You loved me for me
You held me and cared
You wiped away my tears
Told me you would always be there
Two hearts were left bare
Then stomped into the ground
Leveled to dust
Because we both laid them down
We both broke us in two
But you will always have the half of my that will forever love you

The words never left
Just got locked behind
A door so black
No one shod find
I put it all away
Feeling that I hide
The ones that scare
Locked in a book
Held inside
Opening wounds that never heal
I hide them away so I don’t feel
I can reveal my secrets
But I hate the looks
The pity I see
When they open my book
I hide my pain on the pages
But they never leave my side
It will not judge or force regret
Taking me as I am
Flawed and broken but held together with bindings
These pages are my writings

Holding me down on that bed
Making me cry
Banging my head
In and out
That’s all I felt
Blacking out
Stuck in my head
I know I had too many
It gave you no right
I was passed out
When you got on top
Took off my pants
You never thought
Taking advantage
Why didn’t you stop?
Let me go
Let me free
I blocked it
And years went by
One day it came back
I went numb
Can’t be touched
Don’t want to breathe
I have to come to terms
With what you have done to me

I look in the mirror
I don’t see myself
I only see the pieces of what used to be
Every time I fall I get a little smaller
I always have had to leave some pieces behind
Only gluing the ones I could find
I have learned to stand alone
Fight the battles on my own
Survive but never thrive
It’s how I stayed alive
Leaning on someone else was never an option
They give false hope
I end up being the **** of all their jokes
I feel like I have to fight my demons
Then maybe I can give you what you need
Maybe someday I will find all the pieces of me

We feel it every day
When our parents get that divorce
It comes up
When a friend stabs you in the back
It's there
When you leave some place and know you can't go back
It peeks out
When you lose someone who's so close you can feel their mood
It shows through
When your only true love lies and leaves like a coward
It larks near
When you find yourself the one who departs, stabs, goes, becomes lost, and breaks hearts

You’re the one I want to tell my secrets to
I want to share my dreams with you
There are things that you don't know
A past that I never let show
When you ask me a question
I sometimes avoid the answer
That's when words seem so empty
They won't explain how I feel
When you ask me about the truth
And the things I hold so dear
It's going to be hard to open my heart
For someone else to see
I know that I can count on you to see me through
All this pain inside of me
You have to understand that it's so hard to just let it be
It will take some time to let you in
I hope that you understand
I want you to know me
And what made me who I am
So ask me any question
I think you deserve an answer
For you’re the one I can't lie to
So here I am
An open book
For only you to see

I'm scared
But I lie about it

I'm ashamed
But I act so proud

I'm mad
But I put on a smile

I am laughing to your face
But I am crying on the inside

I'm sad
But I Iie about it

I'm not trusting
But I act like I trust everyone

But I stopped putting myself through all of this

When I discovered the truth
And I won't lie about it