And if I didn’t spill my mind all over your surface
I’d probably go insane with these thoughts racing through my brain
This pencil perfectly transcribes all I decide must leave my conscience…
Meaning, “I can’t get you out of my head” because you plague my train of thought
While through your eyes I’ve become quite transparent
Well so be it, again, I don’t ask for much but a place to release these stranded emotions
a place where it all can be put down,
erased, and bulit up and reconstructed with some time
maybe here and there I'll put in a little ryhme
and then, maybe then, I'll gain a peace of mind...
So in time I’ll heal I just need a constant dosage of my remedy,
Just a case of insanity,
Poetry

A few words for a girl I care for
Before you awake and start your long day,
I thought I might write a little something to help you through it.
Life is hard, that much I understand
I just hope you try not to let all the negativity consume you
There are obstacles it’ll put us through
But I’d like you to always remember this:
No matter what it is that’s bothering you
May the radiance of your smile never diminish,
Your determination never waiver,
May faith never leave you
And your love never fade
For they and your personality make you special
Caring,
Ambitious,
And successful,
Take pride in that
Please believe that you are amazing in so many ways
Because it is seen through the eyes of many
It just saddens me that yours aren’t one of them
So these are just a few words to remind you
Hopefully you don’t forget
And if ever you do
I hope you look this over
and remember how that smile just happened to come across your face.

Much Love,
Jimmy Desire

Conflicted
See my mind’s in one place,
And heart’s in another
I figure I’ll have to wait until they catch up with each other
Because if I consult one I must consult the other
It’s quite simple actually,
It’s either all of me or none of me
Conflicted…
I should pull away and let you be
But I can’t seem to do it.
Infected with a sickness
See I understood the conclusion
And let go
Let the distance grow between us
Miracle grow
But you’re repetitive
You tell me, “Sorry but we can’t be”
What? Do you and I not have much compatibility?
Or is it because I don’t have an ******* quality that all my life I’ve tried to avoid
Regardless, I make the best of a situation I’d rather put to rest
And see you daily to share a laugh but it ain’t the same
This is nowhere near the same
But that’s partially on me,
Got too accustomed in a place I don’t reside,
But no worries, I’ll just return to the shattered abode I call a home
Continue to write about what I see and let it fuel me until I feel again
I swear this **** is real, and I love it
I really ******* love it but until I have reason to profess it
I’ll suppress it and never again let a soul gain entry to mine as well as you did
But I’ll confess this, I’m happy I was able to help you with whatever you were going through
But my heart doesn’t agree, because it would’ve wanted to help you and but then have kept you too
But it happens and I accept that
I had fun and I’ll admit that
You say you’ll miss me, I believe that
But you shouldn’t…
You’ll be fine; you’re too strong for all that.
They say people we meet along the way will influence us,
I just hope I did my part.
The road you’re on is amazing
I wish I could see how you progress
But alas, I’m on my own road where numerous tests and challenges await me
So if I never see you again,
I ask you to smile,
Not just when something is funny
But in general, as you go about your day, smile
Give someone something to be happy about
Because I hope that’s what I did for you
Remember the nonsense that came out of my mouth
The countless hours we spent together just hanging about
Most of all remember how we met
Because if I could I would’ve went to see Lion King with you I swear
You were so beautiful then
As you are now, and I know you know, but I just like to let you know that I admire it.
I’ll miss you most out of everything this semester
I thank you for that
Please be safe miss and continue to do what you do
I know you’ll find a man suitable enough to be your king one day
So until then try to keep your bad *** out of trouble.
Love Always,
Jimmy Desire

how can an expression so simple
be so addicting?
smile is appealing,
mind is brilliant,
but it must be too early
I mean how could it be that you've infiltrated my thoughts
and reside comfortably in mind?
You're something else...
like Ne-Yo said,
"You're the best thing I never knew I needed"
and you've just succeeded in reminding me
that life's course holds a vast amount of surprises
you most certainly may be the most pleasant
and I know some of the best words are better left unsaid
but I just thought you deserved a little recognition.
A toast to my future queen, may you continue to shine on.

Practice takes patience
and patience takes practice
figuring out who you are takes that and a compass
nothing as simple as asking,
rather, much more like searching
for the smallest details that makes you, you.
Self-exploration
and in the case of others,
no longer are we searching
but rather waiting for pathways to open
connections are made with everything that we learn
but that takes time, dont rush the process
dont get anxious or nervous
just express your intrest
you see thats how friendships are made and relationships develop
you see time takes patience,
and patience takes practice.

ooh, I shouldn't care but I do.
I just like to talk to you
and listen to every detail that should happen to escape those lips
and inch closer with every thoughtful response and mistakenly steal a kiss
you ask what I'm doing,
I explain I couldn't resist, I just had to have a taste of something I could've missed.
You laugh but you insist not to let it happen again
see now we have a problem because what I had just taken from you was pure bliss
and I'd be ****** if I actually had to be restricted from this...
So you continue your story and I'm lost in mind,
stratagizing ways to make you mine.
In the meantime,
I'm watching you speak and become infatuated with your laugh and smile,
they're sight alone would be enough to have me run for miles...and it has too.
Now I have yet to reveal all the secrets you have concealed
but I believe slowly but surely
I'll get there and maybe eventually bring out the side that longs to be defiled.
And when I first met you,
you explained how your next man would be the one to walk you down the aisle
To be honest, I'm nowhere ready for that yet
but in the meanwhile why not take a chance with me?
because as time has gone by,
I've grown quite accustomed to you...

Free-Write 12
What's up with this feeling?
This unfamiliar feeling, dealing blows to my core
Bass shaking up the ceiling
I tremble with each quake trying to find stable ground
But struggle to find it, see I don't make a sound
The building is collasping and my mind gets to racing,
chasing an idea I haven't yet schemed up
yet another vivid scenero I've just so happened to dream up
a place where every thought and idea seems to fall and become debris around me
and my heartbeat emerges and lashes out wildly
as if to get my attention but I try hard not to listen
because my hearts desires arnt always morally acceptable
at least by my mind standards
You see I fear that emotion can drive us crazy
So I conceal apart of me because I couldn't seem to find a balance
And plus I'm tryna stay focused but it's strange without guidence
And at times when things don't happen to make sense
And the pressure gets too intense it happens to breakfree and dispense the nonsense that I've refused to hear into my consciousness.
Therefore I ask myself, what is this?
Why do I think when I must act?
I understand a need for caution
but maybe a leap of faith is a far better option
You've gone this far, don't hesitate, take action
If you fail, well good
Because if you hadn't how else would you have knew
I swear to you in time you will improve
Because in life there are things you must do
But you won't be able to if you can't prove
That when the oppurtunity shows, you will ensue.