At the library I look for old books
Ones that might have actually been owned
Before they were borrowed

I write fake love letters on the inside
How I want these stories to change some person’s life

Now these novels are secondary
And the people finding them make up their own stories

They constantly ask themselves what it means
How it relates

In some I make lists
Of the parts of my body that still function

Some
See you final chapter

Some
This is the reason I almost didn’t **** myself

Some
I write what I really want to tell her

How seeing her sometimes
Is a punch to the gut
Like a fire at a library
And I dry heave barely blank pages

She comes here a lot
And if she knew
She might read them and wonder
Why I chose the books I chose

So in one I write
I don’t know
I’ve never been good at telling stories
I thought you’d make up some beautiful reason
And I could say yeah

In the bible I write
I never believed in god
But I also never believed
The story is over
After reading

The end

Her shirt is tight
Thread fingers
click click click
The heat is unbearable
yet you creep closer
Spin
Its so easy in the heat of the dark
To meet certain pressure points
causing chain reacfions in the shadows
The taste of your lips
The heat of your burden- do not bare this alone

Flicker
The smell of you grows thicker the words fall over as you whisper
Your fingers timid
lips  trembling
You made my heart cheat as it races
Fingers and spaces
click click click click click
The actors play
a game for us
Everyone is perfect
everyone is uptown spending money

You curl closer to me
The weight of a gaze
The green eyes blade grass
You laugh quietly in perfect angles
inteflaced fingers
I fell in love
Roll credits cut copy edit

Wake dream
Its hard to say goodbye
Shadows
Cigarette burns
Make your move
One step ahead
Angel fall asleep
Fi e with me
your body against me
The up and down down up of your breath is enough
Like crushed pine needles
new bloomed flowers
Your smell in the room
Where the heat-drifts on the skin
silk flesh white
Your head onfmy chest
You sleep softly
You dream
(I hope of me)
House lights
Cheap ticket love
Dark carpet shadows
I protect you
Sleep
(I dream of you) whisper warm
Always of you i dr

Still
by
the trees

The shadow
skipping in the sun

what can I do
at the sight of you

breathe in your curse words
exhale smoke
your worlds rhyme with jokes
you talk me back down with thoughts of home
That feeling of "I never wanna be alone" go to sleep wake up die of old age
You dream less in sleep
More when awake

Dark streets where bad memories once followed me
Lanes covered by arms of old oak trees
Long walks cracked and gray
Where the shadows of our drunken feet
Walk away

Here is a moment of my life
In which I wish to stay the same
To keep bottled up for when you forget my name

-you stop and say
were just two humans
made to break away-

Off to the next ****
You broke my heart
Beneath the dark oaks