Late Night Blues
Old Style
Blue Color
Dark Shades
The scene starts under a streetlight
Trench coats in the rain
Two familiar faces meet to talk again
They don't look at each other rather
At the scenery
Dark,
all they can see is rain drops hit the ground
And hear the faint cars that zip around
Peace under the radiance that reveals them
They’re alone together
And when they both turn
To take their first glimpses at
Seeing who they haven't seen
Since who knows when...
She falls in his embrace
Reinforcing that he was missed
He looks at her and smiles
a glimmer in her eyes
The light dies
-Sigh-
Sunrise

-James Desire

I wouldn't have said it before if I didn't mean it
It'll take a lot for me to leave you in this life
and I know I act in ways that frustrate you
but thats only because it's so hard to face you
I want to fix things though,
it's killing me how are relationship now
so I'm asking you for a chance for redemption
to say I'm sorry.


A Plead For Change
Only if sorry meant something to you anymore
Maybe we could start anew
I would respect you as my friend,
Flaws and all
So that you could speak to me unconditionally
And trust you with my heart again
I’m not even sure where I stand in your eyes
One word responses being the only response
Reminds me of a time where I acted the same
I was hurt and I tried letting it go,
But it clung on and wouldn’t disperse
We got over it then
And unless you completely hate what I’ve become
We can do it again
Now I really want to try,
I want to be able to put my arm around you and say
“Wassup Bud?”
I’ve got to admit, a main reason why I cared so much before
Was because I loved you too much to lose you
And that is still the same
But the only thing that changed is
I’m not willing to love someone that isn’t interested in me
So if we reconcile things, I’ll leave my heart in the past
I’ll love you like I always had but I just won’t cross the line
I just want to be a friend to you again,
Please let me be the person you know I could be
It’s difficult but I could try to do it
For you… and me
Because from what I believe,
You would think the same.
-James Desire
Thursday, April 21, 2011//1:28

She used to like sing with me
One of the first was "My Boo"
It had a ring to it
She wanted to sing out loud
I couldn't go through it,
The hardest thing to admit
was I was going through it.

She caught me through music
the constant thing in my life
see the rhythm and beats soothed me
it brought peace to my life
she understood that, so we shared it together...
on the phone from 6 to 12
we never really noticed though
conversations were timeless
and I got stingy cuz I knew she had to go
forgetting that there was always tomorrow
Last few words were:
"I'll try to stay on but if I hang up you already know"
...[click] and there she goes

The first person that was ever there
and I never had to ask her
it was procedure
she would call me every night
but sometimes on the house phone
just cause she liked to see my sweat
especially when we had that stupid little bet
and I was invisible
see I thought she couldn't do it
but it's like it didn't faze her
first time I realized how important she really was
she completed the puzzle.

Eventually she had to go her own way,
I respected the distance
but offered my help if ever she should need it
words were never traded
new music became dull
and with the old I heard her voice
just as she would sing it.
Time passed and she came around like a boomerang
picking things up where we left them...
with promises to always be there
and also to be irreplaceable to one another.
Thing is I can't even remember why we started singing that fateful day
but what I do know is that day brought me a friend
that only death could separate me from
so no matter what comes our way,
I promise to be there if the song isn't enough to numb the pain.

What I continue to wonder though is:
am I actually being a friend,
or do I continue to push her away
with a love I can't shake?

I know sometimes I can be selfish
but in the end,
I just want to see you laugh,
see you smile,
see you living life to the fullest.

-James Desire

What if I kissed you?
would it be everything we'd hoped for
or would it shatter our dreams
because it seems this one moment could change everything
so what if we let whatever happens
happen
so that we'll have no regrets
and if we fail
we would've given it our best
so when night falls
I can finally put my mind to rest
instead of wondering,
"What If I Kissed You"

Better yet,
What if I told you I missed you?
would it bring up warm memories of the past
or would you disregard it
believing it to be untrue...
Fed up with how dull words sound so good
but never happen to shine through
I don't blame you
the fear was crippling,
it was like having stage frieght
I wasn't sure how to show you...
but you did
and you tried teaching me
but I was too blind to see
that what I wanted I had right in front of me
[sigh]
the ritual was so casual
that it seemed to lose its meaning
I just didn't want it to be meaningless to you
when it means everything to me...

Young lover
absent of the knowledge and experinece to confront her
and the inadequacy you develop as her eyes begin to falter at your image
and shimmer in another
I'm no one special
I'm just another other
Replaceable, if she would need another
Luckily she didnt...
and I grasped a part of her heart
so then if she ever needed me
I'd be there from the start
she asked to promise if the sands of time tested our friendship
would it diteriorate
or would I help make it stronger?
I promised I'd help to fix it
if it ever were to falter
In return,
I ask she'd keep faith and know I could not leave her
She's my best friend,
my life wouldnt be right without her

Surrender aint no option for ****** who's head noddin'
to ignorance which is bliss
man, arn't ya'll sick of this?
I mean whyd ya'll go to college
Just to throw out all the knowledge
You were broke when you got it
replenished then you forgot it
like **** the ****** who taught it
...
Brain Dead
Corporate schemes
will take whichever means necessary to make their money
which means selling cancer in a stick is fair game
as long as the public is willing to stay tame
One of the leading causes of death.
I know we could stop it just surprising that we haven't yet
so why **** our own for murders that they committed
when the government is knowingly killing the population that it represents
They're just a reflection to what we allow ourselves to be
Ignorant
...
Celibate
to scared to take that step
united as a country
because in this story
there are plenty that are speaking
but nobody will listen
meanwhile generations that are to come
like my brother, the little one
will face the challenge we've all encountered
to either smoke or pass
and I hope when that times comes
he'll be able to answer his peers
and say he's time is done
before it even started...
[Learn Something...]

You claim you want to change
but always find yourself back on that train...
Lost,
I know you need be on your own way
but a part of me wishes you could've stayed
because I miss you
and I can't shake this feeling my heart makes.
but this process takes time,
so I'll be waiting here when you decide to come home.
I just wonder where you've gone
and what you've been through
and I know I shouldn't worry
I know I can't save you
but I pray everynight that you'll find the strength to save yourself
because you're leaving a trail of destruction thats breaking a heart made for two
Meaning you're not only hurting yourself
but the ones around you.