As my mind twists and turns Deep within inside, My Broken soul has no were to run away and hide.

From all these fear’s my tears create from running down my eye’s, If only I was taught how to laugh then maybe these tears would be a memory I’ll never ever want to be lost.

I’m scared of loneliness I’ve got no one there to love my heart I don’t even have my name on any ones Christmas card.

I’ve lost everything every one I’ve ever loved I took for granted everything they did for me back in the past. The future holds nothing for me but pain trapping me in the dark.

My poor souls crying out can you help me because I’m lost, can you fill this emptiness that I’m feeling in my heart.

I just want it to stop. I don’t want it to ro. I don’t want it to take away the little happiness I have left in my heart.

Because if it’s taken away it will be gone it will be lost, It will never come back to my broken beating heart.

I hope you like my honesty I just don’t know where to start. I’m only looking for love that thing that protects and always warms up your Heart.


Jidos Reality 13.10.11

As my mind twists and turns Deep within inside, My Broken soul has no were to run away and hide.


From all these fear’s my tears create from running down my eye’s, If only I was taught how to laugh then maybe these tears would be a memory I’ll never ever want to be lost.


I’m scared of loneliness I’ve got no one there to love my heart I don’t even have my name on any ones Christmas card.


I’ve lost everything every one I’ve ever loved i took for granted everything they did for me back in the past


The future holds nothing for me but pain trapping me in the the dark. My poor souls crying out can you help me because I’m lost, can you fill this emptiness that I’m feeling in my heart.


I just want it to stop. I don’t want it to ro. I don’t want it to take away the little happiness I have left in my heart.


Because if it’s taken away it will be gone it will be lost, It will never come back to my broken beating heart.


I hope you like my honesty I just don’t know where to start. I’m only looking for love that thing that protects and always warms up your Heart.



Jidos Reality 13.10.11

As my Mind Twists and turns deep with-in inside, my Broken soul has no were to run away and hide. 




From all these Fears my Tears create from running down my eyes, if only I was taught how to laugh than maybe these tears would be a memory I’ll never ever want to be lost.




I’m scared of loneliness I’ve got no one there to love my heart, I don’t even have a birthday wish or my name on any ones Christmas card. 




I’ve Lost everything everyone I’ve ever loved; I took for granted everything they did for me back in the past.




The future holds nothing for me but Pain trapping me in the dark, My poor souls crying out can you help me because I’m lost,can you fill the emptiness that I’m feeling in my heart.




I just want it to stop I don’t want it to rot; I don’t want it to take away the little happiness I have left in my heart.


Because if it’s taken away it will be gone it will be lost. 

It will never come back to my Broken Beating Heart.


I hope you like my honesty I just didn’t know where to start. 

I’m only looking for Love that thing that Protects and always warms up your heart. 




Jidos Reality 13.10.11

Sometimes in life you wait for time, than you come to realise hat time has come and passed by, SomeDays I just sit hear thinking thinking been waiting for so long forgot what I’m thinking.

I love day dreaming makes me forget my thoughts are screaming, Portsmouth City’s my Home play up Pompey can you hear the song?

I’m still waiting for a answer to my solution many years have passed by seconds and minutes gone to sleep.

SomeDays I feel weak other days I’m strong, sometimes I wish I never made that wish. And when I feel down and everything’s around me I take a walk to the seaside.

And watch the world look at me I only have one life no one hear to save me. My happiness and peace Portsmouth City gives me. May Portsmouth be blessed let’s all look after our city.

Jidosreality 2.10.17

Darren this is a poem IV wrote for you, to let you know everyone misses and wishers the best for you.



We know it’s not the best of times and you are allowed to cry, but don’t worry mate because everything will be alright. 



We love that smile your family and friends are there to hold you tight, and bring you cuddles all day and every night. 



Make sure this memory turns out to be something nice; we all wish the best for you if ever u needs to chat we always hear for you. 



As time passes by and minutes go by please don’t worry because everything will be alright.



Hope you get well soon just to let you know we always hear for you. 




Jidos Reality for Darren’s cancer charity 6.3.10

How deep do you think when you sleep in a dream? How clear does it seem everything that feels so real.

Life is alive Breathing, Listening and Learning. Our eyes are watching and screaming searching but whispering.

Tears always watching they own shadows crying. Reality see that's a memory that's free. 

I court a smile heed it away some were in my jeans. What can I say words and letters amazingly hypnotise me.

I use this pen as a weapon to battle this label iv been labelled Depression.

Every letter belongs to a word that holds the secret to the combination as to why my deppretion is always whispering, and asking questions.

My mind never sleeps it racers as it thinks. My pen has a heart that's filled with ink to write and breath.

The lines in my poem book come alive when a memory speaks. Words start Buzzing Blushing Craving for something.

This label is on a table that's balancing on a box of Medication. Doctors sitting around this table, trying to find a solution that will save me.

