my child couldn't ***** this flame,
every night a crying shame,
playing razor since 2016,
not afraid to not eat,
not afraid to not breathe,
i can cringe while i write and still read
i know how to keep my mouth shut,
while my hands do the talking,
all they do is lift a bottle,
my mouth is tired,
i know how to sleep like a baby,
and still feel like a liar,
how to shave my seconds with a
flick.
of a lighter.
now i feel lighter:
my favorite food is pizza,
i used to read,
i used to play [ ],
answer phone calls,
enjoy music without falling apart.
i could love without an ounce of fear.
the most painful thoughts,
are the most beautiful,
to those who can't understand it.
i'll never be a writer.