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Dec 2013 · 228
Now I know
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I thought I knew
What being a man meant
I was way off
I thought it meant
Your tough
You can fight
Defend your self
No
I was wrong
Now I see what it means
To be a man
To be there for your woman
To be there for her baby
If they need something
They call you
Working every day
Making them happy
That's what a man does
That's what make a man
Not fighting for you
But for them
It's all about them
Not you
That's what man is
And that's
What I want to do for her
Ill put my needs aside
For them
Put my wants aside
For them
I love them
More than anything
Ill do anything for them
This I swear
Dec 2013 · 247
Her and the baby
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
The most important things in my life
Are those two
That's all I care about
I want them happy
I want them taken care of
I want her to have no complaints
That's all I care about
nothing else
I don't care about anything
Just those two
That's it
They are my life
Untill I die
Dec 2013 · 359
15 years later
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
You show up
After 15 years
Duch bag
You disappeared
Didn't call
Didn't text
I didn't know you were alive
Untill I was 10
I tried to find you
For 5 years
Mom even tried to find you
Then you show up
Like nothing ever happened
Expecting to run my life
Well I've got news for you
I have a dad
I don't need you
I don't want you
In my life
*******
I have a dad
That was there
On my birthday
Christmas
My whole life
As far as I'm concerned
Your just some guy
You might be my blood
But your not my dad
Jason isn't my blood
But he is my dad
And he was ok with me and her
You weren't
He was there
You weren't
So I should have said this
when I met you
******* I have a dad
Dec 2013 · 434
Ill wait
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I will wait
However long it takes
No matter what
Ill wait  100 years
For one day with you
Ill wait for you
Because I love you
Ill wait forever
If I have to
As long as it takes
I don't care
All I want
is you to be happy
Ill wait
Trust me
I will
I promise
Dec 2013 · 317
Your not my dad
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Your going to apologize?
Really?
You feel bad?
You feel sad?
I'm sorry?
hell no
**** that
It was my heart
It was my life
You can't show up
After 15 years
And want to be my dad again
It doesn't work that way
I have a dad
He is the only one
Who is ok with me and her
So
I've been wanting to say this
For 15 years
******* your not my dad
Blood or not
Dec 2013 · 9.9k
You deserve better
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I don't deserve you
Your to good for me
Your a great mom
And a great person
You deserve better than me
I'm not good enough
I never was
But
I still love you
And if you still choose
To stay with me
Then
I'm the luckiest man alive
Because I couldn't ask
For a better person
Dec 2013 · 274
True love runs deepest
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Nobody cares about love
All they care about is ***
*** *** ***
Yeah *** feels great
Yeah *** is a lot of fun
But *** is supposed to be
A way of showing your love
Yeah *** is amazing
But when I fell for her
That was a million times better
My heart was racing
My gut twisted
My stomach was on fire
That's when I knew
She is the one
The one I want
The one I need
The only person
I will love
Ever
My love for her
I can feel it
In my blood
In my bones
All throughout my body
As long as I have her
I'm happy
No matter what's happening
As long  as she is by my side
I'm happy because
My love for her
Runs deeper than anything
Dec 2013 · 933
Separation
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I love her
Is that enough
I want her
Still not enough
What about
I love her
More than anything
I would **** for her
I would die for her
And all these people
Pulling us apart
*******
I don't need you
All I will ever need
Is her
Dec 2013 · 300
I'd rather...
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I'd rather die
Than be away
I'd rather die
Than lose you
I'd rather die
Right here
right now
Than be told
I can't see you
I can't be with you
I'd do anything for you
Anything to make you happy
What ever it takes ill do it
I love you baby
Forever and always
Dec 2013 · 299
Will you do it?
