i don't know if I'll call,

dont know you at all,

distant and tall,

tender, i fall,

seasons, they draw.

my birthday is yours,

i'll never sing,

words and thoughts,

they never mean,

probably the best,

in my head,

your head on my chest.

soak the love they left.

she is the corner of this room,

kissed to death and full of doom,

defier of suns, she carries the moon.

a soundless cry,

the world goes on,

one i loved with all my heart.

a pain that brought me to the start.

i swam in stars to lose you,

bleeding, but I'm still glad i met you.

fare well, i'll never be alright.

somehow I'll see you on the other side.

can't show what's on my mind.

just whisper something,

one more time.

some goodbyes are pleasant lies.

nothing's beautiful anymore,

just a way to pass the time.

choking over broken sinks,

singing your name in a bad dream.

happiness is just across the street,

so why do i want to walk into traffic?

better days,

where i don't tear myself apart.

better ways to find a heart.

bodies drop, a million ways.

find a love within their sway.

cold window panes,

pressed across my face,

facing demons,

how they break the warm feelings,

with such hatred, without meaning,

i'm mindful, it's fleeting,

i'm falling, but it's freeing.

pray that each drink,

brings me closer to the stars.

I'll never know who you are.

know you were adored.

i stumbled in,

as easy as i fell out.

swiped your clouds,

when i wasn't allowed.

love is loud,

screams are louder.

silence is unbearable.