And when I see her, my grin becomes a smile quickly…
A simple reaction actually, her smile is contagious
So even when I’m upset I become afflicted
And I love that but when we trade places
No matter how much I try, nothing seems effective
So I’m afraid she’ll get tired, get up and leave
That’s why I despise getting close, I hate deceit
Believing in something when it’s really nothing
And sure you may think I’m ruled by negativity
But in reality I’m cautious,
Simply trying to protect my positivity…
My heart seamlessly intertwined with these words creates sustainability
These words combined with my thoughts create invincibility
All of those previous things combined with my soul create vulnerability
Because writing brings me reassurance
But it doesn’t quite fix things
That’s what’s left for me to do
Then again, that’s only if I’m allowed to…
Now patience is a virtue I’m not quite familiar with
But I’ve become more familiar, in time, with you
Granted patience wasn’t the answer
Rather it was as simple as accepting what I already knew
Certain things are too good to be true
Now regardless of what’s occurred
We’ll get passed it because you mean way too much to lose
And clearly we’ve had our issues
But I couldn’t forget you even if I had the option to choose
Believe that,
The same way you should believe I have the upmost respect for you
So please forgive me for any vulgarity or offense that I may commit
Because you know me and disrespecting any female is the furthest thing from my wish
But what I do wish is that this distance between us doesn’t last
It just isn’t worth it…

-Jimmy Desire

All I ever wanted was you
and you can't believe that its true
cause I haven't been able to show it to you
words created from frustration
"I'm through, **** it, I'm through..."
Truth is my life was always easier with you
When I took the time to get to know you
hold back judgements to understand what you hid in the confines of your mind
So much so, at one point I could reply
"baby girl forever I'll reside at your side"
Your the only one I'd ever mutter those words too
so be still baby, I ain't going no where.
I'm determined to make you know
that you are one of the most important people to me...

I’m trying to find substance in something that’s transparent
But it seems to elude me before I get the chance
Like the wind,
It comes and goes as it pleases
And leaves its mark on the hearts of men
Uncertainty fills their mind as they attempt to remember when
they were consumed by it's affliction
and what it's done to them.

the memory flies by quick
but in the moment its timeless
its the simple things that make it all worth it
but in the end
those are the hardest to remember
what was it that i was feeling?
and when can i feel it again?
because like a drug im addicted to the amount of satisification
it brings
better yet i guess i'm addicted to the kinda person she is

love has no defination
so even if i cant tell you what it is exactly
let me descibe it in my words...
it's wanting to wake up next to you
to catch you at your most peaceful
its having you by my side
with interlocking fingers exploring the world
its being stingy and incredibily unreasonable about the time you spent without me
its something you never expected
but a feeling you never want to go away.
its letting go even you dont want to
its discovering that they mean more to you than u thought.

From the concrete who knew that a flower would grow
breakthrough and show the rest that anything is possible
struggle is everything the challenge is overcomming it
because if you dont how could you claim you have achevied anything?

Last night I saw the most beautiful thing
A woman held by the man she admired
he kissed her hand time after time while the night sky lit up in recognition of the 235 years of independence
**** those lights in the sky sure were bright
but this year she was the light to his world.
So i ask you lady to continue to be his guiding light
because clearly he's found something special in you.

I envy him too
because this affliction is a gift
and the game of hearts is delicate
luckily its brought him bliss
the same I'd always imagined with the misses
nonetheless, I'm excited that he's finally found it
something i have long to see...

Meet at the crossroad
a disclosed location safe in the cover of shadows
silence our ally
street lights - kryptonite
we shield our eyes
and listen intently to each others' minds
without conflict
trying to reconstruct it
...maybe one day...

lost in my train of thought
music is guidin me
no signs of slowin down
snap me back to reality
cuz baby i'm cruzing
where i'll end only i will kno
unless we stay connected
follow me
intertwined with my mind, telepathy
see what i see
life movin fast
billboards displayin moments in the past
bluring out negativity
regret's a strong *******
its been holding on too long to me
a tear streaks down her face and it tears down another side of me
a shadow encases her whole and suddenly i can no longer see
i can her whisper the words
"please just stay away from me"
until she fades
moving on...
a young man approaches me
I shake his hand
finally ready to face the world he decides to turn his back on me
stunned i look on
until i realize he's no longer within my reach
another door closes...
another one opens and i'm blessed with a childs laughter
the silhouette struggles to stand trying to find balance
if only he could comprehend the lessons being taught to him
he falls and regardless he tries again to accomplish what he sees others have acheieved
determination...
I turn to find a wall
texture is rough but presense is familiar
strong and unbreakable
and yet i chip away at its will as the years fade
cold, no longer as strong as before
easily breakable
no longer can you defend us
stand behind me
let's see what i'm made of,
please let me try
I can't stand to see you fall and i know i never say it but
Mama you mean too much to me...
Found but still lost
a mirror in front of me
confused to discover
exactly whats become of me.

Jealously brews insecurity
I guess that’s why the word love never held true to me,
Insanity…

You were the closest I had to it baby
Respecting your wishes, our eyes never meet lately
They wander around like hide and seek maybe
It’s crazy, i remember vaguely,
Sometime ago you told me we couldn't
That our friendship was too important
and that i should let the past fade
Like a second after history was made
But what are we without it?
Strangers with no connection or recollection
Of the algebraic equation we never found an answer to
So what’s say you?
Should we take a snapshot with the flash top
And wipe our minds clean of everything
Or illuminate the situation, try to use communication
To fix what we said we'd cherish and keep.
Not matter what.
So I'll swallow my pride
and ask you again to just sit by my side
Talk to me...