It has come to my attention
That the heart ache you give me is my inspiration
To write
And write
And write
I am oblivious to the fact that whenever you find it in your cold heart to grant me access to your addicting love
My senses just seem to shut down, and I exist for only you
But you're just toying with me, while on the other hand my love shall forever be perpetual
And that is why I sit here once again.

Press your lips to the side of my cheek
Like you once did before
I only grimace because it makes me ache with desire for more
Let your eyes bore into mine, see the sights of where my eyes have roamed all over your tantalizing figure
I'll lay my hands upon your waist
I'll pull you closer with selfish haste
Anticipation for the events that have played in my mind over and over again
Have reached heights that I cannot seem to constrain
I breathe you in with every breath I take
Tasting the unmistakable essence of your sweet aroma
As tenderly as I can muster
I press my lips to your forehead, I see the beads of sweat cluster
From your lips escape the words Love me again
All that I've come to feel in this moment is more than what words can describe
Both our complexions change different shades of red
Feeling like a fool, I bring myself to break the silence embedded in the air around us
*Who says I ever stopped?

The biggest illusion in this world is love
Love fades with time
And then you're left with an emptiness
Weighing down on your soul
With every passing step
With every passing moment
The burden keeps on growing, growing
Leaving one feeling heavy hearted, yet at the same time so weak one could be knocked over by the wind that's blowing
Reminiscing on past moments shared in love
And on what could have been, and on the undreamed of
Then love ripens into hate
Hate for loving so much, leaving one with distaste
The fruit of one's love
Falls to the earth
Left to rot
And just for a moment
One is left with a feeling of freedom
Having the joy to breathe again
No thoughts to provoke the tears that saturate the seed
That must grow again
One day, one day my friend
One will have to pick up that load again
One's heart will grow heavy with pain and strain
Yet feel so empty inside
And one day, my friend
Love will glow so brightly again.

Look at her
Just do it, and marvel at this wondrous exhibition of glamour
She could be all yours, ya know?
She's so beautiful
You love all her lovely little perks
Her nose, ears, and especially her lazy eye
How love can make someone seem so imperfectly perfect, you don't know how or why

Wait, what?
Stop your gawking
Ha! You didn't even notice you weren't breathing
Look at her, she'll never be yours
So get that silly little notion outta here
Stop fooling around
Go ahead and look down
Don't waste your time fantasizing, my dear
Just carry on with your fear

Shut up, you
Always talking out of the blue
Let me gawk if I want to!
How do you know I'm afraid?
I'm not!
Am I?
Should I really stop?
Will she really never be mine?
Probably, how could I be so blind?!

Distraught and broken, filled with unbearable pain
While my thoughts dance and jump with wicked schadenfreude, having prevailed yet again.

Your eyes
So deep, mysterious, left me mesmerized
I could get lost within their dark depths
I try to breathe, but they leave me without breath
I was so young, still had yet to know of the expedition
That my heart, so youthful, would soon partake in

I wish I'd never looked at you
Or, into you
For whatever reason, your whole being captivated me
Such grace, such splendor, such beauty
So oblivious to reality whenever my eyes wandered idlelessly to your own
So robotic, the feelings always left me blown

I was so scared of the love I felt
Scared to show it
Afraid to be close to you, no matter how much my heart yearned for the comfort of your aura
Afraid that with one innocent touch of our elbows from the rocking of our school desks
Love would be unleashed, it's selfish wrath suffocating, latched on like a pest

To do this day, I'm still afraid
I hope, to God, that she'll never change
All though, I know, my love will never change
And to this day
She leaves me in awe, with her perfection, yet my thoughts leave me in dismay
I'll never admit to her, that she's the reason I cry everyday
She's the reason I breathe, yet she's the one who seems to ****** it out of my lungs
She's the reason I want to live, and she's the reason I want to die
I hate her.
But I love everything about her.

Stand by
And let these flowers grow high
Then bask in its wonderful scent
Without fear, without regret, without repent

Moments like this don't last forever
So hold my hand, let us be together
Let the sunlight dance over the fallen rain
Let our symbol shine, so high and mighty
You can hurt us, but not it, for it feels no pain

We are happy, just let us be
We no longer assimilate to what society thinks love should be
Leave it alone, you've failed to destroy us
We carry scars beneath these smiling faces
But we will not let you recreate us into phases
Phases in history of wrong
Of mistakes
Of immorality
Because we are the new reality

So just stand by
And let these flowers grow high