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
It'a not much
It's all I have
But please take it
Well you already did
Without even knowing
You hold a blade to it always
In one motion
You could end me
For you see my love
You stole my heart
Dec 2013 · 402
I gave them all up
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
They are gone
All of them
They are dead to me
Almost my whole family
I haven't forgotten them
But it's their fault
They couldn't accept us
They didn't like
Us being together
So I said **** them
Me and my dad
We no longer talk
Me and my brother
We have drifted apart
Me and my whole family
No longer talk
I said **** them
Ill choose you over them
Any day
any time
I've gave all of them up
All of them
For you
Please
Don't make me regret it
I love you
I miss you
Ill go crazy with out you
You are all I have now
As far as I care
I have no family
Dec 2013 · 213
My future is.....
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
When I look at my future
I see a house
A job
But most of all
I see you
I see us together
I see us happy
That's all I want
Is you in my life
Ill do what ever it takes
For us to have a life together
I love you
With all my heart
Before I met you
I thought I knew
What love is
But I was wrong
Now I know
Now I see
And it's you
That made me feel it
I love you
More than anything
Dec 2013 · 890
Untitled 3
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
This is my third. This one is in a guys predictive.

Mother-In-Law
You have given me a precious gift
With whom I share my life
You raised and loved the little girl
That I now call my wife
You are her lovely mother
And I'm the luck man
That she has chosen to always hold her hand
Now I just want to thank you
Mom, for all your loving care
And being the kind of mother
That both of us can share
She also wrote this one
Dec 2013 · 298
Untitled 2
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
This is my second one

Tears of sadness
Tears of laughter
Fear f tribulation
Happiness of jubilation
Things to come
Things to pass
Though all these things are there and true
The most important is I love you
She wrote this one too
Dec 2013 · 366
Untitled 1
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
This is my first poem

Your love never sears to amaze me
Your eyes are the purist of blue(brown)
Please listen when I say these things
And hear me when I say this is true.

Your kisses are sweeter then wine
Your hugs are of someone who cares
I hope you know your heart is with mine
And that your love is surly shared……

Your smile is brighter then the sun
Your laugh is warmer then your touch
I assure you, you must believe me baby
And that I love you very much
My baby wrote this she told me to post it she doesn't have a hello poetry
Dec 2013 · 665
Can I make anybody happy?
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Will anybody accept me
See I'm tring to help
Will they
That's all I try to do
I can't remember
The last time I was selfish
All I try to do is help
And all they do is hurt me
Well I'm done with it
Fed up with it
You don't want my help
then fine
Suffer
See if I care
All they do
Is cause me pain
**** that
No more
I think I'm a good person
I hope I'm a good man
We will see who is happy
In the end
I'll have the woman I love
In my arms
A roof over our head
Food on our plate
And plenty more
that I can promise
And they will
Have nothing
And see if I care
Dec 2013 · 441
When I look at you
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
When I look at you
I feel my gut twist
When I look at you
I feel love
I feel heat grow
Deep in my heart
When I look in your eyes
I get lost in them
You say I seem dazed
after we kiss
Tell the truth
I am
Because  
I can't believe
I'm kissing
the love of my life
I love you
With every thing I am
I look in your eyes
And I can't think straight
I feel all fuzzy inside
All I can say is
Your the one
I want to spend my life with
Dec 2013 · 484
All thanks to you
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
It's all thanks to you
It's all your fault
Thanks a lot
I'm happy
For the first time in a while
I'm smiling
All because of you
I was miserable
Depressed
But now
I'm happy
Joyful
Smileing
Thank you
So much
Dec 2013 · 192
What goes on in my head
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I think about a lot of things
School
Work
Mostly you
And Your baby
I love the both of you
You both are the light in my darkness
I'll take care of both of you
Make sure you are happy
This i can swear
Dec 2013 · 538
Funny as hell but so true
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
It seems like when something happens