What you doing doctors asking? Why my words were shouting and smiling and not saying nothing.

Letters thinking and crying, How Deep do you think when you sleep in a dream?

JidosReality 9.6.14

There is something that i need to let u know, you not only my best mate you are my lover, the only happiness my heart knows.
  

You are the reason I smile it is amazing when you hold me tight, when you cuddle up to me all day and every night. This smile is a memory that makes me feel wanted all the time.
  

Every time u touch me I feel a rush deep within my soul, I care for you and I love the trust that we have built.
  

You are my one and only you are my everything my world. From the first day until today and every other day i will always love you and make sure you are ok.

  

Want to hold you when you are lonely and be the reason you smile, I will always be there for you when every you need a shoulder to cry on.  
  

Love you and only you always  
  

jidos reality

There is something that i need to let u know, you not only my best mate you are my lover, the only happiness my heart knows.

You are the reason I smile it is amazing when you hold me tight, when you cuddle up to me all day and every night.

This smile is a memory that makes me feel wanted all the time. Every time u touch me I feel a rush deep within my soul, I care for you and I love the trust that we have built.

You are my one and only you are my everything my world. From the first day until today and every other day I will always love you and make sure you are ok.


Want to hold you when you are lonely and be the reason you smile, I will always be there for you whenever you need a shoulder to cry on.

Love you and only you always


Jidos Reality

If only I told you what you mean to me, it’s been three years and you still mean loads to me. 




I love the way you walk and the way you talk, you always seem to find away to make me smile. 




I want to hold you and cuddle you every morning and all night, It’s been a long time sometimes I feel like I want to cry. 




We talk for hours on the phone every day and every time we speak you tell me everything will be alright. 




I should of stopped and listened to the words that come out of your mouth, I thought I knew what to do, but by thinking that I was hurting you.




I became friends with the bottle the more I poured a sip it made me feel hollow, I slowly threw away the love we had build our trust was getting swallowed.




Our arguments always used to echo if only I told you my life was perfect because of you, so complete because you needed me like I needed you.




I’m sorry for ever hurting you.




Jidos Reality 20.10.12

I remember when you called me and whispered in my ear, sweet words that were heart breaking my tears were filled with fear.



Second’s turned into minutes and with a blink of an eye you had forgot about all those years. Cuddles and Love making look at what pain they have brought dear oh! Dear.



The sun brings light to half of the earth, whilst the other half is dark. What happened to the laughter how can that memory be lost?



I see the problem now there will never be no trust, there will be no more wishes coming out from the whishing ***.



Thought my life was beginning now it feels like it’s stopped, the road is not straight it’s all bendy and rough.



The more I think about it! It gets harder its tough Dropped to the bottom were everything seems to stop.



If only Candy Tasted Sweet would the penny have Dropped?



Jidos Reality 15.6.12

Saw you’re soul and I ripped it out, Took your wish and you’re smile your personality was trapped in a world that would always make it cry.

Your mind was mine I confused it every time, I locked it in a maze were rage would visit all the time.

Make you run into a corner to some were you could never hide, what a life with no smiles only tears that never cry.

Only then we wonder why? Why should we ever try? Worry and stress every time I say goodbye.

Oh! Why do “I Hate You” I wonder why? You selfish so I came back to abduct your smile, and replace it with loads of many evil cry’s.

There’s no love Bites tonight only padded cells that come alive, I hope you ready to fight your weakness is my anger that feeds me every time.

I sit back and smile and hold you with my evil eyes take every emotion that has ever crossed your life.

Destroy every feeling that you have ever felt in-side, I hate you with a passion you the last word in this chapter of my life I wonder why?

Jidos Reality 11.8.12

I hate what you have done to my life; I hope it makes you happy destroying everything in my smile.


I hate you smile I hate the way you cry, I hate every emotion in your smile, I hate all the time that you talked when your shadow never seen what I could see.


I hate every time you tried to talk to me, I hate the way you think when you thinking about writing to me.


How could I ever see? Why do you make me hate? Why do you break my every heart beat it tries to make?


How can you take away the laughter to my world and throw it away?  Why do you have a heart that’s filled with so much hate?


How can you hate me for all the things that are wrong that come your way? I hate the way your eyes try to lie as they watch me cry.


I'm holding onto this smile that I keep hidden some were in-side, I live for the day when hate was out of my life.


Jidos Reality 25.11.12

I love it when I see a smile all over your face; it’s such a lovely memory what a beautiful place.



You not only like my Mum but one of my best mates, you always there for me to make me happy no matter what it takes.



You keep my heart strong as I forget all my fears every day, your heart is warm and lovely like an Angel you can never be replaced.



You dry my tears when I cry and replace them with a smile all over my face, when the days are dark and my mind was cold as snow.



You wrapped your warm “Angel Wings” around me and made sure I was warm, you calm the storm in my head and made “My Heart Beat” Beat again.



