When did you stop loving me?
Or maybe the question is why.
Sometimes I think we made a mistake,
But I can't buy into that lie.
We were just kids when we first met,
Kids when we fell in love.
Sixteen seemed so mature at the time,
But I see now it was never enough.
Do you remember the night
That I snuck out of my house,
And ran all the way to you?
We climbed up to the roof,
Laid back hand in hand,
And tried to count the stars.
You held me in your arms.
And every so often, you'd kiss my cheek
"One, two, three for I love you,"
you always used to say.
Your voice has now faded deep into my subconscious.
Sunrise stole our sweet moment away,
But when I slipped back
Through my window that morning,
I could taste you on my lips.
Sometime between that morning and this,
Your taste has been replaced by berry chapstick,
And your touch, by another.

Her lies were revealed.
Finally.
A year's delicate web
Of deceit, untangled.
I looked at her and said,
Have you no shame?
And with ice cold,
Black eyes,
She simply replied
*How could I have shame,
If the shame is yours to bear?

Only in silence
Do I hear my head's voices.
*Go ahead, end it.

Of all the pet names,
You used to call me Sunshine.
I'm not real sunny,
But you still called me Sunshine,
Up until the day it rained.

The rain pitter-patters outside,
Just out of reach.
It sounds hauntingly similar
To the click-clack of mother's heels,
Before she left last February.
Perpetually out of reach...
Just like the pitter-patter of the rain.


*I hear the pitter-patter,
click-clack,
but it's somewhere in the distance.

Look into my eyes.
Look into them.
Will you dare be the one
who'll look into my eyes
and say i know you're not okay?
I'm tired of hiding behind a facade.
Faking. Faker. Fake.
Please, don't intensify the problem;
Be a part of the solution.