Give me a smile and I’ll be happy for the day, tell me you Love me and I know not everything will be okay.
  


My smile begins to Cry the only life it knows are tears from my eyes, wont you please tell me I'm thinking why?
  


Lost in a wolfs clothing feeling like a sheep that can’t cry, you've gone and made me think you make me angry you make me sick.
  


If I never never we could dream forever holding onto things that we could love forever.


  
No more Strawberry’s or Cheese cakes or sweet things our love craves rain drops consumed by scattered emotions that are all lost.
  


Cold misty nights consuming the only light that I got.The fast wind whispering its not here to catch me when I drop.
  


The earth's ready to take me back as soon as my heart decides to stop, ill be the last one praying from Ashes to Ashes and Dust to Dust.



Jidos Reality 20.1.13

From Life we need more to the meaning as to why Our Hearts sometimes beat rhythms that never Stop Screaming.
  


My lonely Mind forces skies to cry storms of ice, confused swarms of moths erasing out fabric lives.
  


Like a Mirror a Imagination  turns into a true tragedy it’s a sad situation that was never meant to be.
  


My Personality has many actors to play different roles this world wants to see. My Smile is the make-up that I use to hide just how I feel.
  


My Eyes are always searching for a picture only painted for me. My Touch is so cold all it craves is some warm heat.
  


My Taste is always bitter from the lies my thoughts always speak. My “
Soul smells of roses that were never send to me.
  


My Words make no noises they as silent as the church bells that call us to pray from deep with-in.
  


My Personality is split and left all alone like an old willow tree. From Life we need more to the meaning as to why our hearts sometimes beat rhythms that never stop screaming.


Jidos Reality 28.1.13

Happiness is the most amazing memory, It’s the life to our hearts the imagination to our dreams.
  


The smile to our Tears everything our memory thinks, and when death comes we may leave the rest to our Guardian Angel.  
  


Who’s destiny is to help us back to the other world we came from to rest in our Cradle a place where we could be our selves.
  


And not worry if our personality’s will be taken, a place where Soul Searching becomes a thought not so easily mistaken.
  


Imagination dreaming fast catching this memory our destiny has taken, the past now has a meaning it now makes scene’s to what I'm feeling.
  


The future was always waiting for This Memory to come and take it, Happiness may be amazing but when it’s gone Anger will satisfy your Reflections craving.
  

Jidos Reality 6.2.13

It was as though my world was in a Dream with no road, it felt like I was brought here to do as I was told.
  


Even my alarm would wake me up in the morning to tell me I had to go, it’s half four in the morning and I'm surrounded by Silence sleeping in the cold.


My mind wants to be warm in my bed and not out here in this snow Cash Machines turn they faces as ******* Bins take they places.
  


My eyes beg me to sleep as my body becomes weak I'm cleaning this shop with a bucket of water and some bleach.
  


I've got to Hoover and mop and clean up these ***** spots, the toilet is blocked its stuffed and shouting out loud.
  


Everything that I touch must be left looking as bright as a star must smell so refreshing attracting nothing but beauty.
  


Life as a cleaner wish my wages felt bigger, I'm caught in a moment trapped like a hamster there’s no slowing.    
  


I'm cadged like The Dirt that you walk on in the street, there’s no beginning to any good this Life as a Cleaner only gets harder.


Jidos Reality 5.12.12

I don’t know why I stopped to express myself and Write it feels like I've been in an accident, forgetting how to use a fork and knife.


Got to ask the waiter for a spoon looks like ill be having soup tonight, I hit a brick wall the night I felt my Poem Book shut its self up tight.


I got chills in my bones My Pen had forgotten how to write, these withdrawals of my thoughts seem to want to run away and hide.


They've given up this fight my sanity come alive with this pen when I write; every word is Crushed into pieces each one searching for a fight.


It felt like been in an old house Scared and Haunted as I write My Pen picked me up and took all this pain out of my life.



It taught me how to think and stop my thoughts from twisting me deep inside, my eyes would always light up and wonder at about what I write.


The Ink is my best friend on every line that has never tested me, every word has a meaning and My Pen shows me what I'm feeling.


Jidos Reality 5.12.12

They were staring at me with Evil looking eyes; with not funny faces this dream had come alive.


It’s making me scared to sleep at night; I hear knocking at the door and can feel this dream is filled with horrible thing’s to show my eyes.


I'm scared but as much as I bite my pillow it can’t do anything to make me smile, The evil is hear it’s come to be my friend tonight.


Won’t you help me I Scream and Shout and Cry! This dream is a lonely feeling I have to get control and a hold of it tonight.


It makes me so scared it got a hunger that bites this horrible dream is something that will always be the reason I don’t smile at night.


It makes me numb been in the dark not able to move feels like I'm stuck Paralysed from the bottom to the top, my eyes are open and screaming wake up!


I'm trapped in a dream that has no end to its start; I'm lost in a world that’s brought fear to my heart.


My heart beats faster raging as it runs; this dream is a thing taking me were horrors scream out because they lost.


Jidos Reality 30.11.12

The Best Dreams I have are when I dream about you, because not only do you know that I miss you, I can see it in your eyes your smile misses me to.



The laughter all around in this dream is such a Beautiful feeling what a lovely memory you bring.



Every time I sit down and smile when I think of you, and missing you is hard so My Tears cry for you.



The sweet sound of your voice as I see Angels all around you, You closer to me now more than I would have ever knew.



My world turned up-side down the day I heard I Lost you you now sleeping in a dream that’s Peacefully following you.



Your soul is like a light when it gets dark thinking about you, I miss you so much and its hard not thinking about you.



Your eye’s were amazing always filled with love around you, Your smile is a memory kept in my heart just for you.



You touch is my only wish so every day I send a Dream to Cuddle you. Ray Ray I love you now and forever and my heart knows you love and miss me two.



Jidos Reality 2.12.12     “Dedicated to my little sister who passed away Rahilla”