**** me.
Oh..yes...you..did!
****** me in a bed.
One woven of lies.
Riding me in a handsome mask,
all the while it was the toad
that sprayed me with its slime.

You held my throat,
Made me swallow all the deceit.
Suffocated me with what you called
- devotion.
Caresses hiding violent wishes.
Beating me.
******* me.
For batter or worse.
All you got was the ***** of
- I love you *******.

I want to cut the mask from your head - toad.
Tear the skin from your skull.
You are the phantom of 'love'.
Staining me with your *****.

Well, now only your ugly heart
is the only part of you that will
make me choke..

I would have one night with you than an eternity in Heaven
One day with you than be alone for seven
With you the sky would always shine blue
The end of the would could only be with you

Love without you would have no devotion
*** without you would have no emotion
Time would just endlessly carry on
Without having you for me to rely upon

To always remember and never forget you
Something I could, and would, never do
You are my colour and not my black and white
You would never be wrong and only my right

Your light will shine always in my heart
Bring me home when ever we should be apart
My love for you I will always send
Stay with you until time should end

The love you give me.
Your passionate looks I see.
Our bodies entwined.
The kisses,
The moans,
The whispers of lust.
The promises of the future....
False.

as i look around at what does surround
i have the urge to create a beauty that only lives without.
but what is on the exterior may be inferior, often ostensible;
a courage concealing doubt.
i am my own confidant, even when i am not confident.
but my choices are mine alone, only my thoughts are ones that i condone.
so with these choices i shall exclaim:
i am
but not
the one i shall blame.

i hear the crickets
i listen to the thunder
i hear the phone hang up
and i listen to the sirens screaming

i bite my tounge
i taste the rain
i bite my lip
and i taste the salt

i inhale the aromas
i smell the storm
i inhale the thick air
and i smell the dirt

i touch the sink
i feel the metal
i touch the floor
and i feel the pain

i see white walls
i imagine another life
i see my blood
and i imagine your face