I hate what you have done to my life; I hope it makes you happy destroying everything in my smile.


I hate you smile I hate the way you cry, I hate every emotion in your smile, I hate all the time that you talked when your shadow never seen what I could see.


I hate every time you tried to talk to me, I hate the way you think when you thinking about writing to me.


How could I ever see? Why do you make me hate? Why do you break my every heart beat it tries to make?


How can you take away the laughter to my world and throw it away?  Why do you have a heart that’s filled with so much hate?


How can you hate me for all the things that are wrong that come your way? I hate the way your eyes try to lie as they watch me cry.


I'm holding onto this smile that I keep hidden some were in-side, I live for the day when hate was out of my life.


Jidos Reality 25.11.12

I'm as nervous as a Tear Drop that’s about to be caught by a smile, my stomach is filled with butterfly’s that have no were to hide.



I'm shaking like a cloud that’s filled with thunder that’s about to bite, I'm sweating like the desert in the summer time.



That has just seen a mirage lost some were in the dark night. My thoughts create visions of my emotions slipping bye.



I wonder why they whisper as each one comes alive; they Trapped in my head all fighting for a place to hide.



My smile try’s to catch them but the reflection in the mirror has already got them, the words that I speak seem to have no meaning to what they think.



To lie would make me think has the truth just left me, the truth is the beginning of the past, the weakest link to every question that we ask.



A silent word that slowly eats away fast, many lies become long Shadows trying to open up doors that are locked.



The truth cannot be replaced even when memories have lost they place, I'm as nervous as a Tear Drop that will be lost some were in the past.



Jidos Reality 19.1.12

I'm sorry you gone and taken away from my life, just to let you know you will always be my best mate for life.



I can feel you smiling now because the Angels are holding you tight, my friend I Miss You Loads everyday and all night.



You will always be in my thoughts and make my smile come alive; you always find away to show me my life is al-right.



I wish I could hold you and see that smile in your eyes, I miss you that’s right that’s the truth I can’t lie the memory you have given me is an emotion that’s nice.



So till I meet you again my good friend Good bye good night and please sleep tight just know that your memory is locked away deep inside.



Were all my happiness lives that makes me smile all the time.



Jidos Reality 8.11.11

My mind is Blocked it’s broken like a stone, this rizzla I'm holding is the only life that I know.



Go away and run away see my soul has become cold, it’s trapped in the past its future could never be told.



It’s lost on a rough and bendy looking road Silence is alive but lost in a dream were many story’s could never be told.



It’s looking for the cradle where it came from before it was born, a place that has no destiny only time that protects its soul.



Where words have no meaning and memories are never known, where sound makes no noise and every feeling keeps you cold.



Every touch has no dream for a moment you wish you were free, to hold onto your life as it teaches you how to breath.



My smile craves for a cuddle but it’s locked up in a dark little cupboard, secrets whisper things that I never what to see when I sleep.



Go away and don’t look back at this thing that’s taken hold of me.



Jidos Reality 18.11.1

All These Problems in my life are putting me in a position that’s not right. Turning My Life into a misery and I ain't got the Anger in me to fight.



It’s making me wonder is there more to this life, I never asked it to come along and take away my smile.



Now it’s got me thinking what can I do to make this right, how can I Forgive and forget?

This Pain I feel inside.



My tears cry they own tears of tears without any smiles, with questions Wondering Whispering Shouting out why?



After I talk to you and lie to you, look into my eyes, everyday is a Struggle all these problems have come alive.



I want to rip out every Heat Beat I feel inside, destroy every answer that has a question why?



I'm sad but not a coward that would take his life, there’s no more love hear that feelings been gone a while.



I'm trying to be calm like snow falling on ice, my world is so cold it’s broken up like ice, every piece has a meaning it’s melting away my smile.

All These Problems that I have are destroying my life.



Jidos Reality 13.7.12

I can’t wait till I can hold you in my arms all night and watch your smile and feel your heart beating against mine.



I will always be your mum and your best mate, you will always be the reason I smile every day.



When you need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on, when you need a cuddle when you find things are hard.



You the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life and I thank you for this, I will make sure you will always get your every wish.



From today and tomorrow and for the rest of our life’s, Me and S.J will always be by your side, we would like to thank you for all the love you have brought into our life’s.



See this smile is a memory we both treasure all the time, our happiness is a dream come true because of you.



So till we see you smile and beautiful sparkle in your eye’s I’ll keep you warm and safe, in that special place were life is made.



Wrote this poem for “Hayley & S.J”



Jidos Reality 17.7.12

I love it when I see a smile all over your face; it’s such a lovely memory what a beautiful place.



You not only like my Mum but one of my best mates, you always there for me to make me happy no matter what it takes.



You keep my heart strong as I forget all my fears every day, your heart is warm and lovely like an Angel you can never be replaced.



You dry my tears when I cry and replace them with a smile all over my face, when the days are dark and my mind was cold as snow.



You wrapped your warm “Angel Wings” around me and made sure I was warm, you calm the storm in my head and made “My Heart Beat” Beat again.



When my world is upside down you take me to a place where happiness comes from.



Jidos Reality 8.11.12