Everybody at school finds out quick
Well that's life
Everybody knows
Like just a while ago
Me and my girlfriend broke up
Well my ex
Corners me in the hall way
Tries to kiss me
When I push her away
She says
What your single now
I just walked away
Turned around and said
Not even if you we're the last ******* earth
And walked away
Then a **** tries
Then another
It's to the point
It's getting on my nerves
***** man
What are you going to do
Hahahahahahaha
Dec 2013 · 457
I miss you so much
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I miss you
So much it hurts
I just want to see you
Hold you
Tell you I love you
Tell you how wonderful you really are
I miss you
It hurts not to talk to you
I just wanted you to know
I miss you so much
More than anything
Dec 2013 · 237
Things are looking up
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
My life is looking up
I don't know why
but I feel happy
I think it's because
I'm talking to the woman I love the most
Just a spark of joy
That will turn in to a flame
Then a big fire
My heart is mending
My body no longer wants to quit
And my soul is not burning anymore
I guess all I'm trying to say is
I'm going to cut down the rope
Put down the blades
And put up the pills
I want to live again
And I want to say
Thank you
Dec 2013 · 385
I'm sorry
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
Everybody
I'm sorry
I'm sorry daddy
I'm sorry momma
I'm sorry everybody
But
Mostly I'm sorry to you
I didn't mean to drag you in this
I love you
So much it hurts
I love you more than anything
I'm just sorry
I love you
I hope you know that
Dec 2013 · 745
Fuck this
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
**** it
**** it all
**** friends
**** family
**** the world
**** life
I'm done with it all
I'm done with stupid *******
I'm done with pain
I'm done with misery
I'm done with heart break
I'm done with every ******* thing
**** it all
And you know what
**** this life
I'm done with it
You can have it
Dec 2013 · 345
ever since you left
Jonah Lavigne Dec 2013
I have not smiled
I have not laughed
I have not been happy
since you left
I have done nothing
sat in my room
stared at a TV
my heart
wants to give out
wants to stop beating
my head feels
like its going to burst
all of this since
you left
I understand why
I get it
I can wait
but Im worried
worried you will find another
but like I said a million times
its whatever makes you happy
id walk through hell
knock on the devils door
and fight him
if it makes you happy
there is nothing I wouldn't do
for you
Nov 2013 · 249
Just wanted to tell you
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
hey
I just wanted to tell you
I love you
I love your baby
you will be my last love
you will always be the love of my life
no matter what you say or do
you will be the one I love
forever and always
as long as I shall live
and even after im gone
I will always love you
and only you
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
I've hurt my self a lot
I've been stabbed
I've been cut
I've even been shot
but this
this is to much
it hurts so much
I've been dumped before
but I have never felt like this
I want to curl up in a ball
cry and die
I wish I were dead
I wish I never lost you
I have told you I loved you
but now I mean it
I love you
with everything I am
everything I will be
I want nothing but you
I wish I never missed you
it hurts too much
I wish I never lost you
I understand why
but I don't understand my feelings
all I know is I love you
no matter what
through anything im there
so I guess this is good bye
remember I love you
Nov 2013 · 341
I still love you
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
I still love you
no matter what
even though you left
even though you broke me
even though my heart is shattered
I still love you
I always will
Nov 2013 · 727
How am i so diffrent
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
how am I any different
im a person
is it my country accent
is it my ripped up jeans
my oil stained shirt
maybe my mud boots
the music I listen to
what is it
why do you call me weird
is it the scars all over my body
because I fight to much
is it my torn up hands
my cut up body
what is it
please tell me
or is it my girl
the fact that
im the luckiest man alive
are you jealous
because im happy?
because she is happy?
because she has a baby?
well let me tell you something
ill treat that baby
like my very own
oh that's what this is about
well allow me to open your eyes
I love her and that baby
ill take care of them
ill raise her like I would my own
that's all I have to say
good bye
Nov 2013 · 246
What am i?
