My breath catches inside as you glance my way
My cheeks sore from smiling at our playful banter
My heart skips beats when you look deep into my eyes, as if you're searching for who I am inside
And to think--this is only the beginning
*jm

I miss the days
When I would wake from nightmares
Run to your room and have you there
Protecting me from the monsters in my dreams
I miss the days
When I would mock your actions
As we'd watch the Tigers play
Finally venturing to a live game
I miss the days
When you'd lose it and yell
As you'd coach me
Teaching me to never give up
I miss the days
When a simple hug
Could take the pain away
From young, careless boys that lied
At least I knew I had one strong one always by my side
Those were the days.
*jm

I don't miss who you are
I miss who you used to be
I don't want to remember what we were
I want to remember how strong I am
Without you
It's hard to move on
Even harder to see you now
Disappointment consumes me
For ever loving you

Then I remember
The pain that came with that love
The useless fights that never ended
The lies that stayed hidden
Until it was too late
The day I woke up hospitalized, while you were no where in sight
Reminding myself of all of the times I was left feeling I deserved better
Denying it until it was too late

True love still exists
It just wasn't meant for you and I
Heartbreak happens for a reason
Work through the pain, learn from it all
I've heard it so many times
It's finally starting to feel true

So let these snowflakes fall
Cover me in this sheet of
Pure white
Let me hide away from the past
Give me help to escape these nightmares
And finally let go
And give me hope for a better tomorrow
*jm