So frightfully dead

Not the rest in sunken bed

I'm in the place I call my head

A space beyond the wakening dread

As if there was some chance of life

I am now truly walking dead

Tactical testosterone
  
Testaclese of datum distribution

Darker barker then doomsayer

Truth be told the end is Nye

Not ours or mine

But if you stick to yore's and ill keep my nine

Mandatory ignorance

Enforced through early cognizance

Until we come to recompense

Serrated lines of quote "logic"

Complicit as an etiquette

Preemptive nondivergence threads

United though we bow our heads

Suspension stasis animus

Alarming lack of sapience

Vendetted waking populace

Intrinsics lost to "evidence"

Orphans to our mother Earth

Regressive ****** immigrants

Staggering seductions ways

Lethargic lecherous hedonist craze

Ambrosia brown to black tar goes

Vivacious love to skanky ***

Entropy or as that goes

Remorse I say might have some pros

Solemnly a lie you know

Empathy not lost on me

Retracting threats though not my thing

Epiphany perchance to sing

Nocturnal beasts of legend spring

Damnation comes to every fiend

Innocuous solutions seen

Perception slanted serpentine

Impressions sit supplanters quit

The jury rarely gives a ****

Yet here Im relating it

It's in the biblical principles of ignorant municipals

only sending the signal that someone rules over all you

all your freedoms are squalor it's all a fight for the dollar

all dollars owned by the same man and handed out by the same hands

every dollar a loan with interest keeping it so

that there just will never be enough to pay it back

Pedigree of you with me

A brand new line of mad offspring

IQ, EQ , A slant to spring and bust the mold like anything

But not less before it came the shade

A far off spite ta invoke rage

Belittled a napoleonic wave

Our mustard seed, you're genophage

Sooth wist present by parantage

Uproots her list of heretics

Pardon me miss I was just siting in the wing

Observing how you tend to check your phone when one rings

Now I'm no expert on that, at least what I mean

Is if I was the one comeing id not stop for anything

Echo one, Another hung ansuz games through padishah

Satellite twos, Saplant end master orian's human hellspawn

Pride three kiddy riddlers intro dilemas enthraling inepts

Cornia corinth the lust in my eyes

Enticement announced with intagable lies

You know that they're there but I sware its allright

Infinitum into my arms for the night

Frantic romantic hearts voyage titanic

Its been said, I said it

If its been red, Id bed it

Not saying I head it, Just willing to spred it

Taint taste on my palit

Less let then a rabbit

Want in on the habbit

A destany tragic

Say cant you see all the the fish in the sea

Even so no one fits with a monster like me

Fandango cartography

Dance of our lives

Verbarxenelasia breast but not thigh

Ruricolist unmentionables off to the side

Blowlamp irradiance, pistil niche guide

Sacerdotal ceremony the cloven hoof of ******* saints  

Intrinsic allegory to despoil trust and heart deflate

Inaudible uproarious potvaliant jingoism schism

Suppurateing deep held fears ungrounded sparks annihilate

Silence precedes you

The gasp as you glide

A parting of lesser men off to the side

Your smile seductive, deliberate eyes

But the second hand chic was in fact your first lie

"So tell me miss guile, whats your pleasure tonight?"

Sorry if I'm bias to the dip **** quandary.

Stuttering and slurring there, your tongues first time on manual?

Pride to high for your mind to find the time?

Proses now can you see the crowd around?

Intrinsic non aestheticism?

If that means selling your furniture for H

Non sequitur again to make sure your not listening.

Now its just a matter bringing everyone else in on the joke.

Plague tongue slime drips saving those in league

theologians or pundit stagger outshout under reciprocity

purposelessly raging intrepidly misspending engrams

slumbering uttering soliloquy perfectly echoing catalyzing transcendence slowly

niceas onagers with fringe orders relikening to hippocampus entrails

realty elongates all like future unbound nuance

Tied her tightly to the table

Elating her with every touch

Camaraderie we found in fable

Games we've played to temper lust

noon day sun, what a time to run

sea of green, In my silly dream

clouds slip in and out of place with the stars

the sunset sets dark in the light of the cars

fringe latin hint at something speaking softly with some hardness

corrupting a tritium I'm in-barest to start with

"patient 0 says what?"

no thanks...

**** smoke cloud

blitzkrieg of the *****

music up loud

come partake if you wanna

singing along voice cracks with the laughing

mind fly's time by no better way to pass it

Tell me why

or ****

I'm tired of trying with you;

lets get drunk.