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
what am I
am I human
can humans bear pain
the kind I feel
am I a beast
that would explain
my world is pain
no
im an angle
a demon
im hell
and im heaven
that explains everything
all the pain
all the hate
but
when he looks in my eyes
ill be the last thing he sees
he will pay
ill make him pay
but what am I
im human
that's what make me feel this
and that's what makes me survive
Nov 2013 · 542
My light in this darkness
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
hello my love
you know
what you mean to me
but not fully
you are my light
in this dark stormy world
you are the happiness
in my anger
you are the joy
in my depression
you are everything
to me
you are my world
you are my heaven
you are my treasure
I love you
more than life its self
Nov 2013 · 1.1k
Blood pooling at my feet
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
as i stand here
in this pool of blood
i look at my wrist
i see the cuts
i see the scars
so many times
ive drug this blade
across my wirst
wondered if this is it
this time is diffrent
is this it?
was this my life
a sea of misery
moutains of pain
rivers of hate
finaly its all over
im getting cold
im getting tired
as this pool grows
at my feet
i think finaly
i get to leave
i collaps
evrything gets blury
i slip in to my slumber
never to wake again
Nov 2013 · 666
Fuck this life
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
**** it
im done
i give up
im traped
no freedom
just take me out
put me out my misery
make it quick
make it slow
i dont give a ****
im done with life
im done with all this ****
im done with everything
**** it
**** this life
im ******* done
Nov 2013 · 410
Beautiful little baby
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
So sweet
So sound
Sleeping with mommy
Your mind wandering wide
Dreams so wonderful
No one will ever know
You look so beautiful
So peaceful
So quite
Lots to think about
Beautiful little baby
Laying there
So sweet
So loving
Good night
Sleep tight
We love you
Nov 2013 · 646
That baby that I saw
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
So cute
So small
Growing bigger
Growing stronger
Learning to walk
Learning to talk
Loves mommy
Loves daddy
Big heart
Small child
Blonde hair
Blue eyes
The perfect child
I knew when I saw you
I wanted raise you
I wanted to be there for you
I love your mom
I love you
That will never change
But looking back now
I see my mistakes
I wish that I could
But I cannot change them
One little chance
Is all I wish
You will not regret
This I can swear
So cute so small
That baby that I saw
Nov 2013 · 446
Take a peek
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
Take a peek you will see
Open your eyes
Open and see what he does
Open and see who he is
Open and see who helps you
Open and see who loves you
Open your eyes and look at me
I want to be with you
I want to be able to help you
I want to be there for you
For the baby
I am there everyday
He is there when you are mad at him
All he does is hold you back
Open your eyes and you will see
He keeps you held down
Stay down to long
Your baby will be gone
You will forget how to walk
All you will do us crawl
You will be in the dirt all because of him
Open your eyes and you will see
Take my hand and you will be moved forward
Take my hand and you will fly
Stay with me and fly
Fly long enough and you baby will fly with us
You will do more then walk
You will soar
You and your daughter will be in the heavens
All because of me
Open your eyes and you will see
Nov 2013 · 283
You are
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
You are
The one mommy loves
The one mommy needs
The one mommy cherishes
The one…the only one
She loves you
She needs you
Without you there is no mommy
You are what keeps her together
You are what breaks her down
You are what keeps her going
You are what stops her
You are her happiness
You are her sadness
Without you there is no mommy
You are what you are
And that is what we love about you
to my girlfriends baby girl
Nov 2013 · 301
All for you
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
I feel pain
I feel guilt
I feel broken
I feel crushed
But most of all
I feel love
I feel love for you
I push my feelings to the side for you
I am there for you
I care for you
I am there when you need something
I am there when you need someone
I do all this for you
Because I love you
Nov 2013 · 288
My heart
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
My heart is breaking
My heart is aching
My heart is what I offer you
It is not much
But it's all I have
I offer you my heart
in hopes you take it
In hopes you care for it
My heart breaks more and more everyday
My heart yearns for you to take it
I yearn for you to take it
My heart needs you
I need you
My heart loves you
I love you
Nov 2013 · 1.7k
I will always love you
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
I will always love you
Remember that.
