you are my casualty, your eradication
my sojourn in your country
has brought about my descent

falling from your smothering embrace
your pallet of a thousand stakes
my surface dies underneath your taste

this com-mixture was difficult to fathom
but I will believe in you now, now that its over
now that its ******

© 2011 joshua deathdealer

we arose high in delusion
a projection of tranquillity
for once in this disarranged existance
I thought that I could breath
but it was just a mass of lies
a masquerade of misfortune
an impression on impressible minds
for now we fall entwined
screaming towards certain desolation
like an earthquake during a firestorm
descending into spiritlessness
spiralling downward apart
as this ghastly specter shatters in my mind
forever spellbound

© 2011 joshua deathdealer

death to the day, I burn for the night
death to our dream, I give up the fight
I'll lay down to the sound of fate falling

this is what you wanted, you can't say its not
this is what you needed, or have you forgot

© 2011 joshua deathdealer

Awakening consciousness as the weight
                      of my despondency clears the air.
                       Demons retreat under a glowing light,
                     my weakness in this war troubles me.
                    Unable to pull myself to confidence
                           from despairs teary smear.


                  You must reach for me when they return.
                          Making known all signs of adversity.
              I will remove all infertility from my actions
                          and be prudent of derangement.
         We must communicate all issues with compliance.
                                                       My heart is yours.
               Zeal overwhelms my senses.
                                      My skin aches for your touch.
               Take my hand and know that my love is pure.
                My spirit is healed, my aspirations are lifted.
                  My longings met and my demeanor intact.
                   Dreams of forever walking by your side.
               The day is new and our Father is waiting
                 for us to take and it and make it ours.


                          © 2010 joshua deathdealer

I have entered a dark and desolate place
                                 where the hollows crawl
mouthing the names of lost loves
others instead, stupidity flowing
from their mouths like a flood
                                 trying to hide terror in silk sheets
its not hard to see convulsion in their happy smiles
or blindness in their eager eyes
their blunders in life has taught them well
that you live, taste heaven once, **** it up
                                  then wait to die and go to hell

It is in moments like these that I wonder
                                   if I am cursed to forever wander
the desolate land of no i love you's
from you, where the shadows burn
I feel your heart calling mine
                                    I miss our world of make believe
My dreams are filled with your beauty
and in my nightmares I chase away
the spiders that seethe against us
God knows the frightful silence from you,
                                                           it haunts me


© 2010 joshua deathdealer

haste the day my breath
will wash away under
the waters of my intentions
already dead is my soul
salvation is for the lighthearted
for those that have not
experienced everything at all
theres no hope for the reprobate

tis fools folly to think that
love is enough to hold heaven
at some vast in time
your only comfort is in the
prayers for my speedy demise
for body to catch up with spirit
for these decaying eyes to
close and open no more

with disaster looming in
todays headlines my only
wish is that you were with me
to hold me as I pass from
one hell to the next
that your face would be branded
in my mental memory of this
fateful extrication


© 2009 joshua deathdealer

I am fighting
fighting in the dark for you
forward to this great surprise
I will not lose, you cannot die
treasons all around me
I stand firm armored
against their blades that cut
and tear me to shreds
anchored as one we will prevail

is this where the cards fall
short of a daydream
you said you'd be there in the end

I cant seem to find the last line
that draws in time, unfolding this horror
this love is growing always and thanks to me
this existence is over
gave all my energy to you
what a mistake to make
we could have let go but we held on
black paper hearts hang in the dark
honoring once upon a time
we were so blind

© 2009 joshua deathdealer