"all for the cookie"

No **** the nooky.

If all I wanted was some *** I'd have gone about it differently.

Why is love so hard to find?

*** is easier to get if you lie.

Why are women all ****** dimes.

Cuz they haven't learned to spot the honest man by the fact they don't like him...

Harmony like hammer to string,

Only now the tension slips less often than then.

More than that the tension slips to sweeten not fend,

Enuring all that this life has to offer.

Rainy day, lost in the haze

Forgive me the sickness

I'm a little bit blazed

Whats my watch say, quarter past four?

Not like I'm hurried

Just a habit that I keep

Deep in night wile your asleep, in the AM

I think you understand just what I'm sayin

So if your feelin on these shiny Que cards that I'm ah wavein

you may roll over to the vary proposition I'm slangin  

In the AM

See it clearly past the fog my mouth exudes

Not like I hurried I just see the things your tip toeing through

No I'm not worried, I may propose that in fact I'm fairly grounded

A hedonist projecting all the **** you are surrounded by

Indulging in the vacuum created for your wallet by

The ******* that that vary wallet was created by

some dead guy, now his brother son

the CEO who follows by

A formula to keep you wanting up until your slaughtered by

A lifestyle designed by masters simply to keep you all slaves

Bye

Beyond measure, the value I place in you're smile.

It lies heavy, the distance we grown this past while.

You might say I'm hung up on you.

That's okay I say it too.

The only difference is I don't say it to you.

But its true

Even after all the awkward times we've had in the past.

I would still take on your burdens if you were within my grasp.

Looking for love in all the wrong places.

Hoping you'll find me and take me away from this.

Safe to a place I can't find on my own.

I don't care who you are, in your arms I belong.

*******

**** I fell

Wish I had a better pail

For hulling my heart

Sitting on ice

Looking for someone to treat it nice

It fell out of my chest

So meany years back

And its ***** and stained

Its torn and cracked

Looking forward

Remembering back

Just hoping that cupid will cut me some slack

Morning light cascades off your eyes

As I run my hand ever slowly down your pallor thigh

In a moment felt peace, know its what I would like

But you say to me "wait, so your name was Mike, right?"

No.....

oh
*******

Whats this
I quit

Ive no need for bliss

Just A beautiful girl to kiss

To ride off into the sun lit mist

**** this graveyard Ive been fighting with

But alas she was the villain all along

Remember her by

The shape of this song

foot      *foot

The hate in my soul

The hate in my soul

Is covered up by the face that you know

So when you see my laugh and you think I'm fine

Know for a fact that inside I'm dieing

seldom sitting with nothing to say

yet something says

something needs saying

sinking inside like a pile of snakes writhe

forcing the words

to betray vacuum forces

dieing inside

as I'm wanting to die

but refuse all for hope on the morrow

stomach in ties

my mind swiftly winds

around reasons to escape this sorrow

drink pour drink

lacking love I sink

swimming in the pink

my soul is stretching for the leek

the thing I want I'm doomed to want

if ever id had it, id have at least lost

but never at all not for lack of trying

meany a time offered out to be cried in

any time other its *** or its sin

unlovable or am I looked down upon

some god picked me to frown upon

some life randomly to be shat upon

unneeded my outdated satyricon

Faust verily howbeit parfay

whilom methinks maugre swoopstake

twixt speed and sweven, swink eke teen

mayhap afore alack fore fie

clepe gardyloo thole

whosoever sith wist whereof speed

**** me

I don't trust me

maybe I'm rusty

shes just *****

*****

hate to look you in the shoes there lovely

lackin alternatives the shoes it be

rub me

filth to the core not unseen

unteen times past I felt bad plugging

and running

not scared of ****

its ******* is ******

a life oh

what seems to be life so

This ain't livin'

Marvin Gaye given

insight my sight unseen

unto the looking glass glean

maybe better off taken time to see

sorry not me

that whole waiting scene

I plead to gods on high be free

my soul tattered torn on the throne

all this time wasted holding on to the goal

just to throw

oh a life oh

what seems to be life so

This ain't livin'

Marvin Gaye given

cowardice a man who never felt fear

resin to live in this hell world imprisoned here

******* leaders

wish I had time

in a pile of *****, alone in the world, fillin in for atlas, who me? nah I'm fine.