When my world is upside down you take me to a place where happiness comes from.



Jidos Reality 8.11.12

I’m a plumb in a Fruit Basket that’s out of control, Two Apples ones green because the Banana forgot that he smelt see he was so old.

The Grape would always sit on its own in the corner in the cold, The Orange could never peel it’s self so the story goes.

The Kiwis always got a twin he aint really in a rush to want to go, Mangos getting weaker as they feel the muscles grow.

Crunch getting over taken by the hour glass that never grows, Sand dunes created by the sweet taste of the Tangerines we all loved to know.

Fruit salad created by the imagination our taste buds have grown to know Pears trying to mingle in this fruit basket that’s getting out of control.

See the birds all sing to the sweet taste of the Nectarines that I’m missing just thought you should know.

This fruit basket is getting heavy i can’t carry it anymore; I’m a Plumb in a fruit basket that’s gone out of control.

JidosReality 7.5.11

I meet a spider one day who could never stop it always shacked, the days became long 10 seconds later there was no one there to hate.


One day I had to walk into a place that was Filled with Misery, there was hatred around sadness was it’s destiny.


The people all around were Lost souls that needed resting, it had taken days for me to understand how far away my addiction had taken me.


A voice from inside was screaming at me to stop, it echoed in my ears and was as silent as a water drop.


My addiction held me close as I was the Heart Beat of it’s every need, our secret kept it alive like a smile wanting to cry.


I'm now trapped in the same world were my thoughts come to hide The Reality my eyes see make them want to shout and never breath.


All the words in my head are as confusing as the spiders web “I meet a Spider” one day who never cared and only waited for death.


Jidos Reality 8.11.12

I'm sorry you gone and taken away from my life, just to let you know you will always be my best mate for life.



I can feel you smiling now because the Angels are holding you tight, my friend I Miss You Loads everyday and all night.



You will always be in my thoughts and make my smile come alive; you always find away to show me my life is al-right.



I wish I could hold you and see that smile in your eyes, I miss you that’s right that’s the truth I can’t lie the memory you have given me is an emotion that’s nice.



So till I meet you again my good friend Good bye good night and please sleep tight just know that your memory is locked away deep inside.



Were all my happiness lives that makes me smile all the time.



Jidos Reality 8.11.11

I feel inspired by your smile, the way we kiss and cuddle up late at night.


The way you hold me close when I cry. And wrap me up with your angel wings all the time.


The walks we take at night! Look what a beautiful moonlight

with you there’s no stress or silly mind games! It’s always a different day surprise me she says?  


Jidos Reality 26.2.11

I Stand Hear like a Picture Painted with an emotion of sadness happiness taken over by the migration of love.



Which costs nothing but tears lost in an ocean of Madness were only pills and doctors live.



One piece lost in a shredded bed on a plate full of salad, your taste has made my tong become abusive.



Batter cod broken life ware’s the mirror who would of knew this little story would become a world lost in a simple chapter.



Mixed with pages of pure knowledge story telling game playing, many answers to simple and lazy days overtaken by sunny laughter.



And scary dreams which seem to Scream out and bite you like a piece of stake I was about to put in my mouth.



Washed down with an Orange taste of fresh Orange juice, the choices I make reflect some sort of attitude you would think that would be the case in-deed.



Words can only create the pens world can you see? It maybe blue ink or black ink a Pad with a Pen with a brush and some colours paint a picture then an emotion  becomes alive in my head.


Jidos Reality 19.5.12

It’s sad how you make me smile It’s amazing how you make me cry. Its lush all this rush is taking my memories to a place called trust.  


Happy days and confusion “This is Jido’s Reality" I thought you knew this. Can we please take some time to read this?    


I’m a poet I never thought I ever knew this it’s amazing So special and beautiful  what you can do with a pen and a pad Such a talent, how can he do this?    


It was never ever going to be a promise but a wish.   I really thank you, I told you so a cuddle never misses a promise, hope you like this.


Jido’s reality 30.7.11

It’s time for you all to understand! I hate the past but am happy because it came and turned me into a man. 




Made me who I am today and yes I had to learn the hard way, that’s why I Write what I feel hard to say. 




The Hour Glass has now turned as the Sand falls there are lessons learned that we should be told. 




Every Past has a Beginning and every beginning has an end, every day brings new meaning to every decision I have made.




I take My Medication everyday so I don’t go insane, I’ve learned how to put a smile on my face every time I don’t feel okay. 




Sometimes I sit in the Corner and cry my eyes out all day, a smile is all I need Happiness is what I crave. 




It’s the only thing in this life that I wish for everyday, I’ve stopped and I’ve thought about it all I can do now is get on my knees and pray. 




It’s time now I’m ready to show the world what I got to say, this is “Jidos Reality” hope you like what I got to say.




Jidos Reality 25.10.11

I’ve been thinking about us I’ve been thinking about this, I’ve been thinking about you and everything we both miss.

