Its not what you think it is
When I let you in
Into my head and thoughts
into my quirks and knots
into my bed
where your morals take over
and refuse my lust
you're the type of guy I should be with
but you dont understand that im wounded
still have yet to heal
wounds that I fill
with fire and alcohol
wounds that I ease
at the expense of you
its true
I don't really like you
but you can come over tonight
and get me high with finger tips and lips
teeth on hips and racing blood
just don't look too much into it
i'm ravenous, sanguinary
you're timid
weak prey
offering up a vein

King of the roaches
you are

With your crown of garbage
and your kingdom of filth

In your lazy chair throne
With a controller of realms
The crusader of Los Santos

No don't get up
don't dare lift a finger
ill come to you

and linger
counting the insects as they crawl across the wall
across the primitive artwork of a previous lover

three paces behind
close enough to see
to speak
to touch

far enough away
for if anyone saw
to pull away and dismiss

you need your freedom your highness?
is that all you wish?

please be my guest
to frolic with the trollop in the kitchen
or even the harlot
who's ruby red lips you so distastefully admire

take no notice
after your gallivanting
how quietly I have escaped the castle.

you're always in the same kind of pain as I am
we always find each other
in loss
in pain
in raging alcoholic bliss

you've been a part of me for as long as I can remember

we can sing
we can dance
we can share the purest of emotion

but for some reason
WE
just never happen

all of our memories
can suffocate the simplest of minds

one of these days you'll take me away from this
from the longing of a soul
that's connected to mine

or maybe ill just be a stupid girl
for the rest of my life

shes going away

that girl that used to laugh

that girl that used to love

that girl that used to trust

she's slowly fading with each desolate day

stupid girl

if you miss me
I would never know.

so here I sit
with my alcohol blood
and my nicotine breath

confused

I see you
and your silly thoughts
talking like words have value

you don't see me
and my words cost nothing
and I give them freely

to the one who never listens

to the one

the one

the only one

silly....I know

to be leaving my heart

I left it

lol I left it on a door step
how stupid

shakes head and laughs

the gay boy down the street loves me more then you

and for all of my negatives
I have two positives that make up for them

yet I only bleed for you.
how stupid.

I wish you would grow up,
be the man you're pretending to be.
You're just a coward.
A scared little boy wearing men's armor.
I love you, I need you.
I need you to grow the **** up.
Im ready for more.
You're actions and excuses are proving that your tongue is false.
Painting pretty little pictures,
of what will be,
lol in my dreams, yeah.
I need you to make them come true.
Scared little boy wearing men's armor.
You're not ready for battle,
you can barely wield your sword.
Rise up and be a King and make me your Queen.
Not your hand maiden.