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Jo de Guzman May 2014
this story isn’t over yet.
it’s either we’ll continue it together.
or separate have a story on our own,
or just settle being alone,
regretting why we let it end.
perhaps our story might just having a little break
to prepare each one us
for that “right time” for our “right love”.

I don’t know.
I want it to end,
thinking the pain would end too.
hoping it would make me stop hurting you.
but not having you at all,
even if I’ll have all good days in exchange,
it would hurt.
twice as the pain that I’m feeling now.
I don’t want to let you go,
but I don’t know,
Jo de Guzman May 2014
a conversation that will never occur,
a message that no one will ever send,
a date nobody will ever plan,

*for something that will never happen
Jo de Guzman May 2014
I’m not clingy. I’m a cold-hearted *****.
I often don’t care about everything.
if you won’t start the conversation, we’ll never ever talk.
if you need me, you have to look for me.
I won’t show you that I care, that I miss you or whatsoever.
I don’t want anyone to see my weak sides.

I don’t blame you for getting tired of me.
because I know all along it’s my fault.
and sorry, I don’t want to change.
Jo de Guzman May 2014
I’m sorry I’m not that pretty. unlike the other girls you see.
I’m sorry I’m not smart. I can’t write you letter and songs.
I’m sorry I’m not as sweet as what should I be.
I’m sorry I’m such a mess. you deserve someone better than me.
I’m sorry I am just me. and I’m not trying to be someone you want me to be.
I’m sorry for the things I’ve done and I’ve failed to do.
I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry I exist.
Jo de Guzman May 2014
if I could just turn back the hands of time, I’d go back to the time where you’re still mine. I’d hug you tighter, kiss you longer, listen to all your stories and endless whining, I’d be more patient whenever you’re having you’re mood swings. I’d try harder to give you all the things you want, and if I could just, I swear I’d love you better.

     unfortunately nobody can bring back what was gone. I should accept the fact that everything between us is already done. you’re fed up and sick with all my mishaps, faults and excuses. I know there is no one to blame aside from me. the reason behind all this madness is me. I’m crying, deeply in pain, and all the blame goes to me.

     I’m left. alone — reminiscing alone. I never thought it would end up this way. maybe I was just too confident that I’m going to have you and our love forever, not noticing all of it went slipped out of my hand. I tripped over, I woke up and everything is already over. you’re gone, it’s long gone, but I’m still not over it. I never thought it would be this hard. too dumb, too careless, now I’ve got nothing but regrets.
Jo de Guzman May 2014
someone to count on,
a hand to rely on,
a shoulder to cry on,
sometimes it’s not just one person.
not having a lover,
doesn’t mean you also don’t have these.
not having a lover,
doesn’t mean you are alone.
you have your friends, your family.
sometimes you’re to dumb
not having any heart to appreciate.
sometimes it’s not the world’s fault,
sometimes it’s all in your head.
an illusion — just an illusion.
don’t let a mad thought control you.
free yourself from yourself.
it’s not really a mad world.
Jo de Guzman May 2014
sometimes I don’t care,
because sometimes I must stop caring,
but I didn’t really stop,
just took a little break,
for them to realize that I used to care,
and never been appreciated.
that’s the thing about human,
they only know what’s happening
when it’s already done,
when everything is already gone.
stupid isn’t it? that’s us.
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