The love in your heart makes all my emotions blush your kiss and your touch were locked away deep in my heart.

The magic we feel in your voice when you speak, the look in your eyes it’s amazing so deep so peaceful and calm they tell a story that’s so sweet.

Just like a red rose you are truly unique, the way you bite your lip when i hold you and pull you close to me.

It’s a memory that makes my heart beat buzz like a bee, Can you see what I see the havens opening up letting all the angels go free.

Here’s a kiss just for you and yes I do love you two. You the world to my breath the goose bumps on my neck.

Your style is amazing what a wonderful craving, The sparkle in you eye is like a puzzle that fits.

You the rush to my touch the lock to our trust, the imagination to this dream that we set free.

So i sat down a wrote something for you all from me, so this love letter I wrote is because I’ve been Thinking about You”

Jidos Reality 9.8.12

It's madness I tell ya the world I live in, my mind never sleeps it's racing constantly! 

If I could take out all the pain from inside me, and hang it on a washing line for the whole world to see! 

I'm afraid many people would not be able to handle what they see. Do you read my poetry? And ask your self why it's so deep?  

Do you see the tears falling from the words as they speak? 

I try to understand why sadness has attached it's self to me! Why love finds it hard to become best friends with me! 

I gauss it is wat it is it's how it's supposed to be. My soul was just chosen to be left empty. 

If you don't get it? Let me try to explain it simply! Read this poem again the words ain't going anywhere they may be lost but are always listening.

JidosReality 6.2.17

Twin type of lines they see a Pen and start writing, creating many Words that letters come out rushing.

Holding onto your Imagination this pen is alive Heart Beat Blushing, Depression touched it, could you ever trust it?

As My Eyes watched your whole world fade away, like a Mirage in a desert, sand games the sun would play.

Blue skies with no Stars small trees searching for shade, I’m as nerves as a Tear Drop that’s about to be caught by a smile.

My stomach is filled with Butterfly’s that have no were to hide, I’m shacking like a cloud that’s filled with Thunder, that’s about to bite.

I’m sweating like The Desert in the summer time, that has seen a mirage late at night.

I tell myself to be yourself because everyone is already taken, if words had no meaning and, Letters stopped Speaking.

Reality would fade away into a Lost Dream searching for some meaning.

Jidos Reality 19.4.13

You will always be judged!

You will always be judged by the blind leading the drunks. By the sad sad days stumbling around the house.

Shouting and screaming, tearing all those thoughts out. Saying things you never ever thought you dreamed about.

Shouting out words that are filled with anger when you only whisper to you self.

No one hears they all tired of the bottle causing problems. They don't see that you try to drink all your memories away. 

The alcohol understands all the pain and the rage, they never drink! But qweek to judge when your heart stops showing love.

All the shouting and rumbling questions searching for answers that lead to something.

What once was a habit is now an addition, you've become an addict. You will always be judged by the blind leading the drunks.

JidosReality 24.1.14

I’ve been thinking about you and the things that you do, I really like you loads and I want to be with you.

Want to hold you when you lonely and be the reason you smile I want to be the one there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on.

I’ve never felt so happy since you’ve been in my life, you amazing and Beautiful I just need to tell you.

I want you to trust me and know I’m always there for you, I want to be your lover and your best mate for life, and I want to hold you close to me all night.

My love just want to let you know you make me tingle in-side, The cuddles we have are so lovely they nice, I want to always catch that tear and tell you everything will be alright.

I know things aren’t simple that’s not how they supposed to be, but if we try we can share this moment just you and me.

Jido Reality 5.3.10

Layla Rose this poem is for you because Daddy needs to let you know how much I Love You you the Diamond in my life, the sparkle that keeps me alive.


You take me to a place somewhere in the clouds were the Angels play. My smile is amazed by the laughter that you create.



My soul feels free when I Hold You in my arms close to me, your words are So Sweet when u speak they cuddle me.



You dry the tears from my eyes before I cry, your eyes are so deep they take me to a place were My Heart never bleeds.



They make it come alive I feel a rush running through me, You Love protects me like the thorns on a Rose it sets me free.



When all my problems come around and take me to a place that’s filled with misery, you Love catchers me before I fall and Cuddles me.



Layla you the only Rose in my life that makes me Blush you teach me how to Love and understand how to trust.



You the Angel my eyes see when I breath, you the Paradise in my Heaven the star that shines bright when I need some light to show me.


No wonder why My Happiness sings your Love has given it Wings


Jidos Reality 6.7.13

From the moment I saw you and looked into your eyes, when I held you close to me and saw your lovely smile.




I will always be your dad and your best mate, you will always be the reason I’m happy every day.




When you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, when you find things are hard you the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. 




And I thank you for this I will always make sure you get your every wish, Layla Rose you my world you my everything. 




You the dream I was wishing for my one and only everything, from today and tomorrow and for the rest of my life. 