You can push me away,
But I'll always come back.
You can deny your desire and say it can't be,
But I won't let the wall come between you and me.
You're afraid of you dark side,
The harm you can cause.
I have never feared your hands
Or their sharp, pointy claws.
I love them,
I love you,
I love all that you are.
Protest all you like,
But you will not get far.
You can never change my mind.
My heart will stay true.
I'll do everything I can to get closer to you.
I will wait for you forever, so get used to that fact.
I will always love you,
"Remember That".
Nov 2013 · 241
Me and him
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
I cheer you up
He does not
I am faithful
He is not
I do not lie
But he does
I am right for you
He is not
I am there for you
He is not
I am better for you
He is not
I love you
But he does not
Nov 2013 · 258
Love
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
No one knows what love is
No one feels love
No one cares about love
Love is special
Love is once in a life time
I know what love is
I feel love
Love is how I feel when I see you
Love is what I have for you
Love is love
And I love you
Nov 2013 · 290
You and me vs. you and him
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
You and me are just alike
You and him are not
You and me get along
You and him do not
You and me are happy
You and him are not
You and me are good for each other
You and him are not
You and me love each other
You and home do not
Nov 2013 · 544
You
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
You
You are perfect
You are beautiful
You are smart
You are funny
You are wonderful
You are joyful
You are you
You are nobody else
You do not try to be anyone else
You, I love you
You are perfect in every way


                             I love you
Nov 2013 · 730
Real pain
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
No one knows real pain
Real pain is when I'm away from you
Real pain is something I feel every day
Real pain comes when I see you
Real pain comes when I know it will never be us
Real pain comes when you say you love him
Real pain is all I feel now a day
Real pain hurts the worst
Real pain is something no one will understand
Real pain is what I understand
Real pain is all I know
For real pain comes from love that has been thrown away
Real pain is knowing you are with him
Real pain is when you lie and say you are happy with him
Real pain is when you are hurt and I can't help
Real pain is when I love you but you don't love me
Real pain is the worst but its what I feel when I'm with you
But I stay with you because I'm right for you and I love you
Nov 2013 · 527
Just fucking kill me
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
just **** me
im ready
for it all to end
i want to die
please
shoot me
stab me
choke me
hang me
cut me
i dont care
just end my life
please
im beging
please
just ******* **** me
Nov 2013 · 453
Bloody blades
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
looking at these blades
i think of so many failed attempts
ive washed them in my blood
hoping this will be the one
but it never came
this time it will
this time ive sharpened
honed the edge
this time ill feel it
as i drag it across my wrist
feel my veins pop
feel it slice my fleash
feel my blood seep from my body
i think finaly
this is it i can feel it
once, twice, three times
now the other
one, two, three
now im standing here
i feel my life slowly sliping away
i see him in the shadows
come to take me away
i tell him finaly
you show your ******* face
he chuckels says
not yet
and disappers
im standing in a pool of blood
my blood screaming
fine i try again
every night untill
you take me
Nov 2013 · 374
I trusted you
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
i gave you my heart
i trusted you with it
to not break it
i trusted you
to not smash it
i handed you my life
i asked you for one thing
not to break me
all i wanted in return
was your love
do you know what you did
you took my heart
and my life
you kept them warm
and you still cradel them
in your arms they sleep
i trusted you
and i still do
my love
Nov 2013 · 376
Hey you
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
hey you
yea you
come here
i want to tell you something


*******
to the two people i hate most
Nov 2013 · 355
They will pay
Jonah Lavigne Nov 2013
i feel my blood
running through my veins
i hear my heart beat
pumping my life away
it hides my anger
my thirst for blood
their blood
they will pay
they took her
they will pay
the only person
i care about
they wont let me see her
they will pay
they will choke
on their blood
feel their life
slip away
death will take them
take them to hell
do i care?
**** no
ill make it all happen
but not now
my love, you keep me from that
but they took you away
they will pay
some how
some way
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