Rumor has it Joan of Arc used to play guitar
That she sang songs similar to me
So what's that say to you about my masculinity?
I'm a parody of who I used to be

I never pay no mind to shooting stars
Wishes just remind me that I'm missing out
So what's that say to you about my dreams?
Their edges burned and tattered at the seams

They've always said you gotta know yourself
But the only thing I know about myself is
That I don't know myself at all

The moon is hanging over my sleepy little town
I'm wide awake with whiskey on my brain
Daydreaming, daring to place myself with you
Do my best to kiss away all the pain
And you smile in your sleep and I'm turning over Autumn
The type of man I'd never thought I'd be
Its funny how the slightest sigh can take my breath away
Now the last thing I wanna do is leave
But its just a dream

Baby you're a story but you're hardly an open book
You're all the whispers in my ears
Of a language I've never ever heard
I hold the hopes the hopeless hold

Now I'm dancing around the questions that I'm too afraid to know
Instead of making eye contact I'm dancing poetry
I'm not ashamed at all to waste my thoughts on you
If your arms are open I'll come running, I'll come running

Just let me say what I want to say
I'm sick and tired of this dream
I swear to God my eyes are open now
The clumsy steps I try to take
Let me say what I need to say

And I'm back to my daydreams
Silent but god I wanna scream
Your name through these moonlit streets
But the night is ready to leave
And I toss and turn over to face
The empty space where I wish you would be

I hold the hopes the hopeless hold
I hold their hopes in high regard
I hold the hopes the hopeless hold
We drink to what we'll never ever know

Stars will frown and so will the moon
But they'll be as beautiful as you

The scene is an old boathouse on some forgotten lake
A sleepy memory that reminds me of my great mistake
My inspiration for self hatred and obsession with cause and effect
But I ain't smart enough to figure it out, at least not yet

My biggest fear was never dying alone, I wouldn't mind that at all
But hating the company that has to watch me when I fall
'Cos there ain't no way in Hell I'm gonna end up in Heaven
Maybe I never had a spirit and I am not my Father's son

When I finally break in two and they strap each piece into a chair
They will curse my wretched name they will cut off all my hair
My last words to my one and only a girl from way down South
We'll meet again my love I'll see you in the Devil's mouth

We were primates swinging from the branches of skyscrapers
And our cooing come ons lost in translation
Sharing body heat to keep us warm inside old office buildings
Where the ghosts of typewriters flit about the ground floor
And we let our blood vessels ebb and flow
We became cynical at the thought of falling in love
Like hard tack candy caught in the teeth of giants
We're getting older but our mouths still tastes like strawberries

We'll build our home on a mountain of shopping carts
Our children will be the hum of the generator
And the occasional sunburst we get through the grimy window
Can be the laughter of a family board game
Unconscious of our own bodies, not knowing our own
Only the ebb and flow you, the sky, that falls
Upon the roar of I, the wild ocean
With our bodies building a sanctuary for the sparrows

Will you still love me when the bomb turns the cities to snowflakes?
The sky is on fire but at least I know you're warm

These walls are paper thin
And I'm the kid trying to draw on them
But I keep tearing them down
So embarrased that I decided to skip town
******* my crayons in a grocery bag
On a stick thrown over my back
I left when my mother was at work
I figured when she came home she went berzerk
But I was long gone and three blocks older
Never even looked over my shoulder
Humming anthems for my tortured ambition
Five years old and no restrictions
Until the winter came and I was exposed
Naked metaphorically from head to toe
Written off by God and left for dead
I started questioning the type of life I led
So I returned to my home with my tail tucked in
But it was abandoned long ago when the snow rolled in
I sat and looked around and saw the walls were still intact
Pulled my crayons out of the bag, most were old and cracked
I started purposely pushing as hard as I could
Turning scribbles into holes in everything I understood
Soon enough that place was shredded, tatters carried away by the breeze
And I looked upon my masterpiece

I float like a ghost through the hallways of this house
Trying to pick up the words that fell from my mouth
I was too high and too drunk to know that you had walked out
But now my best friends are used up and I'm drinking my doubt

Tonight the angels of mercy owe me one
Ive been running this town Ive been running around too long
Thirsty as the desert sky and with water in my hands
I let it slip through my fingers swallowed in the sand

Your eyes are the ocean switching colors
Trapped inside this lazy eyed summer
Driving through the streets of small town rumors
And they had the nerve to call us the late bloomers

So we may have fell behind
But we never were lost we just like taking our time
But drinking doesn't do enough to unwind
Screaming vengeance in the burbs of a broken mind

So when you're sick of the city and the neon seems too bright
We'll head down to the country run away into the night
But I always thought that stars looked more like
Cigarette burns on the skin of the sky
Than sleeping satellites

They say you're the kind of girl to treat like an exit wound
******* all the sugar off your silver spoon
Let me show you I'm a black sheep, let me show you to my room

So when you're sick of the city and the neon seems too bright
We'll head down to the country run away into the night
But I always thought that stars looked more like
Cigarette burns on the skin of the sky
Than guiding fatalistic lights