Me and mummy will always be by your side, So with this I just want to say thank you for the love you have brought into our life’s.




We both wake up every morning with a smile on our face.




Jidos Reality 9.7.12

I would rather trust a women's instinct than a mans reason, I'm sick and tired of fake people for many different reasons.


A women's instinct is the truth no reason to mis lead me. All these fake other people around are a new bread of ******* leaches.


They make me sick they really do cockroach little leaches, I had to write this poem to get all this anger out my system, I see them coming from were they don't I won't let them in my head no I won't.


They mind games are seriously silly hurry up tick tock the clock is ticking, you ******* leaches creatures always scheming and tricking. 


Your end game is your game my anger is your pain I refuse to play dumb that situation has Ended, you blocked and un followed yes mate you un freinded, my Pen is so angry let the words speak to mend it.


How can I trust a mans reason? When a mans reason is unpleasing two faced qweek'ly judging realising that trust was nothing.


At least a womens instinct is realistic no mind games no *******, she's trusting not wanting not thinking she needs to be winning. That game she ain't playing her instincs are all she's saying.


She ain't got nothing to gain but a simple solution to my pain, let me be honest and explain I'm sick of fake people who always sound the same. So let me remind you my poetry's so exciting. 


JidosReality 6.6.15

Let’s live and let live I put my trust in Portsmouth from the day that I got hear, to rebuild my life for my beautifully children.

Portsmouth my favourite the magical places it has taken me, walks down Southsea on the beach listening to the waves whispering I me.


Planning my future teaching English to adults and been a mentor for immigrants.

Helping them settle showing them this beautiful city called Portsmouth.

This city of culture, city of peace fills my spiritual energy with faith and belief.

Let’s integrate we can do it together we need more love to super side hatred.

We need more strength to resist our weakness,
we need more inspiration to light up our inner-minds. We need more learning to erase our ignorance.

We need more wisdom to live longer and happier, we need more truths to suppress deceptions. Let’s integrate for our children’s future awaits.
JidosReality 8.10.17

I can’t understand a word that comes out of your mouth.
I won’t even take the time to figure you out.

All there’s story’s you make up what’s that chapter about? Why you go to lie every time you open your mouth.

The truth always comes out that’s what a friend is all about.
Not the lie’s or the things that you always talking about.

Remember the story about the boy who cried Wolf? Well he aint crying no more he’s been taken away by the wolf.

All you seem to do is dig  yourself a bigger and darker hole.
Whether you like it or not I think you should be told.

Playing with people’s emotions like you on a Rolla Costa. Every time that you seem to speak and the lies you trying to teach you need to go to confession and tell the priest what you did.

That every time you open your mouth. You always lie through your teeth, one day you will get up and start to tell the Truth”

By the time that day comes I would have finished writing this poem for you.

Jidos Reality 20.9.11

Life what an amazing word to give such a precious feeling we feel each day,

To breath to touch to smile I’ve laughed and cried in my dreams in my sleep all day every week.

  
Today’s another day just like yesterday and i pray and thank you for tomorrow, we truly are blessed without the little ant there would be no me.

  
Scared by sadness I see around me, my heart turns to stone, crumbling at every tear I see.

  
With one loved another is gone, another is born far away in a land of pure ecstasy,

Happiness cannot be a word I would use when I held your little body in my arms.

  
Happiness would be the feeling rushing through my every thought’s, but life is the word I would use so I say I pray for today and thank you for tomorrow.

  
Jidos Reality 7.1.10

It was as though my world was in a Dream with no road, it felt like I was brought here to do as I was told.
  


Even my alarm would wake me up in the morning to tell me I had to go, it’s half four in the morning and I'm surrounded by Silence sleeping in the cold.


My mind wants to be warm in my bed and not out here in this snow Cash Machines turn they faces as ******* Bins take they places.
  


My eyes beg me to sleep as my body becomes weak I'm cleaning this shop with a bucket of water and some bleach.
  


I've got to Hoover and mop and clean up these ***** spots, the toilet is blocked its stuffed and shouting out loud.
  


Everything that I touch must be left looking as bright as a star must smell so refreshing attracting nothing but beauty.
  


Life as a cleaner wish my wages felt bigger, I'm caught in a moment trapped like a hamster there’s no slowing.    
  


I'm cadged like The Dirt that you walk on in the street, there’s no beginning to any good this Life as a Cleaner only gets harder.


Jidos Reality 5.12.12

I'm a prisoner in my own mind my sanity got sick so insanity stepped up to take it's place qweek.


The hour of the last is the wisdom of the future the more they told me the less I listened.


Locked Away in a place in a room that screams, so many secrets hidden hear it's hard to day dream. 


Only my thoughts to keep me company and that's something that's troubling. 


They watching me accessing me trying to understand who I am, why am I anxious and sad and thinking to deep? 


