Rumor has it Joan of Arc used to play guitar
That she sang songs similar to me
So what's that say to you about my masculinity?
I'm a parody of who I used to be

I never pay no mind to shooting stars
Wishes just remind me that I'm missing out
So what's that say to you about my dreams?
Their edges burned and tattered at the seams

They've always said you gotta know yourself
But the only thing I know about myself is
That I don't know myself at all

I am your undaunted drifter
Staring into your wild blonde yonder
Desperately searching for a closeness
Before you are lukewarm and hollow

There is solace in my heavy sighs
That expand only to breathe you in
If you asked me to give you my all
And I fall with white knuckles beaming

Your face is a face
Your lips are like lips
When I look into your eyes I see pupils and corneas
My heart beats at approximately seventy beats per minute
When I'm around you it beats faster
Because you have amazing *******

We sat outside in an empty parking lot
High as the jets tracing white lines in the sky
Like a movie, when I started to daydream about you
I felt your fingers brushing over mine

I wish I could tell you I wasn't so scared
To fall for a beautiful girl
For sure, it'll go South when Winter comes around
But for now just let me get lost in your curls

It could be better, it could be worse
One one hand I'm dying, on the other I'm alive
It's a blessing attached with a curse
But god ****** I'm willing to try

You're the cracking neck in my acid trip
The penny at the bottom of a wishing well
The ***** I could use to chase away the blues
A quiet place to rest in this hell

We're changing as people
We're changing with the leaves
We're on seperate trains with the same destination
But when we get there I doubt you'll ever see me

And on the ides of October
My lips got so dry that they split open and bled
And you just looked on like a faded painting
Of something sincere that was never said

So if you look back to your past
I'll carry a torch for you
So it won't seem so bad
And may inspire something long overdue

We're not in wonderland anymore and the sneer on his face
Is like wide open church doors and the glossolalia is harsh
And it echoes and it slides out the side of his mouth
In wretched and rotten force that molds his grinding teeth
Into a hum like an out of tune ***** and then he raises
The world to his lips and kisses it and blows it gently out
Where the dandelion seedlings end up falling like arrows
In the passing rain and each drop reminds me of
The fifty million people crushed between the ocean and the sky
Its all mine he mutters and his eyes ***** up coagulated hell
All over a dark suit that still has the remnants of a price tag

I got a love for blood money
And any ***** little ****
Who gives me just enough

TO put down the bottle
TO put on a new pair of jeans
TO change the sheets on the bed

God knows if she don't nothin' from me
I'm gonna give her everything I got

God knows I'm gonna be staining those sheets
And sweating it all out till my stomach turns
And my heart stops beating again

The point of Haiku
Is to twist poetry's arms
And snap them like twigs

My star is shines so brightly
It illuminates the night
With the blue hue and the bloodshot
That's leaking in my eyes
My star it sings so softly
Over beautiful machines
That keep my star still breathing
And me from bursting into screams

My star is burning whitely
Skin that's withered to the bone
I can almost see right through you
I wonder, are you already a ghost?
They say your heart's a time bomb
And I'm curious to why
You stay here with me in this body
When you belong up in the sky

Ohio is for lovers
And I'm the jealous type
You'll be lucky
If you leave it alive

Wringing dead palms like wedding bells
No bouquet on an early grave

Winter came on December the 7th
Prayers from the penitentiary
I begged them to close the gates
Hoping that you would freeze

Ohio is for lovers
And I'm the jealous type
You'll be lucky
If you leave it alive

The moon is hanging over my sleepy little town
I'm wide awake with whiskey on my brain
Daydreaming, daring to place myself with you
Do my best to kiss away all the pain
And you smile in your sleep and I'm turning over Autumn
The type of man I'd never thought I'd be
Its funny how the slightest sigh can take my breath away
Now the last thing I wanna do is leave
But its just a dream

Baby you're a story but you're hardly an open book
You're all the whispers in my ears
Of a language I've never ever heard
I hold the hopes the hopeless hold

Now I'm dancing around the questions that I'm too afraid to know
Instead of making eye contact I'm dancing poetry
I'm not ashamed at all to waste my thoughts on you
If your arms are open I'll come running, I'll come running

Just let me say what I want to say
I'm sick and tired of this dream
I swear to God my eyes are open now
The clumsy steps I try to take
Let me say what I need to say

And I'm back to my daydreams
Silent but god I wanna scream
Your name through these moonlit streets
But the night is ready to leave
And I toss and turn over to face
The empty space where I wish you would be

I hold the hopes the hopeless hold
I hold their hopes in high regard
I hold the hopes the hopeless hold
We drink to what we'll never ever know

