Destiny is a word filled with hope and wishers that our dreams come true one day. From every laughter to every tear that is filled with every emotion that some time brings out the fear.



The same fear you have to feel all your life. So you can understand and become friends with that special thing they call happiness.


With every breath that we take and every step that we make and all the lye’s and the truth that we tell every day.



We should never worry it’s not scary it’s okay, our destiny will come around one day. It will knock on your door step and look you in the face. And show you there’s more to life than living it and worrying about thing’s every day.


Because not everything is so bad everything will be okay. My destiny’s not my option it’s just a story on this page.


Just remember the things the same emotions that scare us are the same.
Our tears are lovely they tell a story that says I wish I knew my destiny, so I can prepare for the next day.


Not to make the same mistake I did that was just yesterday, the same day i thought today will be a better would be a much day.  



Jidos Reality 27.9.11

His toned good looks defined his face. His jaw dropping Chin has finally found its place. Tom’s Chin is amazing it could never be replaced.


It’s truly a gem defiantly one of a kind. Once you lay your eyes on it you will never forget it.


You will always sit there and wonder how he got it. How would his life be if I cast a spell and made him miss it?


Amelia would not be happy if I made it look as small as a zit. With a Chin like that you know it will always take you places.



I first saw it in Borne Identity attached to Mat Damien’s different faces.
It got me thinking that Tom’s Chin is actually living, and moving around multiplying and breeding.


Because wants it got you hooked there’s no escaping this big Chin.
The 8th wonder of the world hope you enjoy the life of Tom’s Chin


Jidos Reality 7.9.11

If you think about it? Why did the chicken cross the road? How many people have you meet in your life? Is a question you cannot answer! But what you can answer is the memories of those you miss and no good or bad memories that would have built your character made you who you are today.

  
But one got to think about the reality! Outside the box it’s not about Now or when, or were, or why! It’s about hope they say time is a healer I beg to differ healing begins with in yourself, take control of your thoughts manage them like how you prepare your bath put the plug in Run your water till it’s nice and warm take your clothes of and jump in the bath.

The same concept works with your thoughts and feelings take control and feelings take control you cry when you happy you cry when you sad! But the two have 2 things in common your tears filled with memories and an Ocean filled with emotions.
  
I’m running going faster and faster not stopping or thinking to tie my shoe lace Next thing I know the thought kicks in! as I look down I need to stop and tie my Shoe laces as I slow down I stop and realize I have tripped over and landed on my face DISAPOINTMENT And anger is the first emotion I feel.
  
But now this accident has happened! All I can do is pick myself up and clean up my face and tie my shoe laces. Wants its broken all you can try and do is try to fix it or move on! Just like a beggar or a *** living on the street moving from one place to another just to survive it’s the same with your life surroundings it’s hard but you have to move on to take that control and mend your broken heart and thoughts you think you have it hard!

But just think for a moment imagine been BLIND Can never see your loved ones. Or been “DEAF” Can’t hear the whispers! Oh no feet or hands can’t walk we must understand we are all unique in a certain way and should not judge our selves’ against others around us!

Be pleased for your life you have because once you lose your personality through judgment or depression that hole only gets Deeper, Darker, And Cold then it kicks in the chain reaction. Doctors Medication! Deeper and Deeper it gets.
Your mind becomes like a rubix cube how to fix it now? It takes DAYS, HOURS, YEARS To fix it if you see or feel that hole in the distance change your path so
to avoid it.

And you won’t find the truth or answers to your Questions. Or the light at the end of the door! NO you won’t find them they will find you when the time is right. People are absolutely “amazing” some good some nasty you don’t feel it but you tend to take a bit of they personality which makes you learn and find you’re self
so be careful with who you meet and how you react in situations Live for today and Pray for tomorrow.  
  


Jidos Reality 26.8.11

For every smile and every cuddle from every wish to every tingle. Happiness creates a memory that will never be missed.    

Kept close to your heart where happiness is never lost. You always make me smile when I’m crying and text me when I feel lonely late at night.    