They have all these questions what a great master plan this is.


My eyes are wondering searching and stumbling there's nothing in this room but thoughts that are troubling.


Hear take a drink of this it will calm and relax you! It will stop your thoughts from haunting and stalking you.


I try to be mind full of my surroundings but this room is pale White suicides all around it "Locked Away with the only key that's able to set me free.


All I have to do is tell them that I agree with what they think, see they don't understand I ain't no puppet they ain't my masters, this ain't a class room joke were we all laughing.


I'm locked away and it makes me sick I was only ever been me now I'm labeled a lunatic. 


JidosReality 14.5.15

The marks humans leave are too often scars. One thing you can't hide is when you're crippled inside.

The worst type of crying wasn't the kind everyone could see. No, the worst kind happened when your soul wept and no matter what you did.

there was no way to comfort it. See I think it's good for a person to spend time alone. 

It gives them an opportunity to discover who they are and to figure out why they are always alone.

JidosReality 2.4.16

Look at that Reflection what can it say? Such a different world what a different day.

Don’t be sad it’s not your problem and it’s not your solution that caused this problem to rot.

I tell you its not it’s a Memory we know because we felt it a lot, it feels like it lost it’s self ******* In a knot.

Attracted to the Mirror like cheese to a piece of bread Toasted or not.


I stand and I stare My Eyes wonder what’s there! This reflection they see make no noise as it screams.

It’s the every thought in My Head the voice that’s always there The Sadness that shatters all my laughter like it cares.

Many memory’s with different voices Running Fast somewhere in my head, I close my eyes and try to think, but the more I think it hurts from deep within.

I try to search for the answers to the questions that are haunting me, I take a look at this reflection but there’s nothing there but Me Watching Me.


JidosReality 2.2.13

Lost a word with so many questions an emotion lost somewhere in the answers.


As my mind twists and turns deep within inside my broken soul has no were to run away and hide. From all this anger my sadness creates from the tears running down my eyes.


Please can you help me breath? I'm looking for my mom my dad any one from my family.


 They all lost it's hurting me inside the memory of them is all that I got.


Have you ever lost everything that meant loads to you? Have you ever lost your self trying to find the truth?


I'm trying to breath and it's hard my shadows lost somewhere in the dark. My thoughts are whispering shouting out loud.


The last thing I said to them was I love you now I pray to see them and tell them I missed them.


I feel anxious confused and powerless no smiles but tears filled with sadness, laughing and blaming me but you don't understand this.


You would expect a caterpillar to turn into a butterfly but how strange does the world become the moment you cry?

And not every smile leaves a twinkle in your eye and not every butterfly deserves to fly.

JidosReality 4.7.15

We touch I feel a rush so much it makes me blush you make me want to hold you close to my heart and catch all your tear drops.
  
Make them smile and feel amazing keep holding onto this trust, your kiss is a day dream as our lips start to touch.
  
This rush is tingling our *** is always banging; I tell you I love you and you tell me you love me two.
  
Its amazing when we holding and it feels so nice been in you, I love it when you scream and take me to a place deep within.
  
My tough has me thinking twisting as it thinks! I think we should agree your ***** tastes so sweet.
  
What style should we do? ******* makes you weak I love it when you grab me and wrap your legs around me.
  
We sweating with loads of sexing moaning as you feel it, the trick was another world that had your heart beat blushing.

Jidos Reality 5.8.12

Through all the ashes and the hard times, the first time she looked at me her eyes made me smile,

when I think of it, you are the life of my heart.
You’re the reason I smile when I find everything so hard.

With every breath I take and the magic we make. I’m yours and you’re mine, you, my best mate.

The feeling I feel when I’m with you and when you’re not around I always miss you.

I remember the day I said  i do put the ring on my finger Then I kissed you.
Marriage, this thing, this special thing that we are in, two lovers for life, as strong as this ring.

And now I smile I  have a wife in my life. romantic trips to the isle-of Wright candle night dinners down Gun Warf, watching the ships pass by.

Laughing trying to count the stars in the sky, many city’s Iv lived in who would of thought Portsmouth City, is the place I would call home don’t need nothing else but me and my wife.

Planning our future together travel the world to many places, from France to Dubai to Australia to many other city’s calling us.

For she is my happiness and he is mine two.

JidosReality 3.10.17

I'm oxygen and she's dying to breathe. I'm a little pencil in the hand of a writing God, who is sending a love letter to the world so please listen no need to speak".. 

Do not fall in love with people like me. 

I will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place.

so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. 

I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. 

And when I leave you will finally understand, why storms are named after people. 

JidosReality 7.6.16

Why does he want it? My life is crazy please show me why his life is so amazing, write on this  poems page tell me why I'm thinking?


Take a word from my page JidosReality is alive and breathing, I grew up stumbling and learning. hush be quiet listen this poem is speaking.


