-Joelena Saldana
12/1/14
He stares.
The beautiful man stares at me.

I look around to see if I'm not the one he wanders his eyes at,
but there is no one.

I look at my clothes, there's nothing there.
I can see his gentle caring eyes just settling on me.

I know they won't move.

Maybe he's just daydreaming.

He's so beautiful.
His lips are full, his surfer boy haircut,
he seems mysterious.

I start to stare back just witnessing his full parted lips,
his eyes glued to mine,
his somewhat muscular arms,
his incredible light hazel brown eyes.
His pierced ear.

I can see amazement,
carefree,
risk taking,
pride,
and yet humble,
artistic,
but most of all beauty in his eyes.

I wonder what he's thinking about.
What he dreams of.

His eyes move.
They scan my body.
Not perverted like,
but like something's different.

Is something wrong?
Oh, what I'd give to know what he's thinking,
what he see's,
what he dreams.

I finally ask,
"What are you staring at?"
noticing I say it softly.
He answers
"You."

I'm amazed. Astonished.

I ask without noticing,
"Why?"

In the most sweetest, gentlest, most beautiful tone, he answers once again,

"You're beautiful..."

She see's him...

Their naked bodies. Lights on, shades and windows wide open.
Fully exposed.

They have no shame,
they look lively,
happy,
ecstatic.

And she wonders what she's doing wrong.

Has she done something wrong?

Although she's known about the other woman.
She's been knowing and has said nothing... Done nothing.

Why?

Why doesn't she bring her words aloud?
Thought's roam the surface?
Feelings strike freely?

She deserves answers.

She deserves to go and be gone.

Live her life without asking.

Obviously he does not do so, so why must she?
She does not change her image, she does not stand and fight.
She does not release the lies he's told and the truths she knows.

You can finally go..
Finally leave..
Why do you stay? Why not leave?
Can't she leave and not look back?

You're obviously not enough for him, so why should he be for you?

You deserve better!

An innocent should not be with the unfaithful.
You are nature and he's a one eyed mischievous slithering snake.


Continue your ever so loving cherishing life.

-Joelena Saldana
9/13/14
The tears are pouring, and you're not here..
Please come back and wipe my tears. You're the one who noticed me...
You left me alone, the window to my soul is broken.

The energy and happiness, will it ever come back again?
It wasn't right, you were not ready.

You came to my heart bright red, and now you're gone
and I'm dark and cold as night.
Don't release my hand, I shiver cold.

You gave me the faith to take control.
You gave me the hope to never let myself go.
You left me gone and alone in this world.

Please don't leave me alone, I cry in fear not knowing if I'm worth being here.

Save me from my demons, capture me from the dark,
you were my guardian angel, my savior, you had my heart.
I've been dropped,
I'm glass,
shattered by a brick named Time.

I can't seem to reach the surface, something's holding me down.

Come back to my arms and let me hold you.
A gripped pillow is no comparison to you.

Please don't leave me.
You're the image stuck in my head, our memories are written with permanent marker.
I still stare out my window hoping you approach my door asking for me.

I miss your mouth pressing up against my lips and cheek.
You made me feel worth something.

I miss your calls,
I miss your words,
you were inspiration to me.

Why did you have to leave me?

We were so happy,
this can't be right,
it's an unfinished dream.

Wake me!

Wake me!!

The tears are pouring, and you're not here...
Please come back and wipe my tears.
You're the one who noticed..

You left me alone,
the window to my soul is broken,
the peace has left me-



Why did you have to leave?.. Have to die...