The way you look into my eyes and make me smile it’s so nice. You’re truly amazing and one of a kind.  

Want to hold you and tell you I love that smile. Happiness is all I feel because you’re in my life.    
Angels and roses, Sweet candles all night, you asked me to write you this poem to show you how I feel.    

Happiness is lovely so thank you for what you have done. Let me know how to win your heart because I want you.    

For this happiness it will never be missed.    

Jidos reality 11.8.11

I express my emotions with a mirror picture of myself in a happy place. When the truth is that the emotion I might or may be feeling is filled with rage And Anger.

How can one keep this up? Only for so long trying to get out of this rabbits hole only gets harder and harder as the more the rabbit tries the weaker it gets.

To understand my strength i must become friends with my weakness guiding my Negative thoughts through this hard time. To become friends with my positive feelings set them free and let the two become one, I have to find the balance or will end up like humpty dumpty who fell of the wall.

Emotions shatted with no one to pick the pieces up! I can’t hate can only forgive and forget and as I do I expect you to it’s the principle you would think? But the world is not so round.

The calm water on a Sunday morning may seem like that but beneath this place of calm water is utter madness and chaos.

Thoughts take control take your clothes off jump in the water go under and control this chaos that can’t be seen from where I’m standing. My mind is racing like a flock of geese flying north away from the winter to some were nice and warm.

Which path should I take? Don’t want to go the wrong way or hard way because the more it races the more they get consumed by!

“PANNIC” “GUILT” “HAPPINESS” “SUCCSESS" You shouldn’t throw stones if you live in a glass house iv been labeled i should go and get a bar code with my MED Numbers tattooed all over my body! I’m not a leader or a follower but I am only human just like you and everyone else.

My thoughts have now become my Drug addiction craving for this and that I’m addicted for wanting to be loved and respected, Love is a big word but feels and brings out a lot of pain and respect for one’s self. Do you believe in love or just the thought of having a peace of mind Love and anger are just thoughts that tend to affect our daily moods.


Can one describe how your mind and heart works with out laughing or crying? I don’t think so! Like getting up in the morning brushing your teeth making your dinner then going back to sleep. This “DEPRETION” And feelings of loneliness becomes a habit in your daily life.

  I then think that this habit needs to change like reading a novel you have to change to the next page to know how the story goes or ends! So with this illness I’ve got to change this page so that these days next time i take a bed time story book it will have a happy ENDING.

Jidos Reality 18.2.2010

The bottle is open, the rizzla rolled, the glass is half empty now the story’s told. The days are long and the nights are short, look at that drunk he can’t even walk, let alone talk.


  
He seems to drink all his memories away, hopping that the alcohol will take he’s tears away.


His stomachs rumbling and his mouth is hungry, He’s got three pounds in he’s pocket, that’s okay he’ll be round the alcohol store in a hurry.



His therapy sessions are long and boring He’s asked: Do you like feeling like this every morning!


What started out as a hobby has become a thirst? He knows deep down inside he will never be missed. Not even by the newsagent or the drunks that sleep in the dirt.


Or by the cold lonely mornings or the alcohol he sips or the smile and thing’s That he wished he would never missed.



Addiction needs help, not a story that twist’s. It needs love and understanding, so would you be the first?


Jidos reality 12.10.11

So tell me tell me what you thinking, we always used to share our dreams together. Thoughts mixing, touching so tingling, dreaming and wishing.


Late night talks, smiling and cuddling, turning me one every time we start kissing, blood rushing through our veins, exploding and needing.  


Love’s got us hooked, wanting and breathing Passing minutes lost in each other’s eyes It’s true you’re amazing, loving your style; it’s true you got me hooked and craving.


Thank you for my wish, I’ve been praying and waiting No more lonely days or dark nights with tears and memories just raining.      


Because you’re my baby girl It’s true you’re amazing, *******, love making, under the moon light.


Trust bonding your soft skin against mine, got you blushing and whispering Needing and holding, grabbing so tempting.  

So tell me what you’re thinking, because you’re truly amazing.

Jidos reality 04.08.11.