drinks to see your silhouette,
sell your lies into your arms,
sightless, seeking self-harm.
sanity, a fake alarm.

a widower until my death,
breaking under every breath,
loved you to the very edge,
held until there's nothing left.

i died before i met you,
broken lungs, my muted truth.

I didnt love,
to pull your hair.
i didnt love,
to hold your neck

i loved what others left.

no amount of sunrises,
no amount of chirping birds,
no amount of smiling faces,
will ever make it alright.

I'll take my life, eventually,
i gave away my love and friends,
the simple things that made me.

it's not like you to need somebody,
it's not like you to cry for me.
it's not like you to turn around.

i'd suffer just to see you once,
i'd suffer just to hear your voice,
i'd suffer just to feel a lie,
i'd suffer just to say goodbye.

i'm dying without a voice,
falling in a loving void,
holding onto helen's troy,
tried to find a truth in noise.

****** me down in dark waters,
your smiling waves, abrasive,
hold myself, my soggy skin.

back when pictures were pictures,
not a way to make money,
models monetizing,
souls no longer appetizing,

phones making liars out of us.
decent people falling in lust.
finding meaning in holes.
bodies falling for tolls.
morals murdered and null.

stapled hearts to brevity,
handled pain with levity,
losing sleep, levitate me.
leave me broke then love me.