walk with broken bones,
searching for a warm home.
heartbeat with no breath,
life, flashing thoughts of death.

colors swelling in my ears,
noises falling from my eyes,
years of this that no one hears.

hidden second chances,
holding hands,
emancipate the pain,
pressing close to walls,
wordless while the floor falls,

just to find,
that you were standing all along.

it's hard to see your halo dim,
your heart,
i left my knife in.
sold your love,
for a second.

anxiety,
i left you lies,
just to see a pretty sky.
i see you with another guy,
infinity, my pain disguised.
i loved you,
and i hope i die.

night time,
nineteen cuts on my arm,
stumbling to my car,
wanting more.

traffic lights,
brighter than any star at night,
pray, so one can end my life.

too quiet for too long,
trying to speak in song,
carrying cryptics,
to the ones i love.

i'd hold you,
if i weren't on fire.
love you if i weren't a liar.
kiss you if i was a little kinder,
to myself,
to my friends,
to my mom and my family.

walking in emergency rooms,
just to walk in circles alone,
doctors,
saying nothing's wrong with you.

driving home,
calling strangers on phones,
just to feel less alone,
know I'll drink to my death,
but no one will know.

all i want is to see you again,
hope you watch me ascend,
and i miss all my friends,
all these words are dead ends,
just to get you to love me again.

i set my soul on fire,
to see a little better at night.
but the sight of you,
would tear me down,
break a winter's worth,
of drinking just to drown.

say hi to me,
through tidal waves,
rolling, washing over feet.

raise the dead,
in your broken stead,
i swear i'll bring some comfort,
to your head.

break me too,
i can lose with you,
the two of us can take the moon.

no one else,
i'll meet you there,
just promise me that you still care.

your hair is the wind,
your heart is the moon,
silent and stolen,
footsteps that swoon.

i still hope that i can see you soon.

slowly learning to lose.
reaching for your cocoon.
drinking, seemingly to soothe,
swollen tears in this mood.

foolish words in this tomb,
ones you never knew.
loving you,
every grain in your dune.

and our words were impromtu.

grasping for a feeling true.