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3.3k · Oct 2013
It Used To Be
Jordyn Oct 2013
It used to be delusion
It used to be confusion
That consumed my mind

It used to be razors and knives
It used to  be thoughts of my past lives
That devoured all of my time

It used to be anxiety and depression
It used to be lack of another mental impression
That made happiness so hard to find

But now it's music instead of voices
And now it's love and my own choices
That make make this happy world, mine
Jordyn Oct 2013
You're just a mass of particles
I won't let you be real
You're made of my mind's articles
Even though you make me feel

You lie and say your touch is there
And I see sincerity in your eyes
Yet I feel nothing when you reach to stroke my hair
So I know it's your words that are lies

Your image is always so clear
But your touch is so grossly  vague
I know it's not right , but I need you here
You make my insanity okay

You're what reassures me that my mind is lost
If that's what it takes to be with you
I will try to forget the cost
It's the lies in your truth that help me get through
Jordyn Nov 2013
I don't know  what to write
Nor can I conjure up words to say
How you make everything alright
By making everything okay

Is it the look in your eyes
Or the depth in your smile
That tear apart this sad disguise
And turn everything worth the while

Is it the tone of your words
Or the smoothness of  your voice
That break my barrier into thirds
While you  rip away the rest by choice

Is it the way you hold onto me
Or the softness of your touch
That shows it is I that you see
And makes me adore you so much
836 · Nov 2013
Never Have I Ever
Jordyn Nov 2013
Never have I ever
Felt an embrace quite like yours
When our bodies are intertwined

Never have I ever
Had such a smile
Like when you gave  me my first rose bouquet

Never have I ever
Been so consumed by a feeling
Like when you bestow a kiss upon my cheek

Never have I ever
Seen eyes so full of admiration
As yours did when a tear fell from your joy

Never have I ever
Endured so much gain
With so little pain

Never have I ever
Heard words so true
As the three  you constantly whisper to me
606 · Mar 2014
Dont Pinch Me, Im Dreamning
Jordyn Mar 2014
Walking with your hand intertwined in mine
                                                              Makes the ground beneath our feet turn to sky
Your lips pressing onto mine
                                                                                              Intoxicates me even more
Listening to 40s music in your BMW
                                                                                              Makes us go back in time
Slow dancing when no music is heard
                                                                                      We keep our own steady beat.
Falling asleep in your arms
                                                           Makes me swoon while unconsciously conscious
Waking up so close to you
                                                                             Continues the always-ongoing dream

*Ive decided we must be a dream. The day i wake up will be the day you or i leave
534 · Jan 2014
What.
Jordyn Jan 2014
I've never been one to rely upon another;
never needed to share my world with  someone else.
But I've realized that there can never be another.

That  night we laid in a hotel bed, on the thirteenth floor
the city lights were shining for us
I then did something I've never done before.

As your breathes soften into sleep
I lay in your arms
and I begin to quietly weep

Because i know I have really fallen too.
but unfortunately you love me
enough to make me want to always love you.

Alas, we are just kids in the deep sea.
Although I know your deepest wish
is for us to always be.

I cried that night because  realized;
no one else will ever show so much love
just by the look in your eyes.

i cried because i know our untold longing for forever.
And I refuse to let it last.
Im sorry. I love you. But we cant be together.
Jordyn Nov 2013
Raged with the unknowing of my recent past
You resist screaming the worst of words
Saying you need to know
Something deeper than my most adored color
I've told you bits and pieces
But not nearly enough
For you don't know the story
Not even the plot
You only know there is an unspoken book
Hidden deep within me
Looking into my eyes
You whisper what you know
"You're still the sad little girl deep down that I never had the pleasure to meet."
And with each word......
I
             Fall
                                      And fall
                                                                  And fall
Becuase I know you are there to catch me
The overjoyed me
Or the saddened soul me
You are here for every me
470 · Dec 2013
John's Riddle
Jordyn Dec 2013
This thing destroys all:
Even the beauty of of your call;
Slashes iron, cuts steel;
Grinds your bones into meal;
Kills men, ruined city,
It is truly a fate that all pity
443 · Oct 2013
Please Lie.
Jordyn Oct 2013
One holds on while the other  lets go
Curtains fall
It's the end of the show

We both acknowledge this common trend
Facts are facts
Yet we play along and pretend

"Forevers" are lies that aren't suppose to last
Lie to me
And don't let this feeling end up as part of my past
Jordyn Oct 2013
Your words always were so true
They always eased my worried mind
So I fell
I fell
I fell for you
My words words always seemed so full of honesty
They always eased your worried mind
So you fell
You fell
You fell for me
You told me what I needed to hear
No lies in your truth
I told you what you wanted to hear
No truth in my lies
Jordyn Nov 2013
I feel you breathe in
As my breathe lets go
Your mind is thinking
Thoughts I already know
Your eyes fall into a blink
As mine decide to open
You hold your glass, ready to drink
As  I  shatter mine into tiny pieces; broken
361 · Nov 2013
Ill See You Soon
Jordyn Nov 2013
You're gone
You're lost
You'll never know

I'm leaving
I'm loosing
I'll quietly go
Jordyn Feb 2014
Ill never tell you things that I know you're dying to hear
I could never bring myself to it
When the words dance on the tip of my tongue, they quickly disappear
I just cant do it
Jordyn Feb 2014
Why did I believe
that I could love
                          anyone,
                          ­           somebody,
                                                      ­you,
more than I love
                                                            ­                                                        ......myself?

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