Joseph

Joseph Jan 2015

I thought that I would be able to talk
I would just sit in silence wondering
wondering how I can talk to you
how I would be able to tell you
how beautiful you are
how amazing I think you are
and how much I think about you
since the day we met
I could not forget how I would pass by
just to see your gorgeous face
to just stare at you for no reason what so ever
I had to get to know you
I had to push myself into your life
I like you
and I have no control over it
I had many chances to take you
and show you how i feel
but I was a scared
I would look at the past and think
I'm no way good for you
you can do so much better then me
I'm nothing
you probably aren't even thinking of me
and so the doubt builds and builds
and I close off
till the thought of you frightens me
and even now as I realize
that not only do I like you
but I think that I'm in love.

Joseph Nov 2013

Tomorrows Sunrise

you come to us with a bright idea
it comes and goes
but on one knows
that you are really mean
with a shiny light
blinding all in sight
you have the might to change our life
to **** us all
to let us die
you many not know this
for you are your own
floating in space
distant from our race
but
we hold you so close
for our lives
they need your rays
the sprouting life
there you are guiding us all.

Joseph Jul 2013

Out of Control

I have sat here
questioning this and that
lost in my thoughts
figured i had figured it out
when i was really out of control

trying to place pieces
in places that don't fit
now i sit here trying to comprehend
all these thought that ran trough my head

what a wonder this is
i have nothing
completely lost everything
and now where i am be
lost in this moment
lost in these dreams
lost in a cycle that will eventually end

fought for a extra turn
lost another night
won a battle
where the meanings are lost

have i moved on
or am i still circling around
to see if i still have a chance

losing the war
i fight for nothing
not even my sanity

when i am only battling myself
who can win
who do i wish to win

jump!

jump!

jump!

man i hope i can fly.

Joseph Jun 2013

A Losing Fight

With all i have done
i just wanted to move on
forget my passed
move to a better tomorrow
i felt i could do this a be fine

now as i sit here these memory's
have stuck me with such brute force
the strong connection that i once had
still trying to hold on
it pulls me back into my wicked dreams
my haunted memory's of you and i
a vivid imagine

of what you use to be
and how i became me

i move forward each and everyday
but with these feet
i lose two or three steps
turning around and looking back

it is a curse i must face now
and it will follow me forever
there is no escaping what i have done
who i have hurt
and the person i am

a monster was born
created to protect me
and creature designed to set me free
a monster i created.

Joseph Dec 2012

After Life

I sit wondering
What I have I just done
I think to myself
Why does this not hurt

Then I start to think about everyone
Who will remember
And who will not notice
But no one comes to mind

I look at the floor and see a puddle of blood
Still questioning why this does not hurt
I see the door open strangers standing
Looking at me as if I am dead

I head towards them
Yo find out who they may be
As I get near I realize they are crying

I ponder wondering why
I turn around
What i have just done

My body sitting there lifeless
I look back at the two
I see nothing
I turn back to my body
I see nothing

I am alone now
On a path that leads to a bright light
flickering on and off

I then say to myself
"So this is the After Life"
And then I start walking

Joseph Nov 2012

Wasn't It Going to Be Today

Today was going to be the day
I was going to see if you would take my heart
and give me yours

I was ready to open a door to a world
that would be you and me
a world to the future
were we could live and be happy

i was ready to give you my all
i was ready to become a man
i was ready to take a chance
but i wasn't ready to die

as the conversation went on
i felt and saw
this would not end as well as i hope
i saw what might happened but continued on
i want to see if we would right
you see

with the words moving on
and as the side began to form
i felt our bond start to break
i saw our chains begin to rust and fad away

i know now that we were not meant to be
with a simple word
that will surely last
we are both ignorant
and we are both right

one views higher then the others
and ones love higher then the words
there it was
the chains break
our bond explodes
there it was
you and i
fighting each other

and as i lie
my hopes they fade
i just want you and i
but that's clearly a dream

because it was today
today it became
that you and me
as we truly see
that we are not meant to be.

Joseph Nov 2012

A Dark Cloud

Morning comes
we are fine
noon arises
we are drained
the night approaches
we are dead

to find the world in all its beauty
look no further then a dying flower
to see this life with all its glory
go to woods and watch it decay
for the taste of salvation
all that one must do
is feast on ones soul

I came to you as a man
I leave tonight as a creature
you may hear my cry only once
and you may see my eyes
a thousand times
but my features you will never know
because for the ones who know
there words will never leave

tick-tock
my rhythmic clock

for this is no watch
it is me watching you
as you prance on by
with such glee
and no fright

but as you do
I must warn you
there is no clock for me
only a thickening flock
of dark clouds
that follow as I stalk