i wish i knew where you were,

the kind of love that hurts,

every night knowing im not yours.

every thought, just a curse.

watch you fade away as time turns.

every loved thing about you burns.

carry you in a heart-shaped urn.

forever mine,

but never yours.

killed you,
just for someone else.
left to feel nothing else.
leap until you're someone else.
time that made me someone else.
drinks erase just how i felt.
poetry is nothing else.
happy with the way i melt,
addicted and I'm nothing else.

i never planned to be there,
i was blessed and so unsure,
never thought,
I'd have my hands in your hair.
erase a thousand things,
take away your smile,
ways to walk a million miles,
thoughts i dream,
to leave behind.

i drink to see your pretty face,
one i can't look at these days.
long to see your long hair,
if it's long,

if you're still there.

a fool who thought he was in love,
don't deserve the sounds she made.
shunned and raced from cave to cave.
in darkness, where a man was made.

once, the sun was her and her alone.
then she called from the moon,
i said I'll never be a sober man,
now i search for her lights on my own.

please don't let me die alone

best friends,
mid-twenties,
met our loving breath.
living just to lose what's left.

drinks replaced my self-respect,
but every moon, i can't regret.
traditions in the stones, they sit.
dreams that only beckon death.

written words i could have said,
wish i could have fixed your head,
miss you more than any friend,
forever loved,
my favorite mess.