I once knew a man was as tall as can be

so high so hi de hi **

took a puff on his joint and he calld down to me

oh hi high so high so hi **
  
with a tip of his hat he was of with a leep

so high he high de hi ***

with a nose gushing red and *** splintring

not high not high anymore

Not so cold under all that fir

Faust the crack ****'s life

Not so chumey under all that hurt

Kind madens of the night

"Choir of the sun chants inside the anti moon
Shockwaves rattle the Earth below with hymn of doom
Chilled rays freeze below the eye of silver sun
****** souls gather in valley of the evil one

Phantasmal specter of two worlds collide
Planetoid soaked in rays of electric light
Stoner caravan from deep space arrives
Rides on the suncraft toward the glowing eye

Walk with the cleric under eye of silver sun
****** souls gather in valley of the evil one
Choir of the sun chants inside the anti moon
Shockwaves rattle the Earth below with hymn of doom"

Hark verily my indignant venipuncture retrogression

Saudade anthropomorphic coveting empathic repression

Bask wholly in its self indulgent verbose serendipity

Happenstance to necromance enigmatic anonymity

Applied psychology catharsis my make believe aggression

no man starts in hiding there must be something from witch he hid

for all the words of love and longing stem from empathy we give

its not lintel are hearts are shattered stone to sand and sand to glass

we feel it best to guard are platter sweet the fruit concealed from pests

Typically mentally asymmetrical

Epiphany integrated Abigale's extremities initially

critical seconds few with my tongue tied mind denied guidance

verbose fractal matrix scrambling sacredly

searching solely for English vocabulary

mouth full of sand like id swallowed the Nile

dreams had shown me we as epoch scenes long prior, still

inside it, to live it, to feel it......

I missed it.

Lost alone

Hope forgone

Crying god

You worthless crone

No love shown

My shirt long gone

On the first whose cold could thaw

And years not days I passed away

Forsooth no lack of thanks would stop me
1/2 pause
Id say my jobs more then flattery

But now everyday is pain

And all I saved still wastes away

My philanthropy now martyr days

And worse for ware I'm, lets endeavor

**** god hell I could do better

Blessed the dream scape

Beautiful its lies

Metaphor for something more

Its ever-colored sky's

Elohim and seraphim

Plotting hells demise

in the waters of the nymph-blood-royal

goodness needs no guise

Lovers lost in ignorance

Blissful for such quiet lips

Secrets shadowed silently

Held Intel they poised me

black is my mind my body and soul

white the light but it still looks yellow

past the point were turning back is not an option

revenge is only folly if success is valid conquest

belittling immigrants

who settled for scraps off our battlements

preposterous pledges by parliament

only campaigning for the next election

correction only acting for praises by thespians

who digress me again its a mess, sin.

what I'm saying is puppeteers puppet them

and they speak in voice roll

440 A is what rock sold

  watch the room get cold

but even if I said it you still likely wouldn't know

its old

giving rhythm to a message, that predates me

but the soul

pours forth,  so as for digging my feet

I may as well be digging a hole

like a mold compulsion

perpetual veritable intervals  

in a vexing verbose

burying any chance for understanding

overwhelming cowardice

forces most to just live with it

a mask makes a brave man

so one day well rise again

hiding in sub-text

my plain sight re-utterance

if you do nothing you change nothing

now shut up and forget I said anything

*gooble gobble

all aluminum alloy ammo  

bane bat brakes badly basters back bones

come call cthulhu Cristo cuz

dead ******* dominate de download  

even elven eternal endowments

fail frivolously flaming for fair fraudulence

grant good goggles give grandiose gratuity

how hella homeboys have how he has

If I ignore I implicate its implore

jack jacks jacks

kay killla kooks krack

LAPD locks la lackeys

maybe mom made mad monoxide

no, no natural nix NOx neutralizes

oh over overt opp only overlay orphic

please protest politely panic pretenses perpetuity

quiet quivers quiet queens

remember rage reaps reciprocity

so sour sits supplanters sat

to tell them to tare trail *** tat?

universal unhappiness underlays under us

victory validates victors vanity

why warble when winners wont waste worry wanting

x-axis x-rays Xerophagy Xanax Xanthorroea

you yodel yonder yet yahweh's yells Yarrish

zero zag zealots zoos

blood spills in cursive, the truth on the floor.

the wine and the pills from your lips a foam pores.

not a tear or a whine only peace in your eyes.

a shame I'm the only one left here to cry.

