when I pass a mirror
and happen to glance into it
I do not recognize the face reflected there
I do not recognize the dark eyes
or the full cheeks
or the small mouth
how am I supposed to belong somewhere,
with someone,
doing something,
if I do not even belong in my own body?

I wake up with screams dead in my throat
and my heart dead in my chest.

sometimes the world gets to be too much
and reason runs away
through the cracks already made
in the great stone walls
holding everything out
that have done their job
too well.

they say there is a force and strength in love
for 'when two people are at one in their inmost hearts, they shatter even the strength of iron or bronze'

so please, let us form a force field.