And when I touched her
A fiery blaze burned through me
Now aching for more
I no longer cared at all
If tomorrow came or not

the last time i kissed you,
you didn’t want to kiss me
but did anyway
i know what that’s like
it’s hard to say no
i’ve done that before
on many occasions
you were surprised
or muddled
but you did anyway
for longer than expected
and when i asked you for a hug
because i hadn’t had a hug
in weeks,
you pulled away before i was ready
to let go
and then felt bad and embraced me
again
it’s those things
i am terrified to admit to myself
they happened
in front of my face
but i deflected it
with manipulation

I’ve had enough of today.
Unfulfilled plans: quota filled.
Smiles: check.
Yawns: been there, done that.
Through the motions
as usual.

I’ve had enough of today.
Tomorrow, you can arrive in a timely manner.
I give you permission.
I’m ready.
To do it again.
Just like they say:
Same ****, different day.

She made me
and so
I can laugh
today...