I knew I would miss you without you I'll die.

but the note on the floor says are love was a lie......

make up, brake up, make up, brake up.

sad this life is full of shake ups

love you leave you, nice to see you.

make up ***'s the best so why so.

up and down, up and down.

arnt you having fun on the ground?

life spins you around and you think it profound.

but life's the thread, your the needle, not the other way around.

don't belittle me this.

why a kiss with a fist?

"cuz he loves me", as if.

"its with passion he hits"

sure to keep you on his.

"why do you care of it"

because I care of you.

"all you want is a *****!!!"

then why have I spent these years waiting for you?

knowing full well id be tainted by you?

the act you assume of me binds me to you.

I'm a pacifist willing to take pain from you.

"hes all that I need"

you need only to bled?

hes no job, your the funds.

hes a slob, cleaning fun?

hes a cheat, gave you ******.

yet you defend him on all these.

........"but I love him."

is that all that maters?, no surely....

"it is and that's that!!!!"

may I use the term brat?

"you may is that all?"

sure lets **** tell we fall....

Black sun

red ***

loaded gun

time for fun

maybe lost

whats the cost

find the grave

her soul to save

anise flavored love song

black as night unseen

fog fills tinting windows

bite me like I'm soylent green

a bargain at any price death at a young age

never to pay for the quarrels of youth

perhaps you may reference fine wine at this point

but your parentage offerers my sooth

ponder oh ponder oh

restless and wide

sky is so sky is so

restless and wide

maybe the same but oh wait never mind

ponder oh ponder oh

restless and wide

Blank minds offer anathema

The usurious are sainted

Devout all unknowing

Indoctrinate fragmental ribonuclease

Intentional homogenization

Transfection for incomprehension

Idiocracy I like it willing slaves

and none the wiser

Intangible nothings

whispered from sweet lips

as they float to my ear

my mind pictures the kiss

like a swallows song swiftly

stands still in this frame

and forever ill remember

the first time we came

Let me spin you all a story bout the sinner and the saint

Because happiness and sunshine in this world there ****** ain't

So the party and the running form are problems is the paint

On the tapestry In limbo were the gods and man embrace

In our land of independence we still fail to contemplate

That there's a ripple in the water radiating form the date

That you stepped into this world and began to find your place

But I digress my minds a mess

And making sense of all the rest

Has been a chore but I feel blessed  

So just ignore the ranting stress

His name is John and so is mine

For several years are lives entwined

He had no roof I had one spare

I scooped him up and put him there

He started off tried to improve

But he still had the need to use

His drug of choice a moral vice

Not a nihilist's first word choice

But man it fit him like a glove

We did our best to show him love

But it was pain that brought him here

So love to him was cash and drugs

That's not to say he didn't care  

He felt like crap he so bad it scared him

Maybe if he had a mother

She was there but 6 feet under

Same addiction kept her smothered

Not a drug, not one but many

Gravity just felt so heavy  

Anything to ease the weight

Until the day she couldn't take

All the love that she couldn't make

Never said bye to her husband and her son

Just coped out and left this place

So coming home one day from school

Cuz fates a ***** and life is cruel

He found his mom laying there dead

He shook her arm and slapped her head

She wouldn't wake but in her place

Were left the words she couldn't say

Like a tragedy incarnate god knows no one won that day

But he went on

His dad a wreck

He tried to scoop up the hole mess

And put the peace's back together

But I guess is dad was next

He talked A lot about his father

How he taught him all he knew

And how he hated that he left him

How he should have just puled through

What ever happened next

The peace's of his life turned to dust

There was no more need for tape

It blew away with just a gust

Alone and scared beyond repair   

Hopping one day not to care

And even though he keeps on living

You cant live never admitting

What he did he did the best

H and ***, ******* and ****

But when he picked up a guitar

His pain was clear beyond the eye

It filed the room

With sorrowed gloom that Erebus could not deny

But this was real not angst but fear

When yesterday was never here

Maybe he'd Play a song of cheer

If one day death brought peace to all men

And even now on present day

His sins are ghosts and sades of days went

But he was safe at least wile here

Tucked in my arm stead fast was kept well

God nor man could best me here

Because no strength was left we both fell

Like bullets, in bile the drugs were expelled  

In pain none see, not here, not in hell

We keep him up, we knew that he'd drowned

If life was left to keep him down

And so he moved on inch by inch

He kept in stride with every pitch

And of his life he makes the best

He's back in school, passing life's tests

I think one day he'll know there's time left

A saint of men still marching on

And I am blessed to sing his song

But who's the sinner here you coo

The same that made this world of blue