Can you imagin the one who saved us
The one who cares
He holds us in his hands
He remembers everything about us
He's there whenwe sleep and hold our bears
When we cry those awful tears
We recall the pain and anguish
But wwe recall none of the joy and happiness
Where is our love
Why is it covered by hate

All the time we live together
I don't see
All the time we spend together
I can't hear you
All the time I pray
I don't get any closer
Is there something wrong with me
I hope someday I will see
I hope someday I will hear the words of wisdom
Maybe someday I will hold your hand
I pray that those days will be soon
Real soon

I'm calling
Can you not hear me
I'm hurting
Can you not see
I'm thinking to much
Can you not help me
I can't get out
Can you unlock the door
I can't break free
Can you use the key
I can't get out
Can you pull me along
Where does it go
I don't understand
How do I get help
What
Who s he
God
God please

Why does it have to be like this
Why am I so different
I have an abusive mother
Why am I living this life
I have a broken family
Why am I am affected
I have a broken heart
Why am I so out of place
I'm so sad
Why is my brother so bruised
I can't deal with this
Why did my mother hurt us like this
I am only a teen
Why can't I love her as a normal kid should
I can't handle all this pain
Why does she hate us so much
I just want to be normal
Why
I ask myself these questions everyday
And come up with the same answer
God made me this way
But why...

Daddy daddy please
I need some toys to play
You gave me everything
Please give them voices
For when my voice runs out
Theirs will carry on
Let them be like you and do as you do
Lets them accept me as you have
Let them make decissions
When we know the answers
Let them be different
Let them have a peronality that is only theirs
I will call them by their name
to your throan
The one's who hate me must leave
I will cry when they go
I will have some friends and several foes
To them I know
Will be rewarded
With wings
And other things
But mostly
with my Love

This is my life
Thats hers

Bam- This is my brother
Shh- Thats hers

Bye- This is my sister
Hey sis- Thats hers

I'm sorry- This is my mom
I love you- Thats hers

Get out- This is my father
Hi baby girl- Thats hers

These are my tears
Thats her smile

It feels like a lifetime to wait
Just for you to be my man
Sometimes I just want to hug you
Thats when you push me away
I feel like a rubber band that is going to break
It hurts so much inside
I hide the hurt, pain, and anguish with a simple smile
A smile is supposed to make a lifetime of hurt go away
But the truth is, a smile is just a frown
Turned upside down