scared of my hands,
cause i know what they'll do:
they can strangle my soul,
or they can hold on to you.

watch it rise to your nose,
feelings tossed in your sea,
do you have self-control,
as you come after me?
will you tear me apart,
am i flesh you can use?
damaged goods in her eyes,
i can handle abuse.
kept your teeth on my lips,
with your black opened eyes,
i will keep mine both shut,
while i feel my blood rise.

i don't know where you're going,
but I'm grateful as sin,
to have known all your pieces,
and places you've been.
i hope somewhere nice,
filled with thousands of lights.
where the days are more bearable,
especially their nights.

will you be there,
when the levee breaks,
the doubts crawling over,
falling on face.
will you love my black eye,
in the middle of noon?
will you hold shaky hands,
when i say i can't too?
will you judge my left arm,
when you see me at work?
each one is a lesson,
i still haven't learned.
i loved when i lost,
am i losing you too?
will you carry my torch,
when i 'm killed by the truth?

muted gasp.

in a luxurious sea,
of tricks and treasures.

i don't want to speak anymore.

your face,
your pictures,
things to adore.

i'll let them go,
in search for more.

hopping hearts,
to find my place.
instead i'll seek the good,
in empty spaces.

if i could build this home,
without your warmth,
i would find you twice,
with love untorn.

but if i falter,
let me be.
a pain upheld,
forever free.

i have somewhere to be,
where my feelings don't show,
while my words dress in white,
buried deep within snow.

we all have that thought,
of the person we're not,
so socially taught,
to not leave what you caught.

but it all disappears,
when you build up the care,
as you look in their eyes,
and you feel all their fear.

so i'm holding my breath,
because time is a test,
and I'm used to the ruse,
losing face isnt new.

but if love was a lie,
then you could be true,
but knowing myself,
i could fall for you too.