Who is this- this person i don't know,
He isn't my friend, only my foe,
He's caused me pain, he's left me to die,
I thought he was my friend, i really don't know why,
I fight him again, and i always lose,
To fight him again- is hard to choose,
He hurts me so bad, but i don't want to run,
But i only have my knife and he has his gun,
The odds are against me, but i need to be free,
I need to find out how to really be me.

It took so long..a raging war.
So much pain. Pain beyond measure. but I regret nothing..
Im finally happy.. Truely happy.

I know now who not to be,
Yes it took some time to see,
But i think it was time spent well,
Even if most of it was spent in hell,
Now heaven is so easy to find,
Its everywhere and im so glad its mine.

B

In and out of these places i go,
23 and nothing to show,
Is it me or was it you,
Maybe its us and the ****** too?

This hand has been dealt,
So i steal and lie,
And It cant be felt,
Why not just die?

In and out of jail i go,
****** makes me feel so low,
Its my enemy and friend,
A hand will it extend?

Surely so, back into its depths,
Turning blue taking no breaths,
Thats not enough to turn away,
I guess i need my soul to decay?

A needle in my arm..
How could this be,
Oh that's right cause your dead to me.
All the pain was it me or you,
I have not the slightest clue,
The games got old so so quick,
Now without a needle I get so sick.
You cut me so deep..
I can't take the pain,
So a needle in my arm keeps me sane.
The blood as its ****** inside,
Then with a push, into my veins it collides,
I'm Withered and dying,
And cannot stop crying.
I want so badly to just be gone,
Will I reach tomorrow mornings dawn?

the shadows around me have seemed to thicken,
the pace of my heart slowly begins to quicken,
my mind is stuck and i feel alone,
this person i am today is just a clone,
one with a reality that isn't really there,
my heartache i can longer dare to bear,
as my true love blew out the door,
my tears start to drown me so i pour,
i pour my heart to you with my last breath,
maybe you'll love me back the day of my death.

without you my days are weak,
i only wish just to speak,
we've drifted fast and far away,
my happiness you have put on delay,
feelings died oh so very quick,
over a million girls you I'd pick,
there's something about the way you smile,
only for you id walk the extra mile,
I'm literally losing my mind,
a girl like you is hard to find,
i wish i could get you back in my arms,
i sleep the day away and wake to no alarms,
I'm broken inside and i don't know what to do,
i wish i could be given just a simple clue,
well..im fading away and wont be back,
my tears are gathering and by minute they stack

always falling into holes,
always getting hurt by souls,
i never really do seem to learn,
at the crossroad and nowhere to turn,
my past seems to haunt me more and more,
giving up to fast and I'm about to fall to the floor,
the present doesn't seem to be to well for me,
in my life i feel that love is the key,
i need it to unlock the truth,
why don't you just knock out my tooth,
because at this point pain isn't felt,
i wish i could change this hand Ive been dealt