-Joelena Saldana
5/4/14
I'm Done - With trying to fix everything that isn't going right.
I'm Done - With all the pain and frustration. Did you know that I can't sleep at night?
So I'm Done - With trying to fix you, trying to help you, when you clearly don't want it.
I'm Done - With you telling me to defend myself when you're the reason why I am down.
So I'm Done - I'm done - So, now I'm gone
I don't care where I'm going, anywhere's better than when I'm with you there.
I'm Gone - Cause you're the reason why I have to hide all this **** misery.
And when you see people ask me if I'm okay, I just get up and leave cause I can't take telling people all this **** pain.
You're telling me that I have to get ready for what life is like - Are you telling me that life is when you're getting abused all the time?
So I'm Gone - I'm Done - I'm through - With being here with you
So I'm Done ---
So I'm Gone ---
I'm Done.

-Joelena Saldana
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The smack upon her face was strong.
His eyes had fire, hurt, pain, anger...

Her face was wet from her salty tears. Her scream for help did nothing.

He was the volcano pretending to be a beautiful mountain.
As the girl was soft healthy green grass.
But was scared of the mountain to erupt.

The fear of being nothing, destroyed, dust,
or just the liquid from the lava.

She had fear,
but still imagined that the volcano was just a mountain.
That he was a beautiful part of nature.


The grass wisps in the wind, hoping to be blown away like a creature with wings.

-Joelena Saldana
6/8/14
There is a light. Right when it is about to end... About to die. About to leave.. To go on. There it is.. A light. Where there is nothing, but fear, when you're lonely, when it's dark and there's nothing to see. When there is no escape, where you can't do anything, but cry and think of unpleasant things, and dream nightmares in your own dark night.. It's there.. You find it.. A light. A light that will not let you go.. A light that will never leave you. A light that will not let you forget every happiest moment you've had. Every greatest and smallest thing that you are proud of. Proud to have. Don't let it take you.. Don't let the darkness take you. Don't let it know that it's winning. Don't let it take your sanity. Don't let it take your Hopes away. Your dreams, your happiness, your courage, your best moments. Because YOU are the key. You let yourself be free. Be who YOU are. Be where you belong. Be and do what's right for you. Don't let anyone have a second to take that chance to take you. Because it can't, They Can't! Nothing can ever take you. Because YOU ARE POWERFUL, YOU ARE GREAT, YOU ARE INSPIRATIONAL. No thing can take you away, steal you away from you. Because YOU ARE STRONG! And nothing is more magical than you.. Than the art of being you. Being who you are is not bad, it is not a horror, it is not regretful, But strong, but great, but more than amazing. You are remarkable! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Don't let someone have you in the palm of their hand. Don't ever have the feeling of someone or something being able to control you. Because it is YOUR life, YOUR destiny. It is you! Not he or she, not they or that, not them or it, but you. It is YOU! You control you, you have You, you are YOU! nothing but you. You hold the power! You hold the love! You hold the emotion! You hold the great! You hold the key to you!  Forever and always YOU!
You Are The Light!
So, never forget, there is always a light.
And never forget where that light came from.
You.

-Joelena Saldana
11/29/14
I beg of thee, do not push the girl whom fears to be loved.
Whom fears to love.  

Give her the chance to find the moment of where of where she may finally roam free.
Give her the chance to finally understand.

To understand the natures of which lie within the love and its beauty. Tis wanting the sun to appear at the strike of midnight.

You must give beauty patience.

Tis not thee whom controls, but thy whom controls thee.
You want but cannot take, tis the sun whom will not give but show it's miraculous beauty.

One should never push a woman's love.
One must never beg for a love, then the one whom holds love captive is in control.

Thy shall never push love.

Show me patience.
Show me that you can wait for my love to finally come free and explore thy's wild soul and meet the fast pulse beating heart.
Show thee the beauties of a love so delicate.

Show but not ask.

Tis asking thee that will scare thy away.
Tis begging thee that shall never appear to you once again.

No pressure.. No push..

Tis the girl whom has never loved who holds great innocence.
Tis the girl whom has seen love and has seen it's great, but grand destruction.
And tis the girl whom fears the pain, but knows no pleasurable joy that may come with it.

Tis the young woman whom is a child to love.

She must know.. Learn love, not quickly take it.


For I am that girl, so please, give me patience.