Stars will frown and so will the moon
But they'll be as beautiful as you

When I was walking through Violet's Way
And thinking of a good ghost story to tell
You were the cracking neck in my acid trip
The rabbit hole in the bottom of a wishing well
And I've cast so many pennies down to the bottom
Hoping that time might freeze
And I pray to a God that I barely believe in
That you'll never get sick of me

And I've been patient, I've been kind
But I never get the chance to exercise
The best I can do is shake off the dust I'm wearing
I've been naked before but never not ashamed
But you kept your gaze, never looked away
When all I recall is my ex's with x's over their eyes glaring

Some of my favorite times with you
Are when we drink so much that whatever we say
We can pass off as alcoholic rambling
Even though it means so much more than...
Three months and fourteen days?
I've skipped plenty of rocks into rivers
Barely counting it past three times
But what I've seen in those small ripples
Can only be spoke out loud in the language of mimes

All I can hope is they set our tone to music
And I just hope that I can hear it
My awkward little steps with a walking stick
I love this dance, but my knees are shaky and unfit

Even if the world would end, and we'd be the last people alive
I'd still pull the covers over us while I take the dive

Come down to the harvest with the dancing dead
The skeletons from our closets will crack and break
When their hands hold each other
Past the party lights I'll show you what the party lights hide
The mesmerizing pattern the stars cut into the sky

Upon the water frozen over there are people I used to know
Carving figure eights but all I see is our names engraved
My lover, my artist please paint me upon your soul
You can rest your weary in the bags under my eyes
You can stay here past the party lights
You can stay here all night...

And when the sun rises, just know
When you decide to open your eyes
There'll be no more skeletons, my dear
Just you and I alive

In my paralysis, you were a shaking fit
Beneath eyelids that carved out my silhouette
The drug that's just impossible to quit
My golden string for my all in bet

I'm off the edge, for the fall of faith
God said "Kid, you gotta carry that weight"

And I feel it heavy in my breath
This is my trust in love and my sudden death
I have your name written across my lips
And its spilling out like a sinking ship

I'm jumping in, I'm trusting you
You said "Kid, that's the dumbest thing you could do"

All my love will haunt you
When you search for something new
With open arms I try to grab
What's left of what you left behind

Lookin' back to the last exit
On a highway goin' nowhere
Fated lovers never last
No, I've known that all along

But you were my dream girl
And I wasn't ready to wake up
But my pride puts the pedal closer to the floor
Call me, come running, but there'll no place for you here anymore

No, I don't want you to grow old alone and die
I want the guilt of what you did to me to eat you alive

Steady hands are something I've never known
Trying hard as hell to hold my weapon straight
But a shot in the dark is a shot in the dark
Wherever the bullet hits, c'est le vie, that's fate

Are you lurking in the shadows in the corner of my good eye?
Waiting to catch the bullet on its flight
Or do you have your back turned unaware
That this little chance I'm taking might take your life?

Steady hands are something I've never known
Trying hard as hell to let these words ring out
Like a shot in the dark, but still a shot in the dark
Scared to scare you with what these words will be spoken aloud

Will you ever eye me through the scope of my outstreched arms?
Sometimes Eden ain't as great as it's made out
And although the world is cold and bitter to you
Just know for this moment you're all I dream about

I never wanted to fall in love because I always thought I'd die young
I never wanted to sing for fear of being unsung
I never wanted to watch my parents get old, because I know.

The paint is always peeling off my house when I visit it in my dreams
Its wooden voice and cold bones are the ceiling beams
I blame myself for letting it fall apart, because I know.

There is a beautiful girl lying in my bed, mascara on my pillow
And here I am with my troubles, a soundtrack of an old television show
I take my mind off of her words, because I know.

That's already my story
I could have been a better son
We're scared just like everyone else

I picked you up
And set you back up in the sky
A fallen star
My love you've nearly lost all light
I picked you up
I put you underneath my wings
I held you close
And softly you began to sing

I took you home
Sat you down upon the pew
You slept like the dead
Could not take my eyes off of you
I should've known
I should've averted my gaze
Now I'm nearly blind
And I feel nearly twice my age

I fell in love with the setting sun
It fell too fast and I felt alone
But I still had my hope
I smiled at the big unknown
I was too stupid to know
How much God could prove me wrong
Fated lovers never last
I know, I know, I've known all along

I woke to the sound
Of your heart beating in my ears
I felt it deep
Wise, in love, beyond my years
Ignoring the sinking feeling
That this was pre-determined fated to fail
We're still those puppies in love
But now with knives jammed in our tails

