i couldn’t sway my head around the fact
that my grandparents stayed together
for 54 years

it made me wonder
just how many times
they had to forgive each other
to last that long

may i crawl into your heart
and stay a while?

maybe build a tiny shelter
and stay just a little longer?

maybe buy the deed to your heart,
and own it in its entirety?

we will soon meet and do crazy things together and the moon will be still and you’re all mine and i’m all yours and the midnight cartoons will mask our sounds and our warmth will coalesce under the duvets and create light and it will be lovely

it will be so lovely

i tire
yet i persist
for the growing void in my chest
longs for you

what I wouldn’t give to the world
just to be able to melt
into her embrace right now

if loving you meant enduring pain,
you could rip my heart into a million pieces

and i’d still be happy, because then
i’d have a million pieces to love you with

browsing through her trove of memories
wanting to have been a part of her past
so that i could have made it better