It's day dreaming looking for something. It's very hungry munching yet tasting nothing. You been so polite as you read! thank you I love that smile I see on your face as you read.


My anger is my heart beat.They watched me crumble falling slowly weak, and whilst they stood there laughing pointing many fingers at me, I'll be making my bed under the corner shop sleeping on the street.


My pen in my right hand my poem book waiting to speak my thoughts fighting so much greed. I want to strangle every word they said to me I ripped out all this sadness they left on me.


I smiled in they face as they spat on me my names Majid I'm lost in JidosReality. It's a world you could never understand it's always been mis-understood my Poetry snapped begged me to tear out this page from my poem book.


The words showed me and promised me they would never stop speaking as long as my pen is still alive and breathing.


JidosReality 20.7.15

Many paths have taken me on many roads! Wouldn't you like to know? 

But before I write this poem do you know your up from your bottom?

Do you have a place you can go wen confusion is all around your world? 

Now let me take you on this road of many paths that as far as I know only two people have been bold enough to go.

The storm may be asleep on the top of the ocean! Cuddled up tight warm and cosy at the bottom. 

Sometimes the bottom of the ocean is the only place to be, you see the storm at the top is filled with emotions lost in the winds. 

See that path coming up in the words that I write? That path has no end to its darkness lost in the night. 

So dark on that path my hands struggle to write, you can play hide and seek on this path but there's no were to hide.

Many paths so many questions? Many roots different destinies! They all seem to lead to that one place called love.

But wen you get there Love has left long ago sleeping on one of the other many paths.

JidosReality 4.2.17

y words are crying because my soul is dying. Please help my words why ate they crying? 

Teach them about a story called smiling, make my words speak understand why they crying.

My pen is lost literally fighting, the letters are not thinking lost and fighting. 

My poetry poem book is suffocating an crying, my hands won't write arthritis writing. 

The lines in my poem book are crippling and breaking, my pens ink won't let my imagination amaze it.

Letters scrambled up whilst words stand there and starve, memories feeling lost slowly fading away to somewhere in the dark.

My pens shattered it hasn't spoken it try's to get up but it drops. Every word makes no sense! The letters were lost somewhere in my head.

The poem would not speak whisper or dream, lost in the mist running away from the winds. Searching and screaming but the pen has no ink.

The poem book felt sick every word lost it's dream. I looked and I wonder'd Listened cause I was broken.

Shackled in a padded cell the smell was bad! But the silence will make you go mad.

I couldn't write I had a block every letter seemed to have stopped. My poem book was starving my poetry was hungry.

My thoughts were patiently waiting for my pen to start creating words that would sound amazing. 

Poetry so deep the meaning was hidden somewhere underneath the ink. 

JidosReality 8.6.14

I’m defining every Word that has ever been Spoken I’m rearranging every line that I wrote that feels Broken. 




I’ll be causing a stir bringing Thunder Storms to this ocean, show you this Mirror you looking at this Reflection ain’t broken.




It’s been put together like a Puzzle Piece it always fits, It’s stronger now more than ever I’ve never felt even better. 




The Meaning to the words that I Write always speak, they will either make you Smile or Cry or make you Think. 



There was a Time in my Life when I was broken and I was weak, I was Locked in a Padded Cell were only silence used to speak. 




It used to tell me and make me wonder about the things that I did, the Madness the Sadness all the Happiness that I missed. 




And now I’m happy because the madness has made me Write Poetry! that’s so deep, It comes from the Heart I can only tell the truth it’s just how it is.




Jidos Reality 20.10.11

A “Merry Christmas” to you all


Dreams with smiles and wishes coming true Christmas trees with presents under the tree just for you.

Loads of cards just to let you know how many people love you Roast Turkey, Roast Vegetables there’s so much love in this room.

I can feel Mrs Clause and Rudolf smiling because christmas makes us feel good.Little children in the room with family and friends laughing out loud.

The smell of the food in the kitchen is so nice, there’s a knock at the door please let the snowman in-side.

Eggnog and Sherry for grandma and grandpa, little kids all around the telly watching Madagascar. The rooms filled with laughter kids opening every present they get faster, wrapping paper all around with Christmas songs to sing along.

Christmas Socks all been raided chocolate sweets all over people’s faces Marry Christmas to you all and may the day grant all your wishers.

And even though your belly feels full it’s okay to offer to clean up all the dishes.




Jidos Reality 5.12.12

My poetry's so deep they got to dig a hole to find it I'm hiding inside it, it's a confused maze of words crying and smiling I'm lost in those words so they can't find me.

Words addicted to my pen my poetry has a friend ink that always speaks, this maze of letters is a
Puzzle they can't complete.

Every corner they turn is a lessen they would learn, searching for a meaning yet my poetry's always always teaching the more they dig this hole the harder it would be to find me.

Enter the maze please find the letters to the words please, do you  understand what my Poetry does to the pens ink when it thinks? Mind games they like to play now they digging a hole calling my name. 

