Deafened by your silence
Lonely in a crowded place
I look for a glimpse of hope
In a once smiley face

Dead eyes that see
A broken heart that beats
I fight against the blur
Of your voice that still defeats

My memory has lapsed
Your words are my remora
I should have never opened
The box owned by pandora

Evil lurks in every crack
In every crease
Your work of art
Your masterpiece

Jingled my bell
Frightened my serenity
Striped my soul
From any trace of identity

Stamped on my heart
Ridding it of blood
Causing my eyes to water
A never ending flood

Devise a perfect world
With glitter rather than rain
Where the weird is not frowned upon
To be different is not insane

An automatic boomerang
Of a ***** rotten gaze
An unbroken heart with a chance
Of not getting in harms ways

Splinters liquify
Holes are filled and mended
Pain is felt but bearable
And politics are ended

Such a story can be told
A life can be founded
If all the worlds people
Were just a little more grounded

Be the change
That you've been searching for
You have had it all along
You just never knew what to ask for

The squeeky wiper wakes me
the windscreens already dry
No lights in sight for miles
and I've come down from my high

Noisy nonsense in my head
frustrates me to death
the crazyness of it all
cannot be told in one breath

The capital S ruins me
but, the man finally stands
Because since he did it
he no longer holds the world in his hands

Shoulders can grow stronger
and skin so much thicker
but no one can weave through your thoughts
from the place you call your wicker.

The capital S ruins me
and I dwindle away
there is nothing left to do
nothing meaningful to say

Pictured this so different
but it blew up in my face
not leaving would leave a gap in me
but staying, just a little space

You mirrored me as I plead my case
It was a rational knee **** reaction
but right then me without you
was the only right subtraction

The Capital S dominates me
It has inherited my hateful soul
for once I was broken
now I am an empty barren hole.

If forgiveness is key,
then show me how to do it
Im gonna need your help on this
otherwise just ***** it

Im not all that positive
that its certain anyway
and who said by forgiving
youll be happier by the day?

Yeah, I may be left behind
in the mess you dumped me in
but how can I forgive you
when you abandoned me with nothing?

Maybe I like it like this?
I just might be used to the dark
My life may have adjusted like the eyes should
when your alone, walking through a park

You learn to use your other senses
to have eyes on the back of your head
just like I had to
When you almost left me for dead

Apparently time will suffice
in my journey I'm forced to take
sometimes I feel I cant go on
apparently, I still have a heart thats at stake...

Ive fallen and cant get up
The weight is too much to bare
Biting into reality too often lately
Quite frankly, Im very aware

Its way to easy for one
Its even easier when you're two
But try stand up with a broken soul
Thats been beaten till its black and blue

Im half the person I used to be
But I feel Im ready for more
The empty space inside of me
Leaps up and lets out a roar

A star bright in my night
Reminds me that there is still hope
Just a glimmer in the dark
Might give me the strength to cope

I can hold on
And I know i will
Because leaning onto nothing
I'd be falling still.

What eats me up inside
is knowing you look up to me
waiting for some shed of light
on your life of conspiracy
I cant sell you something
that I no longer trust
and for your spirit
I do in disguist
and I must
What tears me in two
is seeing you break down
knowing that strong facade
and detecting its true frown
I cant tell you something
If i dont believe it too
but for your soul
I smile when I do
If you only knew
The truth hurts, but lies are worse
so I sit here and hurt you either way
but knowing it might help you
I'll take being the ***** anyday
You cant right others wrongs
or heal anothers broken heart
but telling it how it is
will give you a great head start
Be the person you need to be
no matter what they say
People pull you back for one reason only
Youre moving on from where they choose to stay
So just go away
save yourself
be good to you
and your health
put you first
Its where you belong
You will always have my help
and my love, forever long

Sheltered by my ignorance
blind folded to the lie
I creep up on my past
waiting for it to let out a sigh
hatred swarms me
and I cannot let it go
yet I continue on
cant help but feel so low
Can I find the happiness?
and if I can, would I dare?
would you hold me to it
if I promised to care?
dont try to mend me
I'll just let you down
you cant change my face
its cemented in a frown
still creeping
but I fear I am lost
just hope I find the truth
keep your fingers crossed