellow blue that suggests peace always follows you
I could never render how I feel using our color wheel
When I look at you I feel so deeply everything but color
As black is said to be the sum of all shades
I lose my very sense of sensing
I lose my wit, my comprehending
I gain everything else.
I win smiles that spread into the eyes
I get to hold my greatest prize
I revisit my childhood yet envision the future
My heart bursts until it needs another suture
You're the spice that makes everything taste better
You're the sunshine beaming brightly, no matter the weather
Let's just say if we dug into the Earth's core, I wouldn't be surprised to find you
You're roaring ocean, you're sturdy land
You're my world, but I'd like to expand:
You're my universe, you're my galaxy
You hold my purse so my hand is free
And all it wants to do is touch and be touched by you
And all I want to do is love and be loved by you
And all I want is already at your core
I couldn't possibly ask for more
You're my dream come true
And every shade, every color, every hue
Black.
As the pupils of your smiling eyes
Black, as the sky in between the starlight
Black, as the charcoal left behind at our campsite
Black as our boots and Docs on a concert night
Black as the inside of my heart right now
(There's no light source in my body, but I glow anyway)
Because light is all around me and it's coming from your way

I'm always the one that got away,
Never the one that stayed
My dad says I go through men like T shirts
So I'm keeping this one on
I'm going to tell it I love it and sing it a song
I'm going to laugh at its jokes and wash it with care
People will see us and say love is in the air
My t shirt feels all my flaws with the softest touch
My t shirt tells me I'm never too little, never too much
I beam with brilliancy, I ooze admiration
My aura is blaring red like a carnation
I have so much to give it simply rips me to shreds
But somehow I still find myself in other strange beds
I want to scream and bite and kick
I put the hopeless in hopeless romantic
In a world of fast fashion,
How am I to have a favorite T shirt?
I live in a world of options and decisions feel too permanent
If I still continue to love you, is it still considered abandonment?

A month of pure chaos
A month quite the whirlwind
A time to have saved and sinned
A heart set free within a world at war
We end and we begin

Where off to now?
I embrace it all
Spring, summer, and fall
We've been drenched in the rains
We've been imprisoned and tamed
And we've even been pictured and framed

And now the leaves crumble
As my bambi legs stumble
And I wander into something new
New feels familiar but not quite like something I'll regret to do

And so I've whirled and I've sinned
And I've danced with the wind
And here I am, still afloat
I told you I would learn to love again
And I'll do so with all kinds of hope

Love will always bring us back
You can take your foot off the gas, you can burn the candle
But love will show us how much more we can handle
You can cut the rope, you can avoid the addiction
But we will always be tethered, there will forever be friction

I'm cutting the rope
I'm burning the candle
I'm watching the fire go out
How could I once think
That my heart would just sink
As long as you were my shipwreck
How could I believe this
And Why would I grieve this
The love that left us tattered and tortured
I will not be a bystander to my own heart
And I will not turn cold
I refuse to be forced to change or even grow old
I have an open heart for a reason
I will always welcome love
But I have shut this particular door
And I won't look back, I won't lose track, not even once more

Will the tears I've cried take years off my life?
How many times have you killed me, once or twice?
How many more hours, days, years will I waste
With a cake in my face I'm refusing to taste
Like a moth to my porch light
I am beckoned by thee
With false hopes of ever being alive, let alone free
Your life is the white noise I fall asleep to
Nothing I could sing to

Love hurts and burns and scrapes
Love brings the wildest escapes
But love should be gently beckoned for
Not ripped out of me
It comes naturally
And it comes before anything
Changed attitudes don't change the past
And conversations won't make it last
Every time our bridge falls apart
You put it back together with duct tape
A valiant effort
But I need a whole new bridge
I want a bridge built in stone
Every pebble comes from the soul
You hold my hand and guide me away from the puddles
But there should be no puddles in the first place
There has been so much rain and heartache and pain
I want sunny days again
Whether I have a hand to hold or not
There will be no puddles to muddy my shoes
My feet will then guide me to every dream I left to drift in the sky
I kept looking down at my feet to make sure I didn't trip and fall again and again
But I deserve to stare at the sun and dance and twirl and be safe and steady on my feet
The end of this love is not a defeat
We will seek what is ours
And grow into our individual powers
We will step into prosperity
Without having to hold onto each other
We will walk to the end of the bridge
And find our destinations

Today was a dark day
I am hollow as always
(Except when I'm bursting at the seams)
It seems...
That we always come back to this space
This empty mindspace
Sorrow and numbness
Fueling my dumbness
What if brain cells died every time I cried
I would be doomed
So we enter the gloom
Today was a dark day
And tomorrow will burn my eyes
Light and love will be found all around me
Fueling the fire
I already have everything I desire
So today was a dark day
But tomorrow will be sunshine and daisies
I always hated daises
But I soak up the sunshine like a cat curling up in its warmth
You bring on the cold
But I'm here to weather the storm
I will always return to the sun
I will always come back to the moon
I'm a sword sheathed in darkness
But I'm getting ready to glint and shine
Happiness will be yours and mine