It's getting bigger and darker my poem book never starters, JidosReality can't they see it's my reality the world I live in. A world mixed with a little madness laughter consumed by sadness happiness fighting with anger.

Thoughts that are always numb from running and falling hard every time they try to jump. Don't see my kindness as a weakness or my Poetry been so simple as washing a plate of dish's.

I guaranty you with a pen you'll find it hard to find the words to explain who you are, were you been and how deep you understand the hole that you in.


JidosReality 20.6.15

Be careful what your words speak be weary what your eyes see be afraid of your thoughts when they let you dream.


Remember that soft touch that made you blush and lust, learn from that soft touch that ended up hurting your confused heart.


It becomes hard to stop trying to understand were to start, the bottom of the food chain that pit is rough. It shattered me to shreds broke me but made me tough.


You ask your self why? You feel like a raggy old cloth your questions are pointless you always stumble and drop.  


Tumbling and falling ending up on the same spot, you a raggy old doll back to front forgetting what it's all about. This poems a "Mixed Salad many lost meanings screaming out.


Is it truly amazing the poetry I'm creating? Does JidosReality attack every thought you try hiding? 


I watch you standing there looking at your clock whilst it's ticking, you watch me over there paranoid at what I'm thinking.


Tick tock don't forget that time don't stop I think it confuses you trying to understand what my poetry is about. 


order a mixed salad the menu ain't as dull as you are.


JidosReality 14.5.15

They were staring at me with Evil looking eyes; with not funny faces this dream had come alive.


It’s making me scared to sleep at night; I hear knocking at the door and can feel this dream is filled with horrible thing’s to show my eyes.


I'm scared but as much as I bite my pillow it can’t do anything to make me smile, The evil is hear it’s come to be my friend tonight.


Won’t you help me I Scream and Shout and Cry! This dream is a lonely feeling I have to get control and a hold of it tonight.


It makes me so scared it got a hunger that bites this horrible dream is something that will always be the reason I don’t smile at night.


It makes me numb been in the dark not able to move feels like I'm stuck Paralysed from the bottom to the top, my eyes are open and screaming wake up!


I'm trapped in a dream that has no end to its start; I'm lost in a world that’s brought fear to my heart.


My heart beats faster raging as it runs; this dream is a thing taking me were horrors scream out because they lost.


Jidos Reality 30.11.12

I don’t know why I stopped to express myself and Write it feels like I've been in an accident, forgetting how to use a fork and knife.


Got to ask the waiter for a spoon looks like ill be having soup tonight, I hit a brick wall the night I felt my Poem Book shut its self up tight.


I got chills in my bones My Pen had forgotten how to write, these withdrawals of my thoughts seem to want to run away and hide.


They've given up this fight my sanity come alive with this pen when I write; every word is Crushed into pieces each one searching for a fight.


It felt like been in an old house Scared and Haunted as I write My Pen picked me up and took all this pain out of my life.



It taught me how to think and stop my thoughts from twisting me deep inside, my eyes would always light up and wonder at about what I write.


The Ink is my best friend on every line that has never tested me, every word has a meaning and My Pen shows me what I'm feeling.


Jidos Reality 5.12.12

I’m back I take a word and make it smile if I’m angry I take it and make it cry, there’s not much you can do with your stress to hate me. 




My World is in a Bubble far away were you could never get me, every morning I wake up and Thank my Thoughts for this blessing. 




My hearts calm as a Snowman with each heart beat catching me when I’m falling, I’m always Smiling Laughing loud because I’m breathing.




It’s Amazing what my eyes see in the Mirror when I’m looking, a world that’s not numb only days that are filled with fun.




Where Peace overtakes all my emotions that try to run, were Birds are always singing under the Beauty of the sun. 




The Dark Night come alive as all the Starts become one .Fairies and Angels catching all my dreams that try to bring harm. 




I closed a door and never looked back I left the Past to rot, The future holds the dream to the wish I’ve been waiting for.




Jidos Reality 16.10.12

Never let it go as long as you know you unique, there’s only one of you that the world can see.




Your Soul is Peaceful like a cold summers breeze, your words are like a Sun Set to my eyes so sweet. 




Your Smile is locked away deep in my Heart as it beats, when someone feels lost you always there to help them breathe.




You Trust comes at no cost your Characters build on honesty, you get rid of all the tears from my eyes as they think.




You open You’re Heart and set you Laughter free, every star that shines at night is a memory you have given to me.




You the missing piece to my puzzle you make my world feel complete, time always seems to pause like a rivers stream. 




Like the Blue Sky above you the cloud that shades me Never let it go I see Paradise by your feet.




The Sweet smell of Roses makes my body rush as I breathe; you always got a Twinkle in your eye as your imagination take hold of me. 




You make every word on this page come out and speak, never let it go you’ll always be my everything.



Jidos Reality 21.10.12