Finding Heaven in a beautiful girl
Well that's the biggest ******* lie
Don't tell me I'm taking this too hard
Until you know what its like to want to die
I don't have to miss the way you taste
'Cos I got my lips wrapped around a gun
Fated lovers never last
I know, I know, I've known since I was very young

There was a time
When I had faith in only us
But I got so sick of you, celestial
I wanna watch you crumble into dust

I pinned your poem upon my bedroom wall
I only read the words you scratched out
Because those are the only times you were honest with me
And the rest are empty shells of what you never meant to say

If we are victims of circumstance
We have been ***** by angels and shared beds with devils
But it's hard to stomach the food
That would let hunger evaporate
Like holy water

The population of Earth floated into Heaven
While I clung to my tree roots
And my flowers and my excess
"If I am fated to die here
Then I shall do so without regret"

There are atrocities
Of cynics and skeptics
Of broken hearts
But if love is not real
Than nothing is

The words of truth
That a woman can speak
Is an ambulance chaser
With a rose in its teeth
Biting down on the thorns

The origins of war
Lie in the cowboys and indians
That run around in the front yard
Always one too many pick up a gun
To wash their minds in cold blood

I lowered the wrecking ball into your throat
You were sleeping so I closed the curtains
I saw your eyelids flicker with a dream
And I whispered for you to stay
I pulled up a chair and I sat beside you
Biting my lip until it begins smoking

And all of this disorder!
I was a hungry infant and you played my mother
And I clung with white knuckles
And you made me promise I wouldn't let you leave
But that is a promise I'm not going to keep

If I used my heart to string up my guitar
I'd break it on my own because I play it too hard

This will be a love song about a love that never happened
'Cos every good ship takes down its captain
When you're lonely and desperate and never feel any different
You write about a better life to try to wish it to existence

I been down on my knees all sallow and pale
But any man'll pray when he's starving in the belly of a whale
'Cos if there's a God up there he don't give a ****
The only thing I have faith in is my bad luck

I want a pretty wife and a house and a big family
Work my fingers to the bone to provide for my family
But that life is a dream of a man addicted to drifting
I could drive this whole country and find nowhere worth staying

I'm sick of holding onto this this handful full of broken glass
That's stained with things from my past
And I'm sick of you being in all that I'm thinking
Even when I'm asleep it's about you I'm dreaming

I'm a failure and a drunk and as much as I'm down
I got a little bit of hope I can turn this thing around
And I'll still keep my pride if I fall to suicide
'Cos there's no way in hell or heaven I'll let death take me alive

Nothing will ever be the same again
And I will kiss white roses into your mouth

Stones will roll like the second hands of time
And I know that you're leaving me behind
But just in case you look back to the past
I will carry a torch for you
So it won't seem so dark
And may inspire something long overdue

It is snow on an empty highway heading towards somewhere you'll never go
It is noticing your shirt has holes from careless ashes
It is waiting
It is knowing there are six billion people in the world and the only one you want isn't there
It is knowing they never will be but hoping they will be
It is waking up in tears because you're scared of dying
It is when you scream at God even though you know he isn't listening
It is all that ever could have been

I woke to the sound of my heart beating in my ear
And a dry taste upon my tongue
I've got an hour to get back to sleep
I'm much too old to feel this ******* young
I always say I can't wait for sunken eyes
To be on the cover of magazines
But if I ever slept at night
I would never have any dreams

Fated lovers never last
I know
I've known all along

I float like a ghost through the hallways of this house
Trying to pick up the words that fell from my mouth
I was too high and too drunk to know that you had walked out
But now my best friends are used up and I'm drinking my doubt

Tonight the angels of mercy owe me one
Ive been running this town Ive been running around too long
Thirsty as the desert sky and with water in my hands
I let it slip through my fingers swallowed in the sand

And if my heart became a graveyard
Your ghost will be here someday
The years you will have wasted are caving you in
And I'm doing my best stuck in the middle
Nothing to do but wait for your walls to collapse
And I hope to be buried there
In the middle of your fall
Cursed to sit by the phone and wait for you to call

I want you to say it even if its a lie
I want you to say the words you don't really mean
Then I will dance on the grave of someone
Who used to be me

And if my heart is a sinking ship
Your body will go down with it
The years you felt it and you'll feel it now
And I'm doing my best not to drown
I can't afford to think about it anymore
And I hope to be baptized here
In the belly of a whale
And darling, we'll have such a great tale to tell

I want you to mean it more than anything
I want you to mean it more than anything
I want you to mean it more than anything
I want to dance with you until the sun doesn't rise