At some point you shut down
       In fear of it all
At some point you tremble with pain
       causing you to fall
A glimpse of your past
Awaiting your return
Ignoring it while your flesh still.   Yerns

Questioning all the hurt you once felt
Wondering if love could occupy a dark place that self identifies as "heart"
Wanting to let go of a past that once tormented your every slumber
its hard to conquer something you never knew exsist

I wanted to be her
I envied your dedication
The two of you so compatible
Yet we're simply complex
I will never be the stream running through those veins
The rhythmic beat of a heart that forces a smile of perfection across your face
I wonder do I make you as happy as the one who breeds your kin
A sad disfunction
A game I'm a afraid I will never win
I want to feel the beat of your heart flow through my vains
Then maybe just maybe it will be the music in my ear that gives comfort when it rains
I wanted to be her
A pattern in your soul
A continious reminder that we too could get through the bad days
I wanted to be her
But I realized my aspiration were simply too high

I am walking ahead and ahead
and still in the same place.
I am treading water
walking through a morass.
I think I am making progress
but I am stuck when I keep walking.